That which nourishes me, destroys me!

I need to travel!

2010-03-31T17:01:00.003+08:00

Kenneth and I are planning to go either Vietnam or Macau for holidays by the end of this month! Woo Hoo!!! Our initial plan was to go to Taiwan but they said that Taiwan has shitty weather now and it's not a good time to go there. Fuck!!!! Both Hong Kong and Taiwan are out of the list due to the weather. Although I don't really mind about the weather but I guess we just wanna make our money worth spending on these trips when the weather is on it's best state!

Anyway, I might not be able to make it for any trips this month as my sister is seriously ill in San Francisco. The worst thing is she will be sitting for her final exams in a month's time and is now rushing her assignments in Frisco. The doctor said that if she can tahan the pain caused by her stomach, then she doesn't need to go on operation now. But if one day she cannot tahan anymore, she has to go on operation in Frisco.

Being a stubborn person like my sister, she refused to have operation over there because she stayed in a studio apartment alone and there would be no one there to take good care of her after the surgery. That's why she has made up her mind that she will do the surgery in Malaysia during her three months summer break. At least there will be a lot of people taking care of her in Malaysia.

Last night, my mum called me and she is very worried about my sister's condition now. She asked if my sister really cannot tahan and has to do operation as soon as possible, will I fly over to accompany her?

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

CONFIRM!!!!!! Who would reject going to San Francisco to take care of her sister when the air ticket and expenses are fully covered by her father? Sure go one! Even if I would have to pay for myself, I would go also because this sister is the closest to me. I wouldn't want anything to happen to her. I know if I go to San Francisco I wouldn't be able to go around to look see look see everyday, but at least I would be able to go to a few attractions. But I am still waiting for my sister's reply, if she needs me then I will fly there, if not, I will stay in Singapore!

Marco V @ Zouk.Sg

2010-03-27T18:11:00.003+08:00

I am truly happy that I am able to make it for Marco V tonight at Zouk Singapore. At the beginning I thought that I won't be able to see him at Creamfields Australia since I am no longer in Australia anymore. Furthermore, Kenneth was supposed to have night shift tonight and won't be able to make it for this event, which mean I would be staying at his house watching TV.

But he made my dreams come true by changing his night shift with his friends to morning shift!!! Yay!!! Techno House Hardcore shit again tonight! Muahaha... But I don't think we will be staying for long as Kenneth might get a bit tired after his 13 hours shift! We will see how it goes tonight! I can't wait to meet up some friends at this events because we used to rave together in Perth and we had such a great time raving together last time. The good old days huh!

I remember the last time I saw Marco V was in 2005 at Sub-Culture Festival held in Perth. He was so good that time and he really made the crowd jumped like a maniac for him. Ever since then, I haven't been listening to his tracks much and hopefully tonight he could perhaps play some of his classics especially RED BLUE PURPLE. It would be great!

PARTY ON!!!

Bye Bye Perth!

2010-03-26T13:59:00.003+08:00

Sorry for MIA-ed for so long as I was too busy packing and settling my stuff back in Perth. Guess what? I am in Singapore now!! Woot woot! Where else can I be right? It's either Malaysia or Singapore. It's good to be able to see Kenneth and be with him again as long distance relationship can be quite sucky sometimes.

Working and living in Perth has always been my dream and I have tried my very best to stay there no matter what happen. Last year December I have made the biggest decision in my life so far, to apply for my PR offshore, rather than onshore. I guess there are pros and cons waiting for my PR both onshore and offshore.

The best part about leaving Perth is I don't have to suffer paying my rent every week. I have been renting houses in Perth for the past 8 years in Perth and if I would have to calculate the amount I have paid on rental alone, I think I would be able to put a down payment for a new house. Moreover, I don't have to pay for rent even when I come back to Malaysia for holidays.

I do miss a lot of things in Perth though. The freedom, having my own room, my own space, having friends who come over to your house everyday (so convenient!!!), having friends who are into the same "shit" (I know, you know la), having my own car to drive around, able to be as lazy/slack as I want to, those rave events in Australia (raves in Singapore and Malaysia are pathetic!), missing Lexx, etc.

As for now, my plan is to look for a job in Singapore and hope that I would be able to find one as I'd rather work in Singapore than in Malaysia. I would cry working in Malaysia knowing that I am gonna stuck in the KL traffic jam and the Ringgit Malaysia currency which is a BIG NO NO NO!!!! Therefore, I would try my very best to find a job in Singapore first. Besides that, I can see Kenneth everyday if I work in Singapore!!!! That's the only thing that I am looking forward to.

I have had a lot of friends telling me that the working life in KL and Singapore is stressful and you really work like a dog here. But I think this can be a good experience for me to learn more new things. This is gonna be my first professional job, i don't really care as long as I have a job! I really can't wait to start working and earn my own money!!!

I am excited to come back as though I have pressed the "RESTART" button in my life. Everything would be different starting from now. I actually feel scared to tell you the truth. Scared because I don't know what would happen to me tomorrow and I am still quite uncertain about my life now. But I think this is gonna be a good change and I am loving it so far!

I am so glad that I have a supporting bf, my friends in Perth, Malaysia and Singapore who have been giving me good advises regarding my problems that I was facing last year. I am glad that I have made up my mind to continue my life by choosing a different path this time!!! If not because of all of you, I think I would still stuck in my insanity state! Hahahaha.... Thank you so muchie!!!!

Perth... I will be back!

It's the festive season again!

2010-02-14T19:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU! I can't even feel any CNY atmosphere in Perth and it's sad to be here without having family to celebrate it with. I kinda miss having endless of canned drinks everyday and all my CNY cookies especially pineapple tart! Drooooool! I hope mum keeps some for me until I go back in April.

Celebrated the CNY eve with my friends at my house for steamboat then went over to another friend's house for a few drinks. Still didn't manage to feel anything special about CNY but at that point of time, I couldn't be bothered liao. We wanted to play poker last night but ended up everyone being too lazy to start the game. Today is even worse!!!! I was supposed to have dinner with my friend and she FFK me to the max! I have no mood for anything now and definitely don't wanna have any poker night tonight.

Hmmm... what should I have for dinner later? Instant noodle? Maccas? This is pathetic!!! I should be having some good food in Malaysia at this very moment!!!!! Oh well, I can always have all of them for next year's CNY! Hahahahahaha....

One thing that is worth skipping my CNY this year is to see.....

TIESTO!

He was the bomb that night! I am so glad that I manage to get the ticket last minute and I had a lot of fun!!! I had been dying to see him perform live for ages (maybe ever since I started listen to Trance!!!) I have been waiting to see him for 10 fucking years! I could have CNY every year but I am pretty sure that I can't see him perform live every year! Hahahaha...

His remixes were awesome that night! At least its not so predictable like other djs! I have been to uncountable rave events and none of the djs could play as good as Tiesto! Armin is definitely too commercialize when he spins. Not saying that AVB is shit, but I think Tiesto is way much better than him.

Finally... I am not a Tiesto virgin anymore! Woooo Hooo... I hope he goes to KL next time! It's so hard to have him in Australia and most djs would love to spin in Asia countries because most Asian crowds kick ass! Hahahahah.... I could even dream of him when I sleep. If I had enough money I would go to three of his events in Perth!

Awwwww..... TIESTO!!! DON"T GO!!!!

Ahhhh.... Perth!

2010-01-25T15:58:00.002+08:00

I have landed in Perth last Wednesday and the weather was good that day. Not that hot and it was pretty cooling at 6am that morning. Drew told me that I had been lucky and I brought the strong wind to Perth! LoL! Funny guy! As usual, when i stepped into my house, I had been welcome by my green monster. I miss it too much!

In the end, I spent the next few days having friends coming to my house to catch up with me, smoking cones and drinking alcohol non-stop. At the same time, I went to Metros and Hits as well. I either got fucking drunk or fucking stoned during the weekends. Woo Hoo... Damn I miss this kinda life when I was in Malaysia.

Finally I get to use my computer here in peace without sharing it with my brother, sister or whoever!!! My own room, my own car, my own space, my own toilet.... having friends who have the same interest with me -- rave kaki, stoned kaki, karaoke kaki, gossip kaki, beach kaki,etc. The most important thing of all.... MY FREAKING FREEDOM!!!

If I had a magic lamp, I would wish to get 10 years younger so that I could party hardcore for another 10 more years! Hahahahaha...

Friendship Forever!

2010-01-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

Left 2 more days till I go back to Perth. I kinda feel a bit sad at this very moment to leave Malaysia even though I have been complaining all the time that I really hate it here. Every time towards the last few days I would feel that way. I think I am gonna miss my friends and family here, especially the comfortable life provided by my parents.

Yesterday, my friends since secondary school decided to come out for a few drinks, not really a farewell for me, but just to catch up for the last time before I fly back to Perth for 2 to 3 months. They made me the driver that night because they think that I should be quite relax in Perth not having to pick too many friends up from different places! Hahaha... what good friends I have!

Oh well, I am not so calculative and they have been my supporting friends for 15 years now. Even though our group do not meet really often due to some of them are married, or have engaged, or have bfs... They do have their own commitments in life too. But we promise to each other that we would try to meet up at least once a month if possible. I think we are doing quite well and have been meeting up 2 or 3 times a month.

I didn't manage to catch up with a lot of my friends when I came back because I am simply too lazy to stuck in the traffic jam or go all the way from Klang to KL to meet some of them. I had try my best to ask all of them out. But most of them are busy with their working lives and some of them have to travel in and out of Malaysia, so it's kinda difficult to arrange for a suitable time to meet up!

Oh well, since I am coming back for good now, I do not need to rush anyone to meet up with me coz I simply have too much time to meet up with them when I come back. My friends are so happy that I am coming back coz they will be having one more traveling kaki. So far they have planned to go to Korea in February, Vietnam in April and Melbourne in June. They have already took ages to plan and I just need to nod my head and pay the money! Hahaha...

Too bad. I do not want to take money from my dad to travel. It's really not that nice. It's easy for them to say because they are working now and they have their own money to spend. I don't. I eve feel embarrassing that I have to take money from my dad every time when I am going out!!! Good for me, not good for my dad!

Arrrgghh... I am actually kinda nervous to go back to Perth. I don't know why. I feel like I have left that place for a year and I have get used to the life in Malaysia! I guess I will be coming back here in no time and start to complain about my life in Malaysia again! Hhehehehe...

The Story of A Fucking Cinderella in the Fucking World!

2010-01-16T15:07:00.007+08:00

Sometimes I do think that I have the world's most useless sister! I have this youngest sister who is 22 years old this year and my parents adore her a lot because she is the youngest and we have all grown up, we are no longer as young and as cute as she is! I have another sister who is closer with me because we spend more time together growing up and our age gap is not far away from each other.

Before proceeding, I would like to tell you guys that as the eldest sister among my siblings, I do love all my brothers and sisters equally. I would help them if they needed my help, I would die for them if I had to. But before doing something stupid, I would evaluate that person and think whether he/she is worth dying for.

Today, my mum went to Genting with her friends for jungle trekking and will stay there for a night. My sister is going for sky trekking with her friends and I was supposed to go with her. I have to cancel it because my dad's secretary is taking half day off, my youngest brother is going to a wedding dinner later on, another brother going out with gf and left only my youngest sister at home. I have to go to the shop to help my father later on until night time, hence I canceled my sky-trekking plan.

I looked out of my window from my room and realized that my mum didn't hang the clothes so I was already in a bad mood thinking why my youngest sister never hang the clothes. I went to her room and asked her how come she woke up early this morning and she never hang the clothes? She said:

"Huh? I thought mummy hang already?"

FUCK U BITCH!!!! If mummy hang already do I have to fucking ask you? What the fuck is she doing the whole morning?!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!

I told her, if she dares to come back from Australia for good, I will make sure that she suffers and she fucking do something in this house when she is back for good!!! Coz now she is on holidays, I won't say much. But next time when she comes back for good, I will make sure that she fucking do something at home!

My youngest sister is obviously a princess! Why do I say that? That's because ever since she came back from Australia for about 2 months now. She NEVER do anything at home. She NEVER wash the dishes! She NEVER fold the clothes! She NEVER hang the clothes. FUCKING CB NEVER DO ANY FUCKING THINGS AT HOME LAH!!!!!!

The most dulan thing is my mum always side on her whenever she is not doing anything. If my mood is good, I simply do not give a fuck about my mum protecting her. But when my mood is not good, i will fucking make sure that everyone at home better stays in their room for never kena machine gun from me. Coz I would fuck all of them upside down!

My mum knew that no matter what happen, I would help her to fold the clothes every night, I would wash all the dishes every night. Sometimes she took me for granted by leaving all the clothes to me. As you know I do go out on weekends and I don't fold the clothes during weekends, she would leave the clothes there until Monday. Every Monday, I would have to fold a mountain full of clothes! Imagine having 7 people in the house.

If either me or my sister asked my youngest sister to fold the clothes or indirectly force her to do housework. My mum would help her to do everything before she even have the chance to do it. She will never ask my youngest sister to fold. She will only ask the two oldest daughters to do it. WHAT THE FUCK!!!

The reason why my sister and I help my mum to do housework is because we think that we should let my mum rest since she is getting older and we would be happier if she works less. But sometimes my mum makes me feel like I AM SO UNAPPRECIATED!!! Of all the things that I have done for her, her sights were probably covered by some kind of black magic voodoo shit which I do not know how to explain.

For example:

My mum and I wanted to go Bangsar wanted to shop for boutique clothes and since my sister is a 'boutique frequent flyer', obviously she should drive us there rite? She expected my mum to drive and was telling us that she is not sure how to go there! BUT NO FUCKING WAY!!!FUCKING CB CUNT!!! She drove her friends there dunno how many fucking times and she shopped there dunno how many fucking times and now she told us she didn't know the fucking way? I was so fucking pissed off at her i shouted at her saying that even it was my first time to the boutique street but I do fucking know how to go to Bangsar, if she doesn't wanna drive I will fucking drive! My sister was so so scared in the end she offered to drive.

The verdict:

My mum complained to my aunt that ever since I come back from Perth, my mood is very bad! I have bad tempered. I get angry easily, I no longer tolerate with anything. I shouldn't be shouting at my sister. If I am so angry to be the one driving, then she can drive. WAT THE FUCK rite? I was angry at my sister because she wanted my mum to drive. I was mad at her because of my mum. Not because I have to drive there. FUCKING HELL!

The moral of the story:

Never be a KPO when your evil princessy sister is forcing your mum to drive. You will never know, your mum might be enjoying it. Ain't life's a bitch?

For another example from my sister:

She is more mean than me and more fierce. She would never do things for my youngest sister. Therefore, every night she would take all the dishes to my youngest sister's room and left them all there till morning. After a few days, my youngest sister had to guai guai wash dishes before she goes to bed. Then there was once my mum was sweeping the floor and my sister would love to help her. My sister told my mum that she would sweep and my youngest sister would mop the floor, and vice-versa. My youngest sister told my sister that if she wanna do all that then she can do it all by herself because she was busy. Busy not because she is masturbating in the room to fulfill her sexual needs or anything. But she was too busy chatting on MSN.

The Verdict:

My sister exploded! Fucking scolded my youngest sister and was sweeping the floor in a bad tempered. Then my mum said "If you are not happy doing all this thing, then don't anyhow scold your sister. You don't have to d it if you don't want to. I never ask you to help me." Speechless. My sister was so angry that time she didn't do anything and she said she was happy letting my mum did all that at that moment because she was disappointed at my mum. She wanted to help my mum to train up my youngest sister and in the end, my mum never appreciate that.

The moral of the story:

Never be a KPO again when your evil princessy sister decided to learn some voodoo spells online while your mum is busy cleaning up the house. You will never know, you mum might be enjoying it?!!!

I am not saying that my mum doesn't love us or anything. I know it's hard to treat everyone equally in the big family. But maybe she should do something which will make more sense? Even at school, teachers will only reward kids who are in their good behaviors. You could only scored HD if you studied hard. But at this moment, I felt so fucking unappreciated. I have done some much in this family and it seems like my parents are treating my youngest sister the best.

Even if she never comes back home for a few days, my father never ask. IF I fucking never come back for one night, my father asked where the fucking hell did I go to? Every time when my sister goes to Melaka, Penang, PD, or anywhere which required her to stay overnight, she could just disappear without saying anything to anyone. For me, I had to fucking report to my father every time I wanna fucking go to Singapore!!!! I am fucking 28 years old now, compared to my sister I fucking know how to take a good fucking care of myself!!! If I tell my mum that I didn't wanna tell my dad that I am going to Singapore, my mum would fucking give me the guilt trip the whole day till I couldn't stand it!!! What the fuck rite???

My mum knew that if my youngest sister would have to tell my dad that she is going here and there everyday, my dad would get mad. So, she would try her very very best just to protect her.But since she can't protect so many people, the eldest has to be sacrificed first. Ever since my sister came back from Australia, I can count with my fingers how many times she sleeps at home. I am not joking here. She is always sleeping at her friend's house and my parents didn't fucking say anything.

I felt like my childhood was being tortured and torn apart by my parents after seeing how much freedom my sister is having now as compared to mine last time. My youngest sister told me that she hates studying in Australia and she can't wait to come back to Malaysia. Of coz lah, over here she can live like a princess. No need to do any fucking things at home.

A lot of my friends asked me why do I like living in Perth so much? It's so fucking quiet and stuff. Well... One word -- FREEDOM! I do not have to report to anyone. I do not need to help any fuckers to do anything. I wash my own clothes, I cook my own dinner, I clean up my own toilet, etc. I am happy to do everything for myself. I don't even mind doing housework for my housemates coz I know they would help me back by doing their parts.

Even if they don't, I can fucking ask them to do their houseworks and they will fucking do it. If not happy, then move out and move on with life. But when it comes to your own family, you can't choose your family and you have to fucking live with it! That's why I don't wanna stay at home, I don't wanna feel so unappreciated even though I have done so much in the family!!! I don't wanna feel so controlled by my parents when I see that my sister is not being controlled by them! This is just fucking unfair!

Don't come telling me because I am more playful and this and that shit that's why my parents are controlling me more. Use your fucking brain to think then! Your not fucking living in my house, you will not fucking understand! I sooooooooooooooooo wanna go back to Perth right now!!! NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!!!!!!!

I am feeling so much better now. I am so glad I have this fucking blog! At least a place for me to vent my anger! I fucking need this space on my own.

Three more days to paradise.

Voodoo skill to be learned -- "How to make yourself look like a innocent bitch when you are actually a fucking selfish bitch!"

1 Black Heart
1 Full Selfishness
1 Fuck Care Attitude
1 Loving Mother
2 KPO Sisters
1 Loving Father
1 Full Selfishness
1 Full Selfishness
1 Full Selfishness
1 Full Selfishness
1 Full Selfishness
1 Full Selfishness (Oooppss... did I mention all that already?)

Maybe I should learn the skill of being selfish and not loving others too much in order for others to love me. No wonder my sister gets the best of the best from my parents!

Disclaimer:I do not hate my mum. I do not hate my sister. But sometimes my sister's laziness could lead to hatred. But she is my sister no matter what happen, I can't hate her for long. But if I were to stay in Malaysia for good and if she is coming back for good, I will make sure that my life here in Malaysia will be worth living for. I will fucking do something to make her contribute to this family. As for my mum, I love her too much sometimes it hurts.

Spring Cleaning!

2010-01-15T20:59:00.002+08:00

It's the same time every year for spring cleaning to welcome the Chinese New Year. It's sad to know that I won't be able to celebrate CNY with my family and friends in Malaysia. CNY is very important in my family and they always believe that it's auspicious to celebrate CNY at home with your family. Another thing is, Valentine's Day falls during CNY too! Damn!

I really don't wanna miss this year's CNY but I have to because I have a lot of stuff to settle in Perth. I believe that if I go back to Perth after CNY, I won't be able to settle my Perth stuff in just 2 weeks time. My house rental contract ends in March, so I have to go back before that date to ask if any one of my housemates would wanna continue with the contract. If not, they would have to move out once my lease ended.

Spring cleaning at my house is crazy! I am so scared of it every year to welcome the new year. My mum would wash everything in the house... like every inches of the house. We have to move all the furnitures out so that my mum could clean up the floor and wall thoroughly. We have to wipe every little thing in the house, clean all the plates and glasses in the cupboard! What the fuck rite? Since they are all in the cupboard and we hardly use it and they are clean... why bother? Then my mum would say that "the spider and lizard shit inside and crawl around the plates and glasses, it's dirty." Urrgghh... I seriously need a maid during spring cleaning!

Not only that, my mum would also clean up our two big fridges and throw away all the expired stuff. I love doing this as I really can't stand fridge with expired stuff and dirty stuff in there. It just made me feel like it would contaminate my fresh food and there would be a smell in the fridge! Eeeekkk... In Perth, I clean up my fridge every 3 to 4 months. Even if I am busy, I would at least check on all the food and bottles to check whether they have expired.

Now, I have cleaned up all my cupboards, my wardrobe and study table in my room because I know that I will be going back to Perth next week and won't be able to clean up before CNY. Anyway, I have found out a few boxes of 'treasure' while I was cleaning my cupboard! I used to collect stamps, bus tickets, postcards, birthday cards and celebrity photos when I was young.

I used to have more than 40 pen-pals from all over the world and I exchanged a lot of stuff with them. Those were the days... Ah! Those memories! Hehehehe... I really wanted to throw everything away to make space for stuff that I am sending back from Perth. But in the end, I just couldn't do it! Some of the stamps are valuable coz they are those first release stamps and I did queue up at the post office early morning just to wait for that first release stamps! Hahaha...

Guess what? I have to do all these when I go back to Perth! Fuck! I fucking hate cleaning so many stuff in one time because my nose is sensitive to dust. I would keep sneezing and have runny nose throughout the whole cleaning process!!! I should wear a mask next time! No matter what happen, I can't wait to go back to Perth.

Four more days to paradise!

Good Thing is Flowing in Slowly.

2010-01-12T17:20:00.002+08:00

Something made me really happy today and they really made my day today! I received good news from Murdoch University regarding my transcript credit points. There was a tiny problem when I lodged my PR application the other day. My agent told me that from the way he looked at my transcript, after calculating the advanced standing and all the credit points, it seems like I have only studied 1 1/2 years in Murdoch University, not 2 years.

I need that 2 years to be qualified to apply for an Australian PR. My agent said that I need a letter from Murdoch to further explain my situation and how my credit points are being calculated and to prove that my course is a three years course and I have studied two years there. (Failed units are not included! heh!) So, last month I had to go through a few people at the International Office explaining my condition through phone and emails, spoke to 4 or 5 people.

In the end they decided to issue me that letter but it made my situation worse by saying that my degree is 72 points degree and I am being awarded 48 points of advance standing which means I have only studied one year at Murdoch University? What the fuck man! Moreover, I spoke to the head of the International Office and he didn't sound friendly and not willing to help me in this matter. As if I am wasting his fucking time to settle my problem.

So, I didn't bother calling or writing to them and decided to wait till I go back to Perth then go to their office and talk to them face to face. Then one of my friend asked me "How come you didn't ask X to help you settle your issue? She works in the International Office and works with the Dean. Maybe she will be able to make thing easier to talk to since all of them are her colleagues."

"Fuck!! Yeah hor! How come I never thought of her?"

Guess what? She only took 3 days to settle the letter that I needed and I am so glad that she made things clearer over at the International Office side. I really owe her one big one! Will treat her go makan once I go back to Perth. Before that, I took almost three weeks corresponding with those International Officers because they said they were busy at that time. Heng I have a friend working in there, or else, I would take longer than that to settle!!!

Now I am hoping that my agent would tell me that the letter is good enough to support all my documents in order for me to get my PR.

God and Allah in Malaysia

2010-01-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

The Real Meaning of Allah

I logged in to my Facebook account this afternoon and found out that I was invited by my friend to join this group called "We support the use of the name Allah by all Malaysian." I clicked "join". This is not for fun, but I decided to join because I think that The word "Allah" can be used by everyone if you really know the origin of this word.

I also came across this group called "Menentang Penggunaan Nama Allah Oleh Golongan Bukan Islam" (Opposing the Usage of "Allah" by Non-Muslims). Do you have any idea how many people joined this group???? Fucking more than 166,000 people which compared to 38, 779 people who supported using "Allah" as God by all Malaysians.

Honestly, some people do freaked out reading the news everyday that churches are being burned down, we are gonna have racial riots soon... But the Government has strongly reassured us that nothing serious would happen in Malaysia and they will try their very best to find the culprits who has been organizing the burning down of churches plans.

Sigh... I just don't understand. We have celebrated close to 53 years of Independence Day together, have been having each other as neighbors, friends, classmates, workmates, regardless of the skin colors. This kind of issues don't have to happen in Malaysia just because of one word.

I used to be so proud of being a Malaysian and called this beloved country "my home". I guess I changed my mind ever since long time ago. I am still proud, but not as proud as last time and would call other places my home if I am given a choice. The racial and ethnic thread in Malaysia is so tensed now that I am so afraid to be living in this country. Even though life is still normal around here and there hasn't been people killing other people. But I am afraid that this kind of things would happen sooner or later if this incident is not handled properly.

I met up some Iranian people while I was in Phuket and they said "Malaysia is a good Islamic country!We would love to stay there than Iran." I agreed to that but I would like to take that back this time. Malaysia is a good Islamic country, IF only the people here are not shallow minded and willing to accept other race's religion and belief.

So far, this is still a loving country lah. I am still talking to the Malay aunty who works at the restaurant next to my father's shop. I am still chatting with my Malay friends and we are still friends. There are a lot of Malays out there who also think that this is just a stupid matter and Malaysia people can do better than that!

For "Allah's" sake, I just can't wait for everything to cool down and by the time I read the newspaper it won't be news about burning churches and "Allah" this and "Allah" that.

Does Allah means God?

2010-01-08T18:10:00.002+08:00

There has been this controversy in Malaysia over the High Court decision last week allowing a Catholic weekly magazine to use the word "Allah" in their Malay edition magazine to refer as their "God", Jesus Christ.

The word "Allah" is a word used by Muslim as a reference to their God and most people do believed that the word "ALLAH" can only be used to refer to Muslim's God. But the truth is "Allah" means "GOD" in Arabic word. Hence, now all Malaysians (no matte what skin colors they are) are supporting the fact that all of us are allowed to use the word "Allah", not just Muslims or Malays.

I just read the newspaper this afternoon that there were a few peaceful protests over the Allah issue were held at three major mosques after the Friday prayers. Some of the more hardcore and violent protests have burnt down a few churches in Malaysia. Our Home Minister Datuk Seri Hishammuddin Tun Hussein said that the government would not hesitate to use any means to punish anyone who threatens the security of the country.

I simply don't understand why some people can be that shallow minded. For those people who protested, I think they should get their facts right first before doing anything stupid! "Allah" just means God in another language. If they can't tell the difference between religion and language then they shouldn't be surviving now. They should be sent back to primary school and learn the A to Z correctly in order to understand the whole freaking situation.

If people do think that the word "Allah" can't be used by non-muslims. Then, does that mean that when I used the word God as a reference to my Buddhist God, am I referring to the Christian God, Jesus Christ as well? So, I am not allowed to use the word God to refer to my God? I should just use Mandarin word -- 神(shen) as a reference to my own God?

Wow! I nearly lost myself there! Why make life so complicated? We have Malays, Chinese, and Indians here. So, using any languages as a reference to our God should be allowed. Even the High Court has already approved the word "Allah" means "God", why can't the Muslim people in Malaysia accept this fact and why do they still wanna bury themselves into this kinda stupid actions? It's 2010, people in this century should have the wisdom to know the difference between right and wrong. Not just do thing blindly just to protect their rights. I understand, I do wanna be special! I do wanna protect my rights! I do wanna protect my religion! But to create a HUGE issue out of this tiny issue is just plain stupid!

What happened to the 1Malaysia campaign that is being promoted widely in Malaysia last year emphasizing national unity, ethnic tolerance and government efficiency? Everyone is happy and is trying their very best to make this country a peaceful country and a better place to stay. But it seems like some people are just not too happy about what they are having in this country.

Utterly disappointed!

The Life of a Vegetarian Day #4

2010-01-07T22:25:00.003+08:00

Day Four -- Nothing really special but I do have cravings for a lot of meaty stuff! Sometimes I do go insane! Hahaha... I realize that ever since I am on this vegetarian diet, I get hungry so easily. Most of the snacks at home are meat products and I could only munch on chocolate here and there but not too much.

The best part about being a vegetarian is I get to eat more vegetable. Before this, I hardly even eat vegetable and would only took 2 or 3 scoops of vegetable per meal. But now I cannot be too picky or else my poor little stomach is gonna suffer! Hahaha... Every meal I only have bean curd and vegetable to choose from. It's either fake chicken with bean curd, fake fish with bean curd, etc. Suddenly I feel so much healthier than before!

The downside of being a vegetarian is when all your friends decided to meet up for lunch or dinner, you can't possibly force them to have vegetarian food with you because not everyone likes vegetarian food. Some people do think that having vegetarian food is a waste of money coz they are not real. Well, vegetarians do deserve to have their own freaking restaurants to have a nice meal like normal people too! In Malaysia, they even have vegetarian cafe for young people and really huge vegetarian restaurants around. So, it's still not that bad to be a vegetarian in Malaysia!

Now I can only have fries, salad, bread as my lunch or dinner when I meet up with my friends. But for my friends who don't mind having vegetarian food, they would offered to have dinner at the vegetarian restaurant. For example, this Saturday I am meeting up with my two best friends and one of them, Khim's family has became a long term vegetarian. Not her, but her family. So, she has vegetarian food everyday at home, unless she is eating out.

She recommended an organic restaurant to meet up and all of them are fine with them. Everyone was shocked when they heard that I am on my vegetarian diet for a good cause! Hahaha.... I am actually a strong Buddhist believer. Friends who know me well will know that I have a lot of rules that I want myself to follow in my religion. But I am happy to do so, even though I have to sacrifice things or food that I love.

Some people may think that I am superstitious, some people may think that I am stupid. But I believe that if I could sacrifice something that I love for God, I don't really mind. I'd rater believe in something than not believing in anything at all.

Anyhoo... I hope that my one month of vegetarian journey will be a great one. I hope that I will be able to learn something by the end of the day. Who knows? I might become a vegetarian for the rest of my life? Hehehehe...

"Whatever you do, make it an offering to me -- the food you eat, the sacrifices you make, the help you give, even your suffering." -- Bhagavad Gita

"There is no higher religion than human service. To work for the common good is the greatest creed." -- Woodrow Wilson

I am a Vegetarian!

2010-01-05T16:20:00.002+08:00

Today is my second day of becoming a vegetarian. I have decided to be a vegetarian for a month due to religious purpose. As you know most staunch Buddhist believe that being a Vegetarian may benefits their life at the very moment and afterlife.

I went to the temple the other day and have promised to take up this HUGE challenge as God has answered my prayers. In returns, I will be a Vegetarian for a month. Being a would also ensure purification of mind, body and soul. I hope that this one month of vegetarian would purified me! I am too evil sometimes.

Why is this a HUGE challenge for me? That's because I hardly take any vegetable and it is definitely not my favorite food. Moreover, I am in Malaysia right now surrounded by all the yummy food!! Especially now all my friends are busy calling each other out for gathering and it's always meaty stuff involve! I am so doomed!

I could only order Roti Kosong at mamak stalls now. Normally I would order Nasi Lemak with Ayam Goreng plus Mata Kerbau (Sunny side up). *sigh* If my friends decided to have dinner outside, I could only have my dinner at home and met them later on. Maybe I would just stare at them eating while I drool one corner. Sianz!

Luckily my dad is a long term vegetarian now and there are vegetarian food at home for lunch and dinner! At least those food are not all vegetable, we do have vegetarian fish, vegetarian chicken, vegetarian lamb and all the bean curds which are my favorite! My siblings said that I am walking on a suicide path for making a promise to God, but I seriously do not think that way. Coz I think I can do it.

I have already had vegetarian food for lunch for the past 3 months and every Sunday we follow our dad to have vegetarian food. The difference now is, I am doing it for both lunch and dinner for a month. That's all. Most of the old people are happy to know that I am on vegetarian diet now because they think that it's good for myself and my family. Body, mind and soul cleansing for the new year. LoL!

Seriously, I am craving for KFC now! Hahahaha... I told my sister this afternoon that I am not a big fan of KFC, but I would die for a bite of KFC at this very moment!

FIGHTING!!!!

Happy New Year 2010

2010-01-04T02:55:00.002+08:00

My first entry of 2010! I wanted to blog on the first day of 2010 but was too tired to do that due to the hardcore party I had the night before. Anyway...

Happy New Year 2010 to all of you. I hope that 2010 will bring great blessings to you throughout the year and fill up your life with lots of joyous moments, good health and great wealth!!

So... how was your NYE celebrations?

I was charging my body energy on the first day of the new year. I should have woke up early and did more things on that day. Anyway, I had my friends from Singapore and Perth who came to K.L on the 30th and on that night itself we have already partied the night away! Pretty hardcore party! I left their hotel early because I knew that I had to save up some energy for NYE.

Kenneth came on NYE and again, we went clubbing that night for NYE celebrations. Again, the same group of people. Again, we drank till we were all fucking drunk. Again, we went back to their hotel for second session. But from this time onwards, that was some hardcore party going on in that hotel room and I enjoyed it the most.

OMG!! I love K.L so much! Whatever shit you want, you can get it here! How good is that? =)

All of us were quite GG throughout the whole night with our stuff... Kenneth and I reached home at around 8.30am on New Year's day. Slept till 12.30pm, went out for lunch with my mum and aunt, came back home and slept again, woke up for dinner again, came back home and slept again. I hadn't been sleeping enough for the past few days before new year.

But I was glad that Kenneth could come over to Malaysia and spent that precious 3 days with me. That was the best part of 2010 for me. I know I will miss him and I probably won't be seeing him for the next few months, but I am looking forward to the day we meet again in Singapore! woot woot!

Anyway, like all new year traditions go, this is my resolution for the new year:

Nothing.

Yeah, I can't be fucked making any new year resolutions that I know I won't be able to commit. In fact, I have never complete any of my new year resolutions for the past few years. Hmmm... Maybe I am not as discipline as the rest of the people out there. I will just let it be and fulfill my life's satisfaction naturally...

This is the Sophia I know. =)

"New Year's Resolution: To tolerate fools more gladly, provided this does not encourage them to take up more of my time" James Agate

"I made no resolutions for the New Year. The habit of making plans, of criticizing, sanctioning and molding my life, is too much of a daily event for me" Anais Nin

"New Year's Day… now is the accepted time to make your regular annual good resolutions. Next week you can begin paving hell with them as usual" Mark Twain

"Making resolutions is a cleansing ritual of self assessment and repentance that demands personal honesty and, ultimately, reinforces humility. Breaking them is part of the cycle" Eric Zorn

Merry Christmas!!

2009-12-25T20:09:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas to all of you!! Surprisingly, this year's Christmas eve is pretty quiet for me. Didn't do much things and didn't even countdown in the club. I guess all my friends are too lazy to stuck in the traffic jam and human jam all around KL. So, in the end we decided to just spent our night at Starbucks. LoL!

Anyway, Christmas eve is not that important and my friends and I have decided to sacrifice our Christmas eve countdown for.........

Steve Aoki!!!

Muahaha....

They called him The Jesus of Dimmak coz he does look like Jesus! LoL! He will be spinning at M.O.S Euphoria tonight!I didn't even know that he will be in K.L on Christmas Day. Since I found out that I had to rush back to Malaysia from Singapore and have to spend Christmas here... I googled "Christmas eve Malaysia nightlife club"...

wweeeeooooowwweeeeettt....

K.L sure never disappoint me on this special day!! At least, I know that it will be a special Christmas night, not a normal Christmas carol songs night thingy! I manage to psycho my friends into going to see him spin on Christmas Day! Why would you wanna spend so much money on Christmas eve and listen to shitty music when you can spend the same amount of money on Christmas Day for some uberly cool electro music? woot woot!!!

I hope he spins a bit more hardcore tonight!

Heh.

P.S: Don't worry Santa, I will be a good girl tonight. ^________________________^

Wrong Time. Wrong Place.

2009-12-24T03:10:00.002+08:00

I hate to be here now. Especially when I couldn't spend my Christmas and New year with Kenneth. I had to rush back to KL yesterday because my PR application is running out of time and my agent wanted me to see him later on today!!! I left 6 more days to submit my PR application and I hope that everything will be fine. Anyway, I am so glad that last minute my Malaysia friend introduced this migration agent to me and he is very efficient in everything! No complaint so far.

I really don't wanna fuck my PR application up this time!!! Just a few days ago I have received the most important letter from CPA saying that my Australian degree is eligible to apply for PR in Australia! Woot woot! I can't imagine how some people can apply their PR all by themselves without the help of agent. Hmm... I really can't do this alone as I am not a really hardworking person, seeking information myself!!! I would ruin the whole thing if I would have to apply it myself. Hahaha...

Sigh... I feel so lonely during these coming festive seasons!!! I sooooo wanna be in Kenneth's arms right now at this very moment! I think I am too used to having him around and it's sad that I have to leave again! I am not sure when will I be able to see him again this time. Most probably next year March?

I hope so! I have made up my mind that I am gonna work in Singapore and at the same time apply for my Australian PR offshore. I think it's a great idea that I can spend time with Kenneth while waiting for my PR. I am not allowed to work in Perth while waiting for my PR and my parents are not gonna support me financially. So, it would be a waste of time if I wanted to stay there. What if I have to wait for one year to get my PR? One year without working?

I would die, seriously!

I do have friend who is still waiting for her PR onshore for more than a year now and she is going insane. But she is a lucky bitch! Her parents are supporting her, so she can just bum around everyday! I also have a friend who got her PR after 6 months wait, which is considered quite fast! But, I don't wanna take the risk. 6 months or 12 months, paying rent there could really kill me! I'd rather stay in Malaysia, no need to worry about anything. I am well taken care of over here! ^^

Sianz. If I can't get a job in Singapore, I would have to work in Malaysia. Sianz. Uberly SIANZ thinking about the RM currency rate! I know I will be very, very, very, very, very sad to leave Perth coz I love that place so much! I am pretty sure I am gonna fucking cry a lot of times before I fly back here.

Soon... I have to go back and settle all my shit there and come back to Malaysia for good.

Fuck me!

Flightless Bird... Have I Found You?

2009-12-11T14:43:00.002+08:00

The other day when I watched Twilight for the third time with my cousins, I noticed a song, a beautiful song that I had to watch Twilight three times to be able to notice it! What a waste! But... this I can explain! First time when I watched this movie, I couldn't wait to get out from the cinema as it bored me to death! After a year, I watched it on DVD with my cousin, I left half way as there's no need to watch a boring show for the second time.

Then, for the third time my another cousin who is staying at my house now, said he wanted to watch Twilight before New Moon. I watched the whole movie with him and also explained some of the scenes and story for him as I have read the story books! Towards the ending part, Flightless Bird, American Mouth was played while Edward and Bella were dancing romantically at their prom.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine

To tell you the truth, the song and that scene is soooooooo romantic and sad at the same time. My heart stopped for a few seconds when I saw that scene with that song! Ever since then, I downloaded the soundtrack and have it on repeat on my computer. To be honest, I don't understand the true meaning of the whole lyrics! I fell in love with a song that I never understood!

Here are the lyrics:

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I’m a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

I have googled the song's meaning and I have read a few of them. It seems like quite a lot of people fell in love with this song and they have deciphered the meaning of this song! I am a lazy ass... I decided to just copy and paste one of my favorite meaning here.

I believe the song represents a relationship in it’s entirety, from start to finish for one person, let’s just say the guy.
The first part of the song, from wet boy to baby hair represents childhood and the loss of innocence. And feeling like you have no voice in the world.
To me, stealing a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere, trying to find the one you love, the one who could possibly be your other half. A dog-eared map is an old one. You can look everywhere, but these are the places everyone has already been so you won’t be able to find somebody who you think is special. Those places have already been looked in, and they’re not for you.
And after searching, in all the places you thought, you find your flightless bird. I find the flightless bird to mean that it’s a special person, a flightless bird, someone who has evolved from their current state (a bird) to become an exceptional, special person. That flightless bird, the special one, is jealous and weeping because they can’t find anyone to accept them for who they are, not normal.
I think American Mouth, means the ability to communicate, how the two lovers understand and talk to each other. Big pill looming I think means the future, what can happen to this love.
The second part of the song is phase 2 of the relationship, past the honeymoon stage. I think the house cat part is an analogy to becoming lazy in love, and not appreciating the person as the one who is your true love anymore. Pissing, ruining the relationship because you got too comfortable.
The fishing lures have gone cold, since you are not trying to catch each other anymore. I think the next line is where the lover realizes that the relationship has changed. I see the clean blood of Christ to means I’ve judged and I want some atonement, to reconcile what we have become.
Finally, the last part,
Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down
Since in theory a flightless bird is already grounded, in general terms, the love made them feel like they could fly (at least the flightless bird) And since being made feel like they could fly, it’s lost now. But, American mouth, we can still communicate, this does not have to end, the big pill (the future) is stuck, but we can stop it from going down.
Deciphered by theswellsavvygirl

I love the way she decoded the meaning for the whole lyrics... it sounded even more beautiful and more romantic! Aw~~~ I am in love again! =)

Singapore... again!

2009-12-10T16:44:00.003+08:00

Guess where am I now? Yes... in Singapore again! I think I would be able to close my eyes and walk around the Singapore custom. hahahah... I was so excited to come here because I will be able to see Kenneth again and this time there were so many things to tell him about my Phuket trip and my PR plans.... if he has the time to listen lah coz he will be having exams this week.

Anyway, I will be meeting more friends at Zoukout this Saturday. I even have more friends who used to study in Perth and will be going to Zoukout but I am not meeting all of them. We will go with the flow and if it's fated to bump into each other, we would somehow! LoL! I think it might not be that easy to bump into your friends as this is gonna be a HUGE event. Well, I am not too sure as this is my first time to Zoukout.

Lots of my friends told me that it's nothing special, Perth's events are much better than this! Apparently, they said most posers go to Zoukout! Hahahaha... To show off their bodies, their bikinis, their this and that than for the music. But hey, I go there because it gonna be my first time and Armin Van Buuren will be there.

Personally, I do not enjoy much at outdoor rave, especially when the weather is hot and humid, it just put me off sometimes. But I think I may enjoy myself to the fullest as I have my dear and my Perth friends with me that day! How bad can it be rite?

Armin Van Buuren will be spinning at Zoukout, Singapore this Saturday and off he goes to Zouk, Kuala Lumpur on Sunday! That's pretty awesome!!! At least my friends in KL will be able to see Armin even if they don't go to Zoukout. But it is sure gonna packed like hell at Zouk, KL!!!

Happy Long Weekends to all my Malaysian friends start from today!!!! Party hard!!!

Missing Phuket!

2009-12-07T18:32:00.013+08:00

Waiting for our flight... it felt like forever.

I have just came back from Phuket and I have already missing that damn place! I would say that it's a trip that was full of fun, laughter, joy, excitement, mang-zhang-ness, moody, relax, exhausted, great companions, traveling lessons learned, etc. Everything has already went wrong from the beginning when we were at the airport.

We checked in early but we went to the boarding gate a bit late. The flight is 7.10 am and we reached the boarding gate at 7.04am. The people who worked there refused to let us run to our flight because they said that there's no time. HHHHEEEEELLLLLLOOOOOO.... the flight was still there and we only need 2 minutes to run there. They said they couldn't do that because it was too late. When we asked about our luggage he said they would take our luggage out from the flight.

WOW!!!

So, you could spend that fucking time to take our luggage out but you couldn't let us run to our flight? What kind of nonsense was that? FUCKING AIR ASIA! They refuse to answer my question on this though. Plus, their attitude is very bad as if we are some low class people. WTF??!! I had to purchase another air ticket to Phuket which cost around RM300 one way to Phuket. Originally we only paid around RM270 for our two ways Phuket flight. Damn it! FUCKING AIR ASIA!!!

I reckon this is how they earn our money. When we went to the counter to purchase our new tickets, there were at least 20 people who missed their flight! I kid you not! Everyone was in a really bad mood that time and everyone was complaining to each other on how FUCKED UP AIR ASIA was! Cheap airline means cheap service. Now I know! FUCKING AIR ASIA!

After that, we had to wait till 12.45pm for our next flight to Phuket and that flight delayed for another two hours. FUCKING AIR ASIA! They can be late but we couldn't! Lesson learned, be sure to be at your boarding gate 20 minutes at least before your departure time. AIR ASIA SUCKS BALLS!!! They said they have paged for our names but we never heard anything! While we spent our FOREVER waiting for our flight, the speakers inside the airport is shitty!!! We couldn't even hear what they were saying. Too soft and the words were blur. If I were a westerner waiting there, GG to the max! I won't be able to understand a single shit!

View from toot-toot!

Seriously, 4 days and 3 nights are not enough to go for day tours + night tours + shopping + food hunting + bars + clubbing + get a tan + relax + massage! NO WAY!!!! You need at least a week to be able to finish all those. We were rushing the whole time when we were there. On the first day when we reached Phuket, we had to stay in the hotel for 3 hours because it was raining cats and dogs, so we couldn't walk around.

Nice food with reasonable price @ Lair Lay Tong (Highly recommended!)

The toot-toot car sent us around Patong Town looking for the restaurant that we wanted to go -- Lair Lay Tong. He sent us to Lay Tong which is two different places. Sometimes I nearly puke out my blood speaking to them. How I wish I could speak Thai at that time to make my miserable life less miserable. Anyway, the restaurant was just around the corner and he sent us to somewhere far! But we had a great dinner that night, we have ordered deep fried shrimp with vermicelli, deep fried monk fish, kang kung, seafood tom yum soup, chicken wrapped in pandan leaves, minced pork omelette and three drinks. 6 dishes with only less than 1000 Baht! How cheap is that. You have to order the deep friend shrimp and fish, they are their famous dishes.

It was a waste that we didn't manage to hunt for seafood restaurant as we were rushing every night and for the following few nights we didn't have time to even sit at the restaurant for our dinner. Oh, but we tried the Thai Maccas! Their pork burger is superb but the price is hell expensive, I wouldn't wanna have maccas everyday in Thailand. But I was happy at that time coz for the first time their menu is not full of beef items as I don't eat beef! Pork is good!Muahahahhaha.....

Weird. Three of us had to meet up not in KL, not in Perth, but in Phuket! Hahahaha... Funny shit! We were so happy when we see each other there coz it has been awhile since we last met. Before that we have already planned to meet up in Phuket if possible. They make me miss Perth even more when they updated a lot of juicy news to me about the boys. Sigh.. I miss everyone there.

She-Male @ Bang-La Road

There are so many night entertainment at Bang-La Road and they closed at 6am! Woot! Woot! I have only manage to spend an hour sitting in the bar sipping two bottles of Chang beer. You can choose whichever bars that go with your flow! Ah gua, yes! Non-ah-gua, yes! Pretty girls, yes but be careful they might be him! Ugly one, yes! Country bar, yes! Aussie bar, yes! Clubs, yes! And many more. You want it, they have it!

We saw something really disgusting that night and it sort of gave me goose bumps on my arms First, I saw a white guy holding a gay Thai guy and they were kissing away. Euuk! Then, I saw this white guy holding a Thai girl's hand and the other hand holding a Thai gay guy hand. Double Euuk! What was he thinking? I couldn't imagine how is he gonna fuck two of them. So, is he a gay or not?

Unless.... He likes threesome with two guys and a girl... Hmmm... But I swear that Thai guy is a gay! If he is not, I would be able to accept that.

I fell deeply in love with the beaches there. So beautiful and the water is crystal clear! At that time I really thought of staying at Phuket forever and have a relaxing life till I die! Hahahaha....

Fantasea Park. Nothing special. But if you like nice sculptures, you should go and have a look as every building is unique and special. Besides that, you will be able to enjoy a 1 1/2 hours of performance with comfortable seats, nice sound systems, great costumes and stunning effects!

Maya Bay @ Phi Phi Island (where they filmed The Beach)

Canoeing. Best to have only yourself in one boat. Better and more fun

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James Bond Island @ Phang-Nga

Simon Cabaret. 40 Baht for each of them for photo taking.

Overall, I will give a 7 out of 10 for this Phuket trip. At the beginning I thought I wouldn't enjoy it that much as I have been there with my parents a few years back. But this time I went there with friends and the experience is so different from traveling with parents. There were so many things to learn during our stay in Phuket. It felt like my first time in Phuket!

One day, I wanna go there again. This time I will stay for a week. More photos will soon be uploaded to my Facebook account! I am just too lazy to upload those more than 500 pics. Let me recharge my energy first. =)

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If you are interested in booking day tours in Phuket, here is the person to look for -- Note. He is friendly and all his tour packages are reasonable. He will provide great seatings for Fantasea and Simon Cabaret Show.

Patong Cheery Travel & Tour (Highly recommended!!!!)
Mr. Puttachat (Note)
Mobile: 086 3674337
Mobile: 087 6243662
Email: naranong_2524@hotmail.com

Addesss: his stall is at the junction of Rat-U-Thit Road and Sainamyen Road. Opposite Family Mart.

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>>>PLEASE IGNORE THIS PERSON OR THIS TOUR COMPANY<<<

A&M Tour

Their name is Aui and M. They are not sincere as they promised to bring us around Phuket the whole day for sight-seeing. In the end, he only brought us to places that he could get commission and petrol expenses from and refused to bring us to anywhere. They even dropped us off at the airport 2 hours earlier just to get rid of us. When we were in the car asking him to send us for sight-seeing he chose to keep quiet and ignored us. So, be really careful of these people in Phuket! They are fucking evil!!!

IELTS Update!

2009-12-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

I have received my new IELTS results and finally I have passed everything!!!! Listening -- 8, Reading -- 8, Writing -- 7, Speaking -- 7.5. I couldn't believe it because this paper was more difficult that the previous one. I felt like screaming out loud in joy when I received my results at IDP office this afternoon!

I couldn't believe that I had to sit three times in order to get all 7 for every components. The Australia government is really smart to set up this rule as so many people failed and had to resit over and over again! Luckily I didn't take the IELTS test in Australia because it costs around AUD300 (RM900), but it only costs RM550 if you sit in Malaysia. Save a lot of money if you have to resit.

I sent my second paper for a remark because I only need 0.5 mark in order for me to fulfill the all 7 requirements. In the end, there are no changes to my mark and to tell you the truth, I think that this whole IELTS tests thingy are simply bullshit and the government just wanna earn money from everyone. Imagine how many people are taking this test? How many people who have to resit the test? How much are they making from us?

Just when I thought I have settled my biggest headache, another headache appears. Apparently my agent said that I didn't fulfill that two years study period in Australia. I was like what the fuck man??!!! (Of coz, failed units are not counted.) But even if I don't fail, I would have studied minimum two years for my Accounting degree. I asked before I enroll for this freaking course.

But my agent said that the way University calculate two years and the way immigration officer calculate two years are different. For University, they calculate by how many units that a student are allowed to enroll and it was two years for me. As for immigration officer, the way they do it is by calculating my credit hours and how many exemptions that I have been givem, divided by this, plus that, minus this....

blah.... blah.... blah....

Suddenly... my eyes turn black and I could not see anything at all!!! I couldn't help but think...

DO I HAVE TO FUCKING WAIT TILL I GRADUATED THEN THEY TOLD ME THAT I DIDN'T FULFILL THE 2 YEARS REQUIREMENT? WTF!!!!! WTF!!! WTF!!!! OF ALL THE PAINS AND SUFFERS THAT I HAD BEEN THROUGH FOR THIS ACCOUNTING COURSE AND NOW YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT I DIDN'T FULFILL THE REQUIREMENT?

FUCK YOU! FUCK ME!

SERIOUSLY....

I'M FUCKED!

Learn Thai The Easy Way!

2009-11-29T17:07:00.002+08:00

"Sawadee Kaa! Poot thai mai dai... Phrohd poot cha-cha"

I am crazy over Thai!

Yeap!!!

Crazy over a Thai guy -- my dear!

Crazy over the Thai language!

Crazy over going to Phuket and show off my Thaaaaaiiiiii language for a bit!

Hahahaha...

Naaaahhh... I am just kidding. There's nothing to show off... I can't even speak Thai! LoL! Thai is some chim-mer-no-logy stuff!!!

I only manage to remember some of the simple words... I'd probably forget all of them by the time I reach there. Hahahaha... I am excited to go there and my mum is kinda worried that it might be dangerous to go with only girls. Well, I guess it shouldn't be that dangerous if we don't walk around alone?

I am gonna pack my luggage soon! It's been a long time!!!!!!

Let Tomorrow Decides for Today...

2009-11-28T17:53:00.002+08:00

If only life was like a computer. Whenever I have problems, I would google the solution out and solve the problems. I would Undo my life or Go back on my life on whatever mistakes that I have made.

If only life was being planned out "nice nice no run water" (sui sui boh zhao jui in Hokkien). Then I don't have to think until my head is gonna explode on what I have to choose and which one will be the best one for me.

If only I had a time machine. I would go to the future and have a look how my decision would lead me to.

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Life's a BITCH!

The Twilight Saga: New Moon

2009-11-23T17:05:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I can't wait to watch this in the movie! I have almost finished the book, left one more chapter to go! Hahaha... Even though I have basically knew what is going to happen from the beginning till the end, but I really do want to know how they film my imagination out. I hope that I don't get disappointed this time.

Personally, I was disappointed when I watched Twilight in Singapore last year and I swear I nearly fall asleep in the cinema. It was too slow and draggy. But I guess it's should be forgiven because it's more like an introduction of the whole Twilight saga. As for New Moon, I am pretty sure it's gonna be more exciting than Twilight!

More exciting? Why? That's because the story is not just about the vampires! It involves the werewolves as well. One vampire and one werewolf seek to protect and love that one special girl in their hearts. Aww~~~ How romantic is that? Damn! I soooooooo wanna be Bella now! I shouldn't read too many story books, sometimes I can't even differentiate what is real and what is not. Heh! ^^

You guys should really check out Jacob Black acts by Taylor Lautner, he is so damn muscular and H.O.T!!!! I could just fucking droooooool watching him in the movie without knowing what's going on with the storyline. Muahahaha.... I still remember that everyone was so crazy over Edward Cullen acts by Robert Pattinson when Twilight first came out. He is so-not-handsome ok! Well, I guess this really depends on individual.

I am Team werewolf and Team Jacob. When compare Edward with Jacob, Edward looks like he is gonna die anytime soon! EEEeeeeeuuuuuuuwwwww.... too skinny, too fair, to girly look, too pretty boy... As for Jacob, that's the guy I like!!! Tanned! Muscular! HOT! Bad boy look.... But I do like Edward's personality and the way he treats girl, so romantic. That's because he is rich and Jacob is not.

So, which one do you like?

I can't wait to finish my New Moon book and continue with the third one. ^^

omfg-wtf-YOJI-BIOMEHANIKA-!!!!!!

2009-11-20T03:03:00.004+08:00

I can't believe this shit!!! Yoji Biomehanika is coming to Malaysia!!!!! I have been waiting from years to years for him to spin in KL and finally my dream has come true......... almost. I was hoping and keeping my fingers crossed that his tour date won't clash with Zoukout! Ironically, his tour date is on 11th December 2009 and Zoukout is on 12th December 2009!!!!

How?! Fuck!!!!!! Why??!!

Seriously.... If I could fly from KL to Singapore. If I had that much energy to attend both in two days. I would! Personally, I would love to stay for Yoji because I LOVE hard trance and Yoji's hard trance will definitely make me go insanely happy. Moreover, you can always have a little extra ingredients to give you wings to fly uberly high that night!!

BOOMZ!!!! WOW!!!!!
(God I LOVE Malaysia so much for once!)

I would have so much fun that night! As for Zoukout, the lineup is really not that great anyway. I have seen Armin Van Buuren for a bit too many times in my life and I'm kinda sick of his style, it's so predictable. I need some surprises!!! I bet one Yoji can easily beat the whole Zoukout event in Singapore. But because I have never been to any Zoukout events, I would prefer to treat it as an eye-opener-event-for-meself!

(but deep down I have a feelings that I won't enjoy the super-sardine-packed-crowd, and the humidity, and the sweaty smell and .....eeeeeeek!!!)

I reckon I would enjoy more at Yoji. Sigh... But my main purpose to Singapore is not purely for Zoukout, I do wanna see my honey in Singapore. If I don't go that week, I won't be having much time to visit him coz I will be rushing back to Perth. Urggrhhhh... The week before that I will be in Phuket. I guess Zoukout is the only event that I can go to.

My buddy here suggested:

"You can party at Yoji on Friday night, then take the earliest coach from KL to Singapore. Most probably you are already half dead throughout the night, you can always GG all the way from KL to Singapore since the trip takes 5 hours. It's enough time for you to recharge your battery for Zoukout!"

WOW!!! It is indeed a good idea!

Hmmm... Should I or Shouldn't I?

DO YOU HAVE TO BE THAT HARDCORE, SO-PHI-A GOH?

Phuket, here I come!

2009-11-16T15:30:00.002+08:00

My friends and I are going to Phuket next month!!! Sun. Sea. Sand. Seafood. And Ah Gua! Weeeeoooweeett!!! The reason being I am too stressed out for my stupid IELTS things and my friends said that I should go somewhere to relax. Two of my friends are gonna take leaves and go there with me!! Aww~~ love them to bits.

Actually my plan was to go Macau because I have been to Phuket a few years back and really don't feel like going to the same place again. But Macau ticket is to expensive and Air Asia is not having discount to Macau at the moment. The next destination was Vietnam, but my friend is going to Vietnam with her company in March, so we had to cancel it. Fucking hell! In the end, Phuket is our last hope for a short getaway!

But I am pretty sure this trip is gonna be so different because I have been to Phuket with my family a few years back and we followed tour. This time is with friends and we have to settle everything ourselves. But I am pretty sure this time I am gonna see Thai girl shooting ping pong balls from somewhere, that's for sure! Fuck man! Every time I go to Thailand with my family, my parents never allowed us to see any Thai girl show no matter how old we are. This trip I must fucking go and see!!!

Besides that, I am meeting another two friends from Perth in Phuket. What a coincidence that they are going to Phuket around the same time as me!!! Hahaha... But we will probably hang out together for 1 or 2 days because they have to spend romantic couple time together. Sigh, I didn't bring my bikini here, I have to go hunt for a new one. Anyway, there are still lots of things to do like booking the hotel room and planning some tour packages. Headache!!!

♥ Missing Perth...♥

2009-11-13T14:34:00.002+08:00

I am starting to miss everything in Perth. I miss Lexx so much! Even though I know that he is doing well under my housemates' care, but I am still worried about him because the bulldog constantly bully him by humping and irritates Lexx. The only place Lexx feels safe is by hiding in my room when I was around. Heartache... I can't even be there to protect him. When will I be able to see him again?!

I miss my computer in Perth. It's such a pain in the ass using my youngest brother's laptop in Malaysia. My brother is a disorganized person and he could never find anything he wants in his room. The worst thing is he just reformatted his laptop and lost everything!!! I need a webcam to be able to see Kenneth, where's the CD? Couldn't find. I had to download the driver online and found out that this webcam fucking have lots of problems. It finally works, but webcam screen is black? WTF?!!! I gave up.

I could have done so much things on my computer. I have everything I need on my computer!!! Fucking hell!!!! It's so difficult to print even one fucking paper here! They even lost the CD for the printer and I can't be fucked downloading any drivers from anywhere! Not only that, I have another brother who is supposed to help settled all my problems (coz he worked in IT line, all these are so fucking easy for him!!!), but he is just too busy to help me. I have been waiting for fucking 2 months for his help.

I miss my I-Phone. The mobile phone that I am using now is super crap! The battery doesn't last long and I can't do shit on this mobile phone! I miss downloading games and playing games on my I-Phone. At least there are things to do for killing some time when you have the I-Phone. I wanna go back! I wanna go back! I wanna go back! I wanna go back!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!

As you guys know that I can't stay too long in Malaysia, unless I have my everything here I guess. I can't believe that I have to stay another 6 weeks in Malaysia. The reason being... I didn't score all 7 for my IELTS components. Fucking CB IELTS! I think they did it on purpose! I have scored 8.5 for Listening, 7 for Speaking, 7 for Reading and 6.5 for Writing! WTF??!!!! I left 0.5 more to pass?!!!!! If I can't score at least all 7, I can't apply for PR! My whole world collapsed when I received my results the other day.

But I decided to send it in for a remark in Australia which I have to wait for 6 weeks and I still have to pay a fee which I nearly could sit for the test again. They told me that the chances of mark increase is very low but if I have confident that I will pass, then I should give it a go. Sigh... My life sucks. Anyway, worse comes to worst, I will just go back to Perth and apply for TR but I must make sure that I get a job, if not, I won't be getting the PR by the end of the day.

Sometimes I do feel regret for things that I could have done better last time. For example, if at that time, 1 or 2 years ago I studied really hard for my Accounting degree, I could have applied my PR and got it by now. Because at that time they only need IELTS minimum 6 to pass. Now they have increased to 7! I have soooooo many friends who have sat for the tests at least 2 to 3 times and in the end they all gave up. Decided to just apply for TR. Because the results came out almost the same, it's always 3 best scores and 1 nearly-pass-6.5-piece-of-shit-score.

One of my Singaporean friends always get either 8 or 9 for all his components and he always get 6.5 for one component. How is that possible right? And it's always the different component which scores 6.5. He has tried three times and gave up because there's no point spending so much money and time. So, in the end he has to apply for TR first. Sigh... If given a choice, I wouldn't want to apply for TR because it's very troublesome and you will never know whether you will be able to find a job in Australia within the given time frame.

Sigh......

I just hope that my remark will give me a good news.

*fingers crossed*

An Unforgettable Trip to Love.

2009-11-10T12:08:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Singapore yesterday, still missing the weekdays of waiting for my dear to come back from camp, still missing spending time together with him during weekends, still missing sending him off to camp with his cool uniform (i kinda like his uniform!LoL!), still missing playing pool with him and kana beaten by him over and over again (DAMN!), still missing a lot of things from my last 2 trips to Singapore.

The weather in Singapore was sick ass!!! Rain almost everyday and I couldn't even walk out to take the bus. I know, I could have taken a cab but I was just too lazy and didn't wanna spend that much money to take a cab to town. Anyway, I manage to catch up with a few friends during the weekdays. Not all of them, coz I didn't have enough time and the weather was bad, but did meet up a few.

Met up with them 10 months ago and it had been a lot of changes in their lives, we were too busy catching up that we were running out of time to finish everything! Hahaha...But I guess I will be going back to Singapore in Feb next year to continue with each other lives. Anyway, all of them were trying to persuade me to stay and work in Singapore. The more they talked about it, the more I wanna stay there. That's because Kenneth is in Singapore and at least I will be able to see him every weekends, which is better than nothing.

But I guess if I really can't get the PR in Australia, then I would prefer to work in Malaysia. Not that working in Singapore is not good, I do wanna work there because the money will be good as compared to Malaysia, public transports are easy to access better than stuck in the traffic jam in KL going to work, being able to see my dear every weekends.

But if given a choice, I would prefer to stay in Malaysia. That's because I have been living at overseas for 7 years now and I would like to spend more time with my family in Malaysia if I really can't stay in Australia. Moreover, everything will be so much easier here in Malaysia. Will see how it goes. =)

At the beginning I thought I won't be able to celebrate Kenneth's 21st birthday with him but at least now my dream came true and I did manage to celebrate together with him. You know, 21st is a BIG thing for most people. Kinda envious. I didn't have a great 21st birthday celebration last time, was in Perth and at that time all my friends went back to home countries for holidays. Damn it. I could have went back to Malaysia. Anyway, I am happy to see Kenneth had a blast on his birthday. That's the most important thing.

I have bought a few tops which are suitable for rave events. *ngiek ngiek* Well, all I could think of at that time were all rave events. I miss those rave events in Perth! It's s much different than Malaysia and Singapore's raves. That is not from my own point of view, most of my friends in Singapore and Malaysia who have raved in Australia will definitely agree with that statement!

Can't wait to go see Kenneth again. I am constantly counting down the days and it seems like time passes by so sloooooooowly! Maybe I should stop counting and focus on other things, then hopefully... time flies.

Me is not like to socialize on facebook!

2009-11-05T19:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I met up with one of my uni friends in Singapore. After having a few drinks and busy updating about each other's current lives, suddenly she asked me whether I still hang out with "the same gang". What she meant was the group of friends which I hang out during year 2002 to 2005. Then she suddenly dug out a lot of names and slowly asked me how are they doing at the moment.

After telling her that I no longer hanging out with "the same gang" because most of them had graduated and went back to their home countries or I am having different kind of hobbies now that I am mixing with people with the same hobbies! Hahaha... Moreover, she kept on asking who are those friends I am hanging out with at the moment and whether she knows any one of them. But I did manage to update a few old friends' lives for her. Then she couldn't help but wonder, how did I know so much things if I am no longer hanging out with them.

"Huh? From Facebook loh. Can see their walls, pictures and you will roughly know how they are doing lately. You can see my friends from my Facebook pictures what!"

"I am not so active on Facebook."

"Then you sign up for fuck sia?"

"I only play games, that's all. Seriously I only log in to my account to play game everyday. I don't see people's pictures, go see people's profile, send gifts and stuff... so boliaoz and I am not as kpo as you!!!"

"What??!!! Are you serious? You don't look like that kind of person who just-play-game-and-dun-kpo!"

Well, actually she is not the first one I know who is not so active online. For me, Internet is my life, if I can't go online for 30 mins I think my whole world would crash and burn! There are so many things that you can do online! But I met one girl at uni last time, I have asked for her Facebook account and she said "what's that?" Huh? I swear to God I am telling the truth here!!!!!!

She told me that she didn't even have an MSN account but she does have an email account for important things like emails from the uni and friends regarding assignments and stuff. When I asked her what does she do most of the time if she doesn't spend most of her time in front of the computer. She said shopping, watching tv, reading lots of story books, hang out with friends, etc. But................................................................. she never even have a 15 minutes time to go online?????!!!!!!!!!

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!

She said that going online is not that important to her and she doesn't find it fun. Somehow I find it hard for me to accept this. Either she is a dinosaur who is facing serious extinction in this world, or she just doesn't want me to be her Facebook friend or to be added into her MSN list. Period.

Will you be able to give up the Internet?"

"Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach that person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks."

"A journey of a thousand sites begins with a single click."

cut already?

2009-10-20T14:34:00.002+08:00

This is by far the funniest ads I have seen in Malaysia, very creative and it has lots of hidden meanings!!! If you have a dirty mind like me, you will probably think about something dirty and funny. If not, your fine, you will be able to laugh as hard as me too!!

These are the ads from P1 introducing their new service -- P1 W1MAX, the service where you can surf on their high speed wireless broadband network with the ease of a plug-and-play modem.

P1 W1MAX Cantonese Part 1 (Director's Cut)

P1 W1MAX Cantonese Part 2 (Director's Cut)

So... you guys cut already?

^_______________________________^

PVD @ Zouk.KL

2009-10-16T15:34:00.003+08:00

Tonight, I am gonna be at Zouk to experience the ultimate power of Paul Van Dyk for the 4th time! Hahahaha... I have seen him twice in Perth, 1 time in KL and one more for tonight. I have a feeling that he is going to spin most of the nice music and I am pretty sure I am going to enjoy myself a lot! The aim of his latest tour is to promote his new single -- Home and also to spin his greatest hits during his DJ journey!

OH MY GOD!!!! Who would miss out those greatest hits rite? So, it's gonna be super nice songs from the beginning till the end!!! I just can't wait. Besides that, some of my Singaporean friends are traveling down to KL for PVD. Even though PVD is going to spin at Zouk.SG this Sunday, but my friends said it's more fun and more comfortable to get wasted in Malaysia! What kind of excuse is that?

Anyway, besides meeting all of them, I am gonna meet up some of my raving kakis later tonight. Most of them are my friends in Perth but they have already came back to Malaysia for good! Hope that everything will go on smoothly tonight and I hope that I do have fun tonight! I have found my glowsticks! *wink* *wink* I hope that there will be people using glowsticks there... or else I will look like a complete idiot there! Hahahaha... But I remember last time I used to see people playing with glowsticks in the club here. Especially when there are special DJs here.

Aaargghh.. fuck it! I will just go enjoy myself bah! Tonight might be my last night of clubbing in KL for this trip to Malaysia. After that, I have to prepare for my IELTS test and after that I am going to Singapore again!!! Woo hoo!!!! I am so looking forward to go to Singapore again, can't wait to see my dear! =)

Miss Singapore World -- Ris Low

2009-10-15T00:32:00.002+08:00

For the past few weeks my Singaporean friends have been talking about this beauty queen giving shit about her. When I was in Singapore, even the local newspaper make fun of her. What is it so funny about her? She may have made the "BOOMZ!" word goes famous among Singaporeans! Most of my SG friends have added this word into their daily conversations! It's funny sometimes.

Check these videos out:

The interview with Ris Low

Even Phua Chu Kang imitates her

Ris Low stepped down due to her credit card fraud conviction

At the beginning when I first knew about her, it was funny. But after awhile, I tend to feel bad for her as I am pretty sure that she has tried her best. At least she has the courage to sign up for the competition and she did win the Miss Singapore World.

The only people to be blamed is... I think probably the judges. If her overall presentation is not 100%, and if her English is not that good, then how did she perform during the Q&A section? If the judges have decided that she is the winner, then perhaps the whole competition is not about being intelligent? Hmmmm... I thought your supposed to be beautiful and intelligent at the same time to win the pageant? Hmmmm...

It's kinda sad to know that she has become the ultimate joke in the nation. It's kinda mean to do that to a person. Poor Girl!

Friendship

2009-10-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

Last night I went out for gathering with my secondary school friends, there are quite a few of them who didn't show up but those important one whom I really wanna meet did show up! =) As usual, we kept talking about what happened during high school, who hated who, who liked who, who grouped with who, etc.

Besides that, we were busy catching up with each other's life and as usual... I am the only one who hasn't work yet! Damn it! Most of them only talked about their working lives coz not all of them are married. Those who are married didn't manage to show up because they have to take care of their kids at home! Hahahaha...

When we were talking about other people's lives, suddenly I asked...

Me: Hey, where is AV? Haven't seen her for a long time!
HM: Ermmm.... you don't know meh? She passed away two years ago.
Me: Oh shit! I am so sorry to hear that. Really gave me a shock!

This friend of mine, we are not really that close but do hang out once in awhile last time. She passed away 2 years ago because of drink and dive. At that time she even bought supper back for her family after clubbing. Half way back to her house, she hit another car because she was too drunk and passed away on the spot.

My friends were very sad when they attended her funeral and they said that the whole image stayed in their head forever. One of them even dreamed about her a few times! Ever since then, all of them are scared to drive when they were drunk coz it is really not funny! They are more concerned for people who drink at the club and will never let the person go back alone if he/she is drunk.

Last time they used to be really busy with their own lives and would only meet up during Chinese New Year, I mean come on, all of us stay in Klang, how hard is it to meet up? Once a year is a bit too little. They soon realized that they have taken things for granted, especially when it comes to friendship. Just because all of us are so close to each other, we tend to think that...

"It's ok lah... so many years of friendship, they will understand if I don't show up."

Well... it is not ok sometimes. Therefore, all of them decided to meet up as many time as possible no matter how busy they are. Even if they are busy due to working O.T at the office, they will at least meet up with each other after 2 or 3 months. Moreover, they make sure that they will help each other to celebrate birthday together every year.

I am glad that all of us have changed from time to time... at least to a better person. The more things that we have experienced, the more changes. And we are really happy with our lives now and try not to complain that much because there are people who passed away at a very young age and their lives just ended there. We should treasure every single moment of our lives!

"Treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination." -- Souza

Future Music Festival 2010

2009-10-13T16:06:00.004+08:00

Future Music Festival was a clear winner for ITMers in this year’s Sony inthemix50, chosen as our favourite event across several cities and in 2010 it will of course be back. ITM can now reveal the absolutely massive list of artists who will be playing on the tour! It’s a healthy mix of old favorites as well as plenty of new surprises, with a roster of DJs and live acts that will see the Future Music Festival staying true to its roots, while also pushing things in an exciting new direction.

At the top of the list are live titans The Prodigy, returning after blowing away tens of thousands of punters on the Big Day Out tour earlier this year. Accompanying them will be a number of acts that are part of Future strategy to push their festival in more a of ‘live’ direction – with Scottish cross-over rockers Franz Ferdinand playing alongside Empire Of The Sun, Booka Shade and Does It Offend You, Yeah?. It’s a selection of bands that will no doubt see the festival drawing a much wider audience next year.

But that’s not to say that lovers of pure dance culture have been neglected, as the roster of DJs on this year’s lineup is simply huge. Bedrock maestro John Digweed is returning to FMF along with the iconic Sven Vath, while trance titans Above & Beyond will be making their debut on the tour.

House fans will be represented by David Guetta and Erik Morillo, and there’s still plenty more acts to be announced. Simply massive. -- taken from inthemix.com.au

Future Music Festival 2010 lineup:

The Prodigy
Empire Of The Sun
Franz Ferdinand
Booka Shade
John Digweed
Sven Vath
David Guetta
Erick Morillo
Above & Beyond
Dubfire
Boys Noize
Does It Offend You, Yeah?
And many more to be added!

Hmmm... will I be able to make it? Will I be going? Looking at the lineup, it's indeed a fucking good linup by having Above & Beyond, John Digweed, Sven Vath, The Prodigy, Empire of the Sun and Franz Ferdinand!!! Arrgghh... why do all the raves are on February??!!! I might be CNY-ing in Malaysia and will not be able to make it! The feeling of unable to go to Tiesto is already killing me... to be able to go to FMF 2010 will be able to compensate for not able to go to Tiesto.

Am I making you confused? ^^

"Strange, that some of us, with quick alternate vision, see beyond our infatuations, and even while we rave on the heights, behold the wide plain where our persistent self pauses and awaits us."

Godskitchen 2009 Perth

2009-10-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow... at this time... my friends in Perth will be partying hard at Godskitchen! Envious~~~ John OO Fleming and Cosmic Gate are the bombs! Especially Cosmic Gate, they never will let you down on any events! Their music always keep everyone's heart pumping hard!

I keep telling myself that I had been to Godskitchen for the past few years for 4 years, I don't mind skipping this year's Godskitchen until I watched all these:

DAMN IT!!!! Now I wish I was in Perth at this very moment preparing all my stuff to go to Godskitchen!!! Check out the boombox effects!!! It is so nice that it will surely make everyone tripping the whole night! I love the boombox effects!!!

Really do wish that all my friends in Perth have fun tomorrow!

I want nobody, but you!

2009-10-08T03:26:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh!!! I am so addicted to this song!!! It's such a big hit in Malaysia now! I kinda like their dance move... so cuuuuuuute!

Nobody by Wonder Girls -- English version

Nobody by Wonder Girls -- Korean version

Shhhh...

2009-09-30T01:03:00.004+08:00

Check this video out! I laughed until pengz!

I'm bored!

2009-09-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'm bored! Soooo bored that I can build my own spiderweb in my room. The first week when I came back I was kinda busy meeting up with my relatives and friends. Not forgetting Hari Raya was on that week and everyone was having holiday mood at that time. After that, I am as free as a bird. Basically all my friends are working and it makes me feel like I am working at home. You know... those routine stuff like waking up late, watch TV from 12 to 4, go online from 4 to 8, have my dinner, watch TV again till midnight, go online again, watch my drama until 3 to 4am. But my everyday routine life is more relax than working people! Hahaha...

I would love to go shopping... but I guess I come back at a very wrong time. There's no sale going on and I don't feel like spending anymore money for this trip. I keep telling myself not to buy even one pair of shoes coz I haven't even have the chance to wear those that I bought last year! So, in order not to buy any shoes, I refused to go into any shoe shops! Poor thing right? Since most of the shops are not having sale now, there's no point looking at those clothes. But I bought a few clothes last week coz I really needed it as I didn't bring much clothes back. =)

When weekends come, I am so busy that sometimes one Friday or one Saturday I might have 4 or 5 places to go. But guess what? The lazy me would only choose to go to one or two places in a night! I am not so free to stuck in the KL traffic jam to go from here to there! It feels like traveling the whole wide world if I have to go to so many places in KL! Fuck that shit! My weekends are so busy that I wish some of them can be spread to weekdays as I do want to spend some time talking on the phone with Kenneth since he will only be free during weekends!

I miss Perth so much because I could have been working right now than doing nothing at home. At least I know there's money coming in to my bank account. Now I am not sure how am I gonna handle my rent in Perth! Sianz! I can't wait to go to Singapore this weekends at least I can see Kenneth and spend some quality times with him over there! I am so counting down the days to go back to Perth, I really can't stand this kind of boredom any longer! If only both of my sisters were in Malaysia, I could have dragged them out to go shopping with me.

As for my smoking habit... I guess I a doing it good in Malaysia. Since the first day I came back until now, I have only smoked when I went out clubbing with friends. I don't sneak out from my house to smoke like last time. I don't wanna take the risk of getting caught smoking when I am about to quit smoking. It's stupid. Although the first week I did feel like having a few puffs in a day but until now I manage to control my addiction. Even if I smoke during weekends, i would only smoke 5 to 6 sticks maximum. Hopefully by the time I go back to Perth I will be able to quit smoking successfully!

Arthur's Day

2009-09-25T18:17:00.004+08:00

There are some massive parties going on in KL to help celebrate the 250th anniversary of the Guinness brewing company! Party-goers from around the globe are expected to have a wild 36 hours global celebration.

The event celebrates the 250th anniversary of the signing of the lease on the St James’ Gate in Dublin, Ireland, that marked the start of the heritage and legacy of Arthur worldwide.

Arthur’s innovation began a brew that is regarded as remarkable and still enjoyed around the globe until today.

The series of events celebrating this are also taking place in Dublin, New York, Yaoundé and Lagos.

Malaysia will also witness the unveiling of the Arthur’s Fund, a global programme that starts off with six million Euros.

The programme is responsible for a few well-known philantrophic acts in Ireland that empowers individuals with the skills and opportunities to deliver measured benefits to their local communities.

from The Star Newspaper, Malaysia

Where should I be on this special day? Hmm.. Drinking Guinness Stout at the bars with friends? Eeeek... I don't think so. I am going to a friend's wedding buffet dinner (continuous from Monday's wedding dinner), this buffet is for all her friends and family because the bride only reserved two tables for her friends on Monday night and the rest of the tables are reserved for her parents' friends.

So, I guess tonight I will be seeing more of my high school friends huh? More like a HUGE gathering for me now! Anyway, all my friends have been planning to go somewhere for a few drinks after the dinner! We will see how our moods set us to where we supposed to be tonight!

Happy Partying everyone!

They keep me moving~~~

2009-09-19T02:43:00.002+08:00

Home Sweet Home

2009-09-17T01:20:00.004+08:00

I am in Malaysia now! Woo Hoo! The weather is nice and not as hot as last year when I came back! I will be here for only a month and the main objective of this trip is to settle all the important things that I wanna do here and then I will be flying back to Perth! I am not missing Perth just yet and currently having a good time of my life now! If I don't have to pay rent in Perth, I would stay here until next year's Chinese New Year!! Hehehe...

Before I came back here I was worried that I might not be happy coming back to Malaysia since my relatives like to give me pressure and all those shit! Besides that, I am enjoying my princess life here which I don't have to worry about anything! No need to work, house and room have been cleaned up, food is prepared everyday, money is given, friends to meet up, etc. Aaaahhh.... home sweet home! That's what I can say!

Now I feel like Perth is a shit-hole to me! I have so many shits to do there and there are so many things that made me go ku-ku there! I have heaps of things to prepare for my PR application and sometimes I do feel like giving up! Does it really worth it? The reason why I wanna stay in Perth is because I have the total freedom there and I can do whatever I like! But now my father is better and doesn't really control me in Malaysia, suddenly I feel like staying here longer! Sigh... I don't know what I want in my life and where I wanna be!

Australia? Singapore? or Malaysia?

Headache. Stressed. Choices.

The feelings and time spent with family members are so much nicer! I have never really treasured the chance of being together and spending time with family members and sometimes I do take it for granted! As I grow older, I keep questioning myself whether getting a PR in Australia a good idea? Am I being selfish because I wannna stay there just for the freedom? So, what if I have the freedom in Malaysia now, would I be happy working and staying in Malaysia?

I guess I have to put all these emo shit aside and just have all the fun I can this one whole month! I feel so much at home now as compared to Perth and I am pretty sure that I am gonna enjoy this trip very much!

^.^

Supernatural Season 5 -- Can't wait!

2009-08-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

I have just finished watching Sepernatural season 4 and dying to know what is going to happen in season 5! I just can't wait!!! This is the only TV series that I never think of giving up and really enjoy watching it! It's not like the usual college lovey-dovey kind of stories which make it so interesting! I get sick and tired of those teen dramas as the stories for all the episodes are repetitive! I hate that shit! I feel like wasting my time watching them loving each other, third party appeared, broke up, misunderstanding then patch back again! Then story goes on and on the same over and over again! *Boring*

I wouldn't mind watching Supernatural especially there are two handsome hunks in the series! Am I in heaven or what? LoL! I wouldn't even mind go for ghost-hunting with the Wincheter brothers... Geez... I guess I have watched too much Supernatural! Heart them the most! Drool everytime when I watch the shows!

Here's a little interview with the creator of Supernatural -- Eric Kripke that I found online:

Supernatural Season 5 Scoop!
by Ileane Rudolph July 20, 2009 05:31 PM EST

Supernatural creator Eric Kripke pulls out all the stops as the sexy horror show returns for its fifth season. In last season’s shocking finale, an angry and demon-blood addicted Sam (Jared Padalecki)—to his horror—was responsible for freeing Lucifer from his hellish imprisonment. In this exclusive interview, Kripke tells TV Guide Magazine what Lucifer’s return means and what roles Sam and big bro Dean (Jensen Ackles) will play in saving the world.

That was a pretty terrifying finale. You have an interesting “pox on both their houses” take on the Apocalypse. Do you hear from angry religious types?
[Laughs] We actually haven’t. Quite frankly, sometimes we’re surprised that some religious people don’t take more issue with our depiction of angels. But—we’ve always kept in our back pocket that despite these particular angels being the bureaucracy of Heaven, there are potentially higher and more benevolent forces in the universe. But we have a humanity-centered show. Our attitude is always, humans with all their imperfections are the heroic ones and everyone else is just kind of messing with them.

Let’s talk about Season 5. Should I assume that the showdown between the angels and Lucifer and his demon minions—with Sam and Dean caught in the middle—is your through line this season?
Part of that is ongoing mythology, so I don’t want to give too much of that away, but yeah, it’s basically that the angels and Lucifer and the demons are just beginning the long foretold Apocalypse from the Book of Revelations. It’s the war that everyone’s been waiting for for thousands of years. Humanity is unfortunately caught in the middle. Our heroes object to that. Their response is “You want to fight a war? Pick another planet. This one’s ours and get the hell off it.”

What’s the time frame?
We pick up from the finale, where we left off with the boys in the chapel with the portal to Lucifer’s cage opening and Lucifer rising. We show the next few subsequent seconds after that and then continue the story from there.

So they escape and…
No, they both die and we continue the series with James Van Der Beek.

I hear the roar of a million fans shrieking. OK, what are the manifestations of Lucifer’s return?
We’re really trying to make good our promise—with Lucifer comes the Apocalypse. Supernatural’s version of the Apocalypse. The public isn’t necessarily aware of it. They’re not running screaming through the streets. That would be hard to maintain through a season. Our version of the Apocalypse includes things like hurricanes unexpectedly slamming into the U.S. coasts and swine flu and North Korea suddenly arming up with nuclear weapons. [Laughs] We’re really trying to create the idea that we always have, that this could be happening right outside your door and you don’t know it. At least in the first few days of the Apocalypse.

The first episode is called “Sympathy for the Devil.” Is that a hint?
One of our goals is to depict Lucifer [played by Mark Pellegrino, aka Jacob on Lost] in a way that’s rarely seen on television. We want Lucifer to be the most sympathetic character this season. He’s this wounded angel who feels very betrayed by God and his fellow angels. We’re writing him with a vulnerability and almost a tenderness. This is totally like douche baggy, but we’re looking at “Paradise Lost” a lot. That idea of the very human devil that has moments of doubt and moments of really human emotion. It’s an opportunity to see a really interesting Lucifer.

Demons and angels take different meat skins—human bodies—to hide their true selves. How about Lucifer?
Lucifer is an angel and like any angel he needs to take a vessel. He’ll need to be walking around as a human as well. A strikingly handsome one. Compared to Zachariah and the rest of the angels on the show, he’s more gentle and soft spoken by a long shot. In his own weird way, he’s the kindest of all the angels.

What are Sam and Dean’s roles here? Do the angels still expect Dean to do their bidding?
Dean still has this chosen status from the angels. He’s someone they expect will defeat Lucifer. Much more of what that means will be revealed in the first episode. But he doesn’t particularly like or trust the angels and isn’t particularly inclined to follow the plan they have for him.

The last time we saw Sam, he was clearly heart wrenchingly guilty for having inadvertently raised Lucifer. How will he overcome that?
Sam is in a difficult place. He’s feeling such horrifying regret. How do you get out from under the weight of [being] the guy who broke the world and you broke it through pride, selfishness and you were seduced and you were fooled and all the horrible things that have happened as a result. He’s got a lot to atone for and he’s really on a journey of redemption. We’ve been talking about his story in the metaphors of a brand new ex-addict. He’s giving up demon blood; he’s giving up all these dark sides and with them comes terrible temptations. And meanwhile your family’s angry with you and they don’t trust you. Sam’s emotional arc this season is trying to go clean again and he’s got lots of trust to rebuild with Dean.

Your fans get famously upset when Sam and Dean are mean to each other. Why do you keep torturing them?
[Laughs] We owe it to the fans to depict an honest relationship and we wouldn’t be honest, having gone through the events at the end of Season 4, if they just said, “It’s all forgotten, let’s move on.” There’s a lot of drama to play. It’s our intention to bring them back together. It always is. I’ve always said it’s a show about the strength of family. But they need to recreate their relationship and come back together in a way in which they’re older, sadder, wiser but ultimately stronger.

Sam’s dead fiancé Jessica [played by Adrianne Palecki] shows up.
Yeah, in Episode 3.

What can you tell me about that?
I’ll keep much of that under wraps. She does return as Jessica.

So we hear demon Meg [now played by Rachel Miner] is back in the premiere. Why does she return? What are her intentions?
They’re not good. I’ve always been wondering what she’s doing out there actually. I’ve been continually asking the writers, “Where’s Meg? What’s she doing? She’s a demon. She has a really powerful grudge against the boys. They have history together. She would be a really formidable adversary. Where is she?” Finally, I got impatient and ended up writing her into my own script. It’s Mardi Gras for Meg and demons like her. Their demonic Lord and Savior has returned and so it’s party time for demons. As far as they’re concerned, Dean is the only threat to that and so we really ratchet up the tension yet again this season. Pretty much every demon in Hell and on Earth is out gunning for Dean Winchester, because he is pretty much the only one who can destroy basically their Lord and Father.

Is Bobby their only ally or will others come in to help during the season?
When we first come back in the season opener, Castiel is dead, destroyed by the Archangel. So there’s some moments when we wonder if they’ll have the help of their old angel pal Cas. There’s always allies, sometimes in unlikely places. But it’s always the idea of this small scared sweaty group up against overwhelming forces, and that’s kind of where the heart of Supernatural lies. In that idea of it as a Western, and you got the entire army outside and you’re inside and you’ve got to shoot your way out.

Supernatural’s fifth season begins Thursday, Sept. 10, 9/8c, The CW.

Such a life!

2009-07-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

I feel like my life is more at ease now... for the time being. It wasn't that smooth sailing for the past few years and I hated it so much! I have always thought that after I have finished my uni then there will be nothing for me to worry about for a period of time but NOOOOO!! Life keeps giving difficult tasks to me to test my ability to handle it!

I just found out that my student visa expired this Friday and after that I have to stay here with a visitor visa which is crap coz that means I can't fucking work at all!!! I have to quit all my freaking jobs. The more I think about losing all my jobs, the more furious I am! My parents are not supporting me anymore and I really need those jobs to keep me going!

I went to the immigration the other day and this guy said that he will give me one more month to prepare all my documents that I need to submit. But he said that he will only give me a visitor visa to further stay in Perth until my graduation ceremony, which means that I have to submit all my PR applications before my graduation ceremony in september! Or else, I have to go back to Malaysia and apply another tourist visa to come into Australia again! This is shitty!!!

My head is getting bigger and bigger day after day because of this PR application!! I didn't know that there are so many things to prepare and everything takes times to complete! I am running out of time, running out of time and running out of everything! =) Sianz. Sometimes I just feel like going back to Malaysia for good or even go to Singapore and work so that I can stay with my dear.

Shit!

I'm lost!

Birthday

2009-07-21T16:43:00.002+08:00

I'm 28 years old now! Fuck! Time flies! I'm fucking old! Hahahaha... Today will be the first day of me quitting smoking for the rest of my life! I have promised everyone that I will quit smoking and I THINK I can do it! At least I will make sure that I do it! Hahaha...

I had a blast on my birthday party and I was glad that it turned out to be what I have expected! I named my party -- Flying High Birthday Party. That's because there were so many other stuff involved that night except alcohol! LoL! We even had one DJ to spin at the party to make sure that we have the "party at rave" atmosphere! =) We finished all the food and all the alcohol (4 cartons of beer and 6 bottles of hard liquor)! We were quite hardcore that night and everything turned out to be perfect!

My birthday party wouldn't be as fun without having all my friends around! I was happy that night to see everyone enjoyed themselves that much! I even had a few friends came up to me saying that it was a very special and hardcore birthday party ever! Hahaha... Rock on!!!

Dream comes true!

2009-06-29T12:42:00.004+08:00

Oh my god!!!! I am so happy today!!! I have never felt so happy for a fucking long time... I mean especially in my studies!!! Guess what? I passed!!! I passed!!! I couldn't believe my eyes when I checked my result this morning! I am pretty sure my mum is gonna be so happy about this!!!! Now... I have to start applying for my PR here!

Last but not least... today is the 1st year anniversary for Kenneth and I!

Happy 1st Year Anniversary my dear!

You are the best I could ever have and I hope that there are more fantastic years to come! I love you! Hugs + kisses!!

Bang me up with some hardcore music!

2009-06-12T18:42:00.003+08:00

Today is my last day of work at Walter's, I mean last day for this semester and they are closed for 6 weeks till the next semester. Start from next week, I will be working at Coffee Club again... if they give me any shifts. =) I am feeling a bit nervous in going back to Coffee Club as if it's my first time there.

The reason:
1) I think I have forgotten all the food and drinks on the menu and I don't think I will be able to explain to the customers.

2) I think I have forgotten how to make those freaking frappes!

3) Heard from Jacque that they have changed the cash register! Fuck me! I am gonna spend so much time looking for buttons! Fuck me!

I am becoming more and more lazy to work especially this semester because I only work around 10 hours a week. But I need more money now for the rent! I haven't find any new housemates to move into the house. Sad case. But I do hope that I will find one soon so that I don't have to pay the rent for two rooms.

I am going to Rise tonight... Daniel Kandi! Woot! To tell you the truth, I wasn't prepare for Armin Van Buuren last week and didn't have as much fun as last year's AVB. I do enjoyed the company though. But tonight... is the night I am fully-prepared for some banging music! Even now, my heart beats so fast which makes me excited for later!

Enjoy your weekends too!!!!

Can't wait

2009-05-10T17:23:00.003+08:00

Ooooooohhhh... One more month to go till Armin! I am so excited thinking about it!! Come to think about it, ever since I came back to Perth, I haven't even step one foot into Metro or Rise or whatever clubs. So far I have only went to Trance Energy! *Pssst! But I can tell you which HK drama is nice to watch* =) Sigh... I guess I have to just wait for Armin to come in June!

Seriously... I can't wait for the exams to come because I just wanna get over it and done! I have started to feel the stressed these days as this is my last unit at Uni! I really need to concentrate and freaking pass this unit. I really don't wanna stay at uni anymore coz I am feeling too old for uni and I really do need a change in my freaking life.

I feel like my life is so stagnant, I feel like somehow I am stuck in the middle of nowhere! Except my long distance relationship life that I will be facing soon... the ups and downs of having a long distance relationship. Besides my relationship, I think I need to jump start my life a lil bit! I feel so lazy to go out... to even do something. All I wanna do is to stay at home and do nothing.

One more thing which is bothering me at the moment is my housemate is moving out tomorrow and I haven't even find another housemate to take the room! I guess I have to cover the rent by myself for a few weeks again!!! That's why I think like is so fucking unfair sometimes! I see all my friends have been saving up their money for something more meaningful in the future. As for me, I have to fucking use my own savings to pay for the rent.

Why can't I have a more normal life like I work, I party a bit, I shop a bit and get to save a bit of money for something else? Why do I have to use all my savings to pay for another empty room that I am not fucking sleeping in it??!!!

I know why...

I have fucked up housemate who wanna move out at this time which is hard for me to get a housemate. Period.

2009-04-15T19:27:00.008+08:00

Trance Energy was AWESOME!!!!

that's because....

I have my baby with me!!!!
(yeah he gave me a surprised last week) =)

And....

I have a group of godlike friends with me!!!!

Two words...

Fucking GOOD!!!

Trance Energy 2009

2009-04-06T21:17:00.001+08:00

Event: Trance Energy
Time: 12 to 10pm
Venue: Belvoir Amphitheatre
Date: 12th April 2009

Woo hoo... the long awaited Trance Energy is here! I have been waiting for months for this godlike event!!! I am pretty sure that this will be the happiest Easter break that I ever had!!!! I do have friends who asked me "Why are you guys feeling so excited about this event?"

Hmmmm....

Because it is one of the biggest event in the world and this will be the first time that they are gonna have it in Australia. So, you either live going there or live in regrets! Muahahah... You don't have to go to any other events this year... but this one is a MUST!!! Trance Energy comes directly from legendary Dutch production ID&T, the same production for other HUGE rave event like Sensation!

So... it's like a dream comes true to all of us! To tell you the truth, I have been waiting for it since last year! LoL! We have booked a party bus to send us there and guess what? We have 40 people in the bus and another bus with another 20 people on it! It feels like we are going for a tour or something! Hahahah... No one wanna spend 45 mins to one hour driving to Belvoir Amphitheatre.

Actually this will be my first time travelling to a rave in bus and normally I will meet my friends there. So, I am pretty sure this time the experience will be a good one and it will be so memorable for everyone!!

Here are the DJs who will be there: Those with bold one are my fave!!

Marco V
BT
Judge Jules
Sean Tyas
Simon Patterson
Aly & Fila
Richard Durand
Inpetto
Sied Van Riel
Glenn Morrison
Marcus Shossow
Tydi
Sander Van Doorn
Leon Bolier
Mark Sherry
Agnelli & Nelson
John Askew
Anthony Papa
Matt Darey

I am a drama queen!

2009-03-22T18:51:00.002+09:00

During my rashes recovery period... I think I have downloaded lots and lots of series and movies to watch at home! Hahahaha... Imagine that I wasn't at Perth during the summer and all my housemates couldn't even use finish the Internet quota!!! Ever since I come back, I downloaded any shits that I want! But I guess it's a good thing to have housemates who don't download anything!!! I can have all the Internet to myself! Muahahaha.... *evil*

Anyway... my hands have slowly recover but the marks are still there and my skin is dry and peeling off slowly. I still need to go see a dermatologist to see what he says about my skin condition now because the scar is really ugly! I have to wear long sleeves or cardy everytime I go out because I don't want people to freak out when they see my whole hands!!! Sianz!

I haven't been working for the past 1 1/2 weeks and I have already spent around $400 plus on doctors' consulatations, creams and medicine. The worst thing is I could only claimed back around $200. Fucking Hell!!!!! Even though the doctor asked me to rest more at home and try not to move my hands too much, but I am going back to work this coming week!!!! I need moolah!!!!!

Botanophobia

2009-03-15T16:35:00.012+09:00

Day 4 of my skin rashes

Start from today onwards, I am botanophobia! I am never gonna touch any plants, tress or whatever fucking tree that caused skin rashes!!! I am so scared of going to my garden thinking that the pollen will make my skin worse!

Actually I went to a doctor on Wednesday (which is the 4th day of me getting the rashes) and she told me that I only had mild skin rashes and refuse to give me any injections or antibiotics. She didn't even look closely at my swollen arms! So, the stupid me decided to just apply the cream that she has prescribed to me.

Day 5 of my skin rashes

After that, my skin rashes become worse everyday and I just can't take it any longer. So today I decided to go to the city and see another doctor.

Day 8 of my skin rashes

Check out all these pictures. Bad rite??? Damn!!!! The doctor in the city freaked out when he saw my hands and he said that he is going to report the previous doctor who I have seen previously because my rashes condition is serious! He said that the doctor should have given me an injection that time.

The reason why I get the rashes is because I am allergic to a certain trees! I might brush myself on the tree while I was walking Lexx, or when I went to my friends' place, the tree's pollen around the neighbourhood fell on my body or something like that! So the doctor asked me not to touch any plants start from now onwards!

Judging from my rashes condition now... I might get permanent scars on my hands. I was so sad and teared a little at the clinic because I don not wanna have any scars on my arms or hands. It's ugly! How am I gonna wear sleeve-less top now? Do I have to cover my arms for the rest of my life? Sianz!

Anyway, the doctor has already given me a steroids injection and stronger cream to apply. I need to go back to him on Thursday to see whether my rashes recover. If my rashes don't recover, then I might have to get another injection and antibiotics. Sigh~~~ He said it's best for me to stay at home now, I am not allowed to work, I am not allowed to carry heavy things and the most important thing is, I shall not move my hands that often.

What the hell!!!! Then how am I gonna do my stuff??!!! I feel so useless now because he said that it might take 2 to 3 weeks for my hands to recover. Which is a fucking long time!!! I hope I will be able to start working after the study week break. I need the money!

Now the rashes has spread to my thigh! I think it's because I scratched my hands then I scratched my legs again.

My incredible hulk version hands!

SOB!!!!!!

Foxtel Foxtel Foxtel

2009-03-11T11:28:00.002+09:00

My housemates and I have decided to subscribe to Foxtel at home!! Actually I wasn't very keen of having cable tv at home coz I don't really watch tv at the living room. I only watch HK dramas from my computer which it's enough to keep occupied for the rest of my life! Hahahaha... But majority of them want to have Foxtel at home, the vote is 4 to 1... I am the only freaking one who doesn't wanna have a Foxtel!

Anyway, I will just follow lah, since I am the minority!!! Damn!! I really wanna see how long they will stick to the TV coz all of them have their own TV in the room and we hardly watch tv together at the living room. One of my housemates will put her bigger TV in the living room so that all of us can enjoy the Foxtel! I even subscribe for the movie channels because I love watching movies.... I don't think I have enough time to study this time! LoL!!!

I just can't wait till Friday when they come to my house to install it! Moreover, this Saturday is Man United vs Liverpool match!!!! Glory, glory Man United!!!!! Go the red devils!!! I am still thinking whether I should bet on this match!!! Damn exciting xia! This Saturday night I am gonna just stick my ass at the couch!!!

There are 2 Man U fans at home and 2 Liverpool fans at home!!! Both 'home ground', don't play play ah!!! But I think there might be more people coming to watch the match... They suggested that I should prepare all the neccessities like drinks, alcohol, food, munchies and some dodgy stuff! Muahahaha... Funny people!

Then again... I miss watching soccer match with Kenneth! =(

Are We Human or Are We Dancer?

2009-03-09T01:27:00.002+09:00

I am currently so addicted to the song Human by The Killers!!!! I just can't keep the tune off my head! When I was doing some shoppings at K-Mart the other day, I heard them playing this song... I thought this song sounds so familiar... Can't remember where I heard this song before! Then I remember that I have heard this remix version of Human by Armin Van Buuren!!! I heard it when I went to one of his rave event! LoL!

Well, I can't find the code for the original one... but check out this remix... it's awesome and it makes you feel so good when you are in the rave listening to this song!

Am I really that fat?

2009-03-07T18:52:00.004+09:00

I went to Garden City with my housemates on Thursday and I didn't bring two of my mobile phones out that day! So, when I came back home at night I saw a few missed calls and decided to call them back.

The first person who I called back -- Adrian:
S: "Eh... You looking for me?"
A: "Were you at Garden City? I think I saw someone like you at Diva."
S: "Oh yeah yeah... it was me!!! Also never come and say Hi to me loh! Got gf dao already rite?"
A: "Wah!!!! That was really you ah??!!! OMG Sophia!!!! You are fat! You look like you have put on lots of weights!!!! I couldn't even recognize you!"
S: "Wah lao... got that jia lat or not? Yeah, I put on 10 kgs when I went back to Malaysia. Said until cannot recognize... Am I really that fat?"
A: "I think you have put on too much weights and I think that you look bigger now!!! That's why I never say Hi to you thought that you might be someone else."
S: "NBZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!"

Sianz-ness to the maximum!!! I have came back here three weeks and I am still fat! My arms are still big! My thighs are still humongus!!! I guess I haven't been working enough! I should call Coffee Club soon so that I can work and exercise at the same time! Urrgghh.... sianz sianz sianz!!!!

Last but not least.....

Happy Birthday To you

Jacque!!!!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!

2009-02-11T18:31:00.006+09:00

Valentine's Day is just three days away and guess what? I have already celebrated my V-day with Kenneth!!! Muahaha... Eh eh, we are not Kiasu ok? We decided to celebrate it earlier because he went back to Singapore this afternoon and he is going to Korea on 13th February!!! So, he is going to spend the real V-day with his parents and brother! Hahaha... How romantic!!! LoL!

So, we have actually avoided the night that we have to make reservation before hand with the restaurant, crowds in the restaurant and expensive charges on that night itself! Oh well, I think there are pros and cons to that. I don't mind celebrating on the exact day if I could, coz the atmosphere would be much nicer! What to do?? Beggar can't be chooser. I am just glad that I was able to celebrate it with him, that's the most important thing.

Kenneth only spent a week here... How I wish that he could stay here longer or he doesn't have to serve N.S at all!!! Urgghh... Anyway, he might be going to Perth for a month's holiday before he goes into N.S! Woo Hoo!!!! I just hate the part when we have to send each other off and see the other person leaving! We cried so much during this trip back to Malaysia/Singapore!

We cried at Singapore airport when I have to transit to another flight to Malaysia. We cried when I was leaving Singapore after spending three weeks there. We cried when he is leaving Malaysia to Singapore this afternoon!!!! Moreover, I feel like shit after a few days without having him beside me!!! Then I have to slowly get used to not having him beside me... SOB!!!!!!!!!

But I believe that... Having a long distance relationship is difficult, but it's possible! So I do have faith in this long long long long distance relationship!

Happy Valentine's day Dear!!!

I LOVE YOU FOREVER!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Chai

2009-01-24T18:58:00.003+09:00

Wishing everyone Happy Chinese New year
and
Gong Xi Fa Chai

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!!! I am scared that I might not have the time to wish everyone here during the Chinese New Year. Now I can't wait for that day to come! Muahaha... Don't know why I feel kan cheong about it and can't wait to get ang pows too! I am just glad that this year I am able to celebrate this special day with my family!!!

Tonight until tomorrow night will be the busiest day for my family as we are gonna clean up the whole house for one last time to make sure that the whole house looks nice for Chinese New Year!! Guess what? Every year my job is to make the house looks RED!!! Yeah!!! The auspicious color for Chinese New Year and every year without fail I will make sure that the whole house looks red!!! I think it makes people feel happy! ^____________^

When I was young, I couldn't understand why we have to wash our hair and everything must be new and clean at least to welcome the New Year. I used to think that it's so troublesome to follow all the rules for not sweeping the floor and must cut the finger nails before that, etc. But my appreciation for this Chinese tradition has increased as I get older and when I spent too much time at oversea.

I feel quite guilty now for all the times my mum and aunts lamented that their Chinese traditions would be lost on our generation. My mum and aunts' efforts in trying to teach us these Chinese customs have made me understand that it is important that we know where we come from and that it is we who will pass on the tradition to the future generatons.

I am disappointed by some friends who think that they have been to overseas for their studies and when they came back, they simply think that they are more ang-moh and think that all these are not necessary. But I am pretty sure that I wil definitely pass the tradition to my children next time in the future... even tough I didn;t learn 100% of tradition from my mum, but I will make sure that my children know the important one!!!

For now, I am just waiting to receive ang pows, have reunion dinner, tossing the Yee Sang and to catch up with friends and relatives!!

HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The C.N.Y mood isn't there yet!

2009-01-20T14:58:00.003+09:00

Six more days to Chinese New Year. I don't know why this year I don't really have any mood for Chinese New Year. It feels as though it's just another normal day. But the best thing about Chinese New Year is to be able to celebrate it with my family. I have been waiting for two years and now I just don't have the mood to celebrate. I guess I need to slowly build up the feelings! LoL!!!

Being a little kid is so much fun, especially when Chinese New Year is approaching. The thought of getting lots of red envelopes, to be able to play fire crackers, unlimited of cookies, canned drinks and so much more. I enjoyed CNY more when I was little, that i did not care about anything, just to make sure that I look nice and RED on CNY!!! Muahahaha.... Aw~~~ I miss being a little kid again.

I just came back from Singapore yesterday and I am still feeling sad and emo about it. Sad and emo because I am not sure when will I be able to see him again? 3 months later? 6 months later? 12 months later? Guess I have to be strong and I am pretty sure I will wait for him!!! Kenn, if you are reading this, you better don't run away from me coz I will hunt you down! Hahahahaha....

But so far that was the longest time I spent in Singapore!!! LoL! When I came back to Malaysia, all my friends been nagging me saying that I had too much fun in Singapore that I don't want to come back here anymore! Hahaha... Well, even if I am in Malaysia, they can't really come out anyway because most of my friends here have bfs and they spend more time with the bfs. Most of the time I can only meet up with them once or twice a week. So, I'd rather stay in Singapore leh!!!

I am going to help my mum to clean up the house for CNY now. Happy spring cleaning guys!!!

Nicest Holiday Ever!

2009-01-15T20:50:00.003+09:00

My Singapore trip has nearly come to an end... I am going back to Malaysia next Monday. I am sure I am going to miss my dear so much because I won't be seeing him until June. Luckily once I go back I have to be busy with spring cleaning for Chinese New Year, it will take my mind off some stuff a bit!

Finally Kenneth has met up with my parents and they absolutely adore him a lot! The worst part was my father asked him to go into his music room and interviewed him, I am pretty sure that time Kenneth sure scared himself to death! Hahahah... But he said my father is not as scary as I said. Well, my father mah... sure scary what! Everything went on well in Malaysia because Kenneth has left a good impression on my parents. At least he doesn't stay in the room all day and did spend time talking to everyone in my family.

I have met his parents and at the beginning it was quite scary but now I am find with them. His parents are funny, especially his father... very random, funny and is a good cook!!! They have brought me around Singapore to eat and his father purposely prepared dinner for a few nights!!! Hope that I will leave a good impression too!!!!

I think this trip to Singapore is the best one ever!!! This is because the whole journey is relax and happy, plus I have a lot of fun here! Kenneth has brought me to a lot of places and both of us have put on lots of weights! Should check out our tummies man!!!! LoL! Moreover, he is beside me all the time when I went out to meet up some old friends!

It's not like last time when I had those fucked up bfs that they will just ignored me all the time and I had to go to everywhere ALONE!!! This afternoon we just went swimming together and I was so tired after that that I slept for 4 hours! The last time i swam was 7 years ago!!! We wanted to challenge each other this morning but ended up didn't coz I don't think I can do it! I couldn't really finish 1 lap at one go! Sianz....

Finally I have managed to meet up lots of people in Singapore and it was great catching up with all of them! Furthermore, I even managed to see Armin Van Buuren at Zouk!!!! So happy!!! But the crowd was crazy and it was packed like hell!!!! I still prefer the rave in Perth though... At least they control the crowd in every events and clubs and they will not pack till you can't fucking walk!!!

Urgghh... 4 more days... Then I will be in Malaysia again.

=(

New Toy!

2008-12-06T01:05:00.007+09:00

Ooooooh laaaaaa laaaaa... I just found out a few days ago that my father has a new toy!!!! Muahahah... I was asking my brother...

Me: Eh, how come suddenly put all the windows around the balcony???
Bro: Huh?? You dunno meh? Daddy they all put a sauna at their balcony mah!!!
Me: Wat the....??? A sauna??!!!

So, I went to my parents' room and found a sauna there. To tell you the truth, I was so happy that time when I saw it! LoL! It's not a HUGE sauna that you have seen at the gym or other clubs, it can only fits 3 people in that sauna. Woot!!!! I have used that sauna twice hoping that I will lose more weights!!! Hahahaha...

I told my mum that our house is like a mini club coz we have jacuzzi and sauna now. Now, We just need a swimming pool and pool table so that we can start charging people and make business! Hahaha... Too bad, my house is too small to have a swimming pool, unless I have a huge garden like those houses in Perth.

I will upload those picstures up if I manage to find my cable to connect to the comp!!!! I might have left it at Perth!!!! Sianz.... I might consider installing a sauna in my future home if I manage to lose weight by losing fucking lots of sweat at the sauna this time! =) I don't think it's possible. Do you think it's possible?

Hate it!!

2008-12-03T19:02:00.003+09:00

I fucking regret not bringing my laptop back here from Perth!!! My brother's laptop is killing me!!!! There are so many buttons on facebook that I cannot click! It's like I can't click on the send buttons, upload buttons or watever fucking buttons!

And the Internet connection here sucks big time!!!!! I am pretty sure that the last time I came back, the connection was fast! CCB!!!!!! I nearly puke blood all the time I try to do something online!

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!!!!

HOME!!

2008-12-03T03:41:00.002+09:00

I am HOME, finally!!!! I have been eating a lot, really really a lot of food from here and there. I think my aunts and mum must have thought that I have two huge stomach that I can eat non-stop. But the truth is... I can't. It really depends what kind of food and my mood. I have been staying at home these days just to make my parents happy.

They always have this mindset thinking that I never wanna stay at home, I treat my friends more important than them.... But the other reasons why I don't feel like going out is because I am stressed!!! I am fucking stressed that most of the roads in KL have changed and I might lost in this big city!!!! I was supposed to learn some new roads from my youngest sister, but she is in Langkawi now. Fuck!!!!!

My friends Alex who I haven't see him for 4 years is in town!!!! He wanna meet up with me in KL before he flies back to Kuching. Urgghh... I am still thinking whether I should go tomorrow. Coz the restaurant is a place which I don't any fucking idea where it is and my friends can't even fucking direct me. Should I go or shouldn't I? Hmm... Urrgghh.... Lazy xia!!!

My best friends here have already came and met up with me, they even gave me souvenirs from their HK and Bali trips. Lucky bitches!!!! I am so envious!!!! But I still heart them the most. Sharon has already booked me for this Saturday for clubbing and next Wednesday for her birthday, also clubbing. Sianz. I don't have any money. My parents haven't give me any money and I don't even dare to open my mouth to take money from them!

Lastly, I hate the weather here! It's hot and humid! I sweat everywhere I go, I sweat even when I was eating in the air-con restaurant. My neck and my face are always sticky!!! What other things that I hate most is the drivers in Malaysia. They are some motherfuckers psycho maniac drivers in the world!!!!!!!!!!! They can't drive in proper lane, they drive as if they own the road, they don't fucking give ways, they just cut in anytime they want to, etc. Basically they are terrorizing the whole fucking road in every part of Malaysia!!!! CCB!!!!!

All in all, I am glad to be home now! Miss everyone here after two years. ^^

Global Gathering Perth

2008-11-23T05:26:00.002+09:00

Global Gathering, a dance music festival originally from the UK, will be held in Perth... TODAY!!!!! This is the first time that they are having this event in Australia! Woot! Woot!

Kenneth and I are lucky enough to be going there later this afternoon! All thanks to our housemates Ben and Olivia for buying two tickets for us as Kenneth's birthday and farewell present. Our usual raving kakis are not going there with us, but I am pretty sure that both of us are gonna have fun!!!!

Anyway, I do have a few friends going there, so might as well just meet up with them while we are there!!!! I can't wait!!!! Exciting xia!!!!

Freedom!!!!

2008-11-20T18:11:00.001+09:00

One

more

fucking

day

to

FREEDOM!!!

Woot!!!

My sis, my gem!

2008-11-19T16:43:00.003+09:00

These days there are a lot of things that keep spinning in my head. I have too much to think and worry about. Most of them are money related issues. I told my sister that I hate my life because of certain issues that I am having now. I told her that I don't feel like going back to Malaysia anymore! I am scared and don't wanna face my parents and relatives there. I hate growing up! I hate this and that.

Being a supportive sister, she sent a Jay Chao's song -- Paddy Fragrance for me to listen. She said it suits me now and once I listen to it, it will change my mind. Well, I listened to it and I burst out crying! Sob!!! It gives me more supports and courages to face what issues that I am having now.

Thanks Werm! You are the best! Even though we haven't been seeing each other for so many years. I still love you so much! Thanks for being so supportive and understanding even though you are so far away. I know I can always rely on you! Your my gem! Hugs~~~~

brokeback mountain lifestyle

2008-11-11T17:36:00.002+09:00

It's time for the brokeback mountain period again! I have shortage of moolah every end of the year! Even though I have been broke this one whole fucking year, but by the end of the year it gets worse! I have tried to call back for more money... and my mum replied,"Come back to Malaysia and talk to daddy yourself."

G.G to the maximum!!!

My dad is sure gonna fire me like no tomorrow! But I have made up my mind that IF he doesn't wanna give me money, I am fucking flying back to Perth as early as possible. Well, at least I do get paid if I work here and I will be able to pay my rent. I will see how it goes, I don't think my dad is that cruel gua?

Then before I go back to Malaysia, I have to buy Lexx's 3 months supply of dog canned food and dry food which enough to suck my purse dry. Plus I am not working this three weeks!!! Sob! I hate my current situation now. I can't take this anymore!!!!!

Sigh... Procrastinating mode strikes again. I am so lazy to study! Especially this one whole fucking year, I never have the mood to study, I am lazy to study, I can't even concentrate at all! Nothing goes into my head every time when I try my best to study. My mind will just wander off to somewhere... far far away... over the rainbow! ^_^

Okie. Time to force myself for some hardcore studying!

Studying sucks!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR

2008-11-05T17:08:00.003+09:00

Happy Belated Birthday...

My Dear Kon Thai bf!!!

Kenneth

Your the best and I will always love you! Hugs and kisses!!!

May all your wishes come true

and

All the best in everything

sickie update...

2008-10-30T17:29:00.002+09:00

I am feeling much better today after taking the antibiotics that the doc prescribed. Actually before that I refuse to see a doc and kept telling myself that self-cure is cheaper than seeing a doc. But my friends and my dear kept asking me to go see a doc because my sickness is getting worse and worse. One of my friends told me that,

"In Australia, if you don't see a doctor. You will never recover! Unless the sickness you have is like those common flu and cough."

Hehehe... It's fucking true man!!!!! But I was a bit sad that I had to fucking pay $125 for my medical fee. I have to go back in again next week to check whether I am fully recovered and to do my pap smear as well. Then, I have to go back the third time to do my thyroid medical check up. This is fucked up! My doctor refused to let me do my thyroid check-up now because she said that the results won't be accurate when I am sick.

I coughed like mad yesterday and I guess I nearly cough my lungs out! =) But after using an asthmatic inhaler last night, I feel much better today and cough less. My doctor said that the inhaler is to open up my lungs so that I can breathe easily. Sianz. So many problems... I guess I am getting old!

My dear has been coughing like mad too! I think I have passed my sickness to him but of coz, I don't want him to have bronchitis. He is another stubborn person who doesn't wanna see a doc.... because his birthday is near and he has to drink alcohol. He can't drink when he is on antibiotics.

*faint*

But, I love him sooooooooo much still. =)

About my Freo boss... I sent her a message last night telling her that I can't find anyone to replace me, I will work on Friday as she wish. She replied the most childish message saying:

"its OK. Di has arranged to work for you. take care. C U NEXT FRIDAY!"

Woah... capital letter me!!! Fucking mean bitch! She is in her late 40s now and I don't understand why is she being so childish and mean. I thought it's always the boss or manager's jobs to find another replacement, it's not my job to do that. Fucking CB Bitch! I hope that her shop close down for good! Serve her right!

Me is a sick woman!

2008-10-29T18:57:00.002+09:00

I have been sick for close to a month now, non-stop coughing, nose blocked, fever and sore throat. I decided to see a doctor this morning because I couldn't take it anymore, especially when I can't breathe properly for the past few days.

At the beginning the doctor said that I might have asthma because there are wheezing sounds when I inhale and exhale. So, she sent me to the nurse to do some tests and the results came out really bad. The doctor told me that I don't have asthma but I have mild level of bronchitis!!!!! This is not good at all!!! The worst thing is... she said I must quit smoking so that it doesn't get worse. Fucking hell!!! Now I am so scared, I feel like quiting smoking but on the other hand, I am not willing to let go my smoking! Urrggghh....

BUT... I will try to quit smoking after I finish my two packets of ciggies. =(

The Uni cafe said that I don't have to work this week and asked me to rest more. But the other cafe at Freo, my boss said to me:

"Sophie!!! You can't do that to us! You are such an irresposible person and it will be hard for you to get a job next time if you have this kind of attitude! I can't find anyone to work on Friday!"

I was so fucking pisssed off when I heard that. For the past two weeks when I was sick, she didn't even wanna give me an off-day! I worked until I wanna die last Friday especially when I had to carry all those fucking-god-knows-how-fucking-heavy chairs and tables in and out. I couldn't even breathe properly a few times. Moreover, my nose bled while I was taking order for a customer. Obviously, the customer freaked out! But my Freo boss said I must stay till the end of the day. What kind of fucked up attitude is that??!!!

I told her my conditions and said that the doctor wants me to stay at home and rest for a few days. Guess what she said?

"I don't care. You rest well these few days before Friday, if you don't wanna come in then you have to find someone to replace you. If not, you have to come in on Friday. Coz I am going to Tasmania tonight and there's not enough people in the cafe!"

Oh yeah bitch! I will go work on Friday as you wish! You are such a mean and heartless bitch in this world!! No wonder no one works there for more than a month. If not because I need the money, I would have quit long time ago. But anyway... I just need to fucking endure for two more weeks, then I am out of that fucking shithole!

Godskitchen 2008

2008-10-12T18:24:00.002+08:00

On Friday night, I went to Godskitchen with my friends and I reckon that it's the best Godskitchen EVER!!! The musics was hard and I had a lot of fun there. The other reason is... because I had my love with me the whole night! Hehehe... Everyone was teasing me that I looked happy that night because FINALLY I have a bf who goes rave with me, who understands and supports me!

The theme was Angel In White, so everyone dressed up in white! I am still feeling a bit sad because one of my friend accidentally poured his freaking bourbon coke on my body!!! Now there's a brown mark on my fave white top! Moreover, other people who were dancing at the dance floor poured their drinks all over my feet! What the fuck man!

All of us were there from 9.30pm until 6am then I slept at around 10am. I felt so tired and felt like shit the next day because I worked from 8am to 4.30pm on Friday, after that we went to Northbridge for dinner then straight to Godskitchen. I must admit that age is the main reason why I was feeling tired the next day! Sigh~~~ Old liao! Cannot party too much!

For more pictures... please go to my Facebook and have a look once I have posted them. Coz I am just too lazy to upload all the pics here! =)

Hiding and seeking

2008-09-10T21:19:00.003+08:00

Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap (DJ Tiesto Remix)

I am currently addicted to this song! Awwww~~~~ My heart melts every time I hear this song! Feel like floating in the sky and being in my own world. I can't wait to go clubbing this coming Friday! I have been having this stupid clubbing mood since a few weeks back!!! No matter what happen, I am gonna fucking go out this Friday night! Legs itchy liao!!!!

None of my friends understand me

2008-09-03T17:07:00.003+08:00

"Sophia, you are not a party animal anymore!"

Yes! I am not a party animal anymore, as compared to last time. I have been getting this kinda comments from my friends lately. This is because I have been MIA-ing from most of the events. I feel bad for not attending all the events but what else can I do? A lot of people don't seem to understand the reasons why I cut down on going out.

I don't mind if my friends blame me for not going out with them IF, only IF I have been partying every week somewhere with someone. The fact is I haven't been fucking going out for the past 3 weeks! I have been craving to go out clubbing for ages, but still... I didn't go. That's because I am really low on money and I don't wanna spend my money on unnecessary things. By going out too often, you ought to pay for the meals, the drinks, parking fees, alcohol fees, and whatever fees lah.

The reasons why I don't wanna go out:

I have 3 jobs, I work 6 days a week and 1 day I will be at the uni. I even sleep 2 or 3 hours earlier as compared to last time. I don't even have time to sleep and I haven't even start studying for my mid-sem tests! Do you guys think that I have time for other things?
I still owe $2500 to two of my friends and I am trying very hard to save all my money from work to pay them back as soon as possible. I feel very uneasy to owe them such a large amount of money! Moreover, my savings haven't even reach $1000 to be able to pay both of them back. So, if you guys think that by working three cafe jobs will be able to pay back the money, then everyone in this world will be better off working as a casual at cafes.
My parents are not giving me a cent for my living expenses because they said that it's my fault for failing my units last semester. I have to pay rent, I have to pay for my food and Lexx's food, my car's petrol, electrical, water, phone bills and etc. I have to borrow around $5000 from my mum to pay my school fees!
I must admit that I spend the rest of my time with Kenneth and what's wrong with that? Come on, we have only been together for 2 months, rileks lah a bit... Plus he is most likely to go back to Singapore to serve his NS for 2 years this end of the year.

I am so troubled by all these and I have to call Diana for advise. She said that:

"You can't make everyone happy, just as long as you think that you are doing the right thing and know which one is your priority, then go ahead with it. Coz by the end of the day, if you fuck your life up, none of your friends are gonna take responsibility for that."

I am not saying that I don't wanna go out ever again, but I just need some time, just give me some time and I will go out with everyone! Do you think that I don't wanna go out for karaoke? Do you think that I don't wanna go out for clubbing? You are talking about Sophia!!!! I would love to go out for all events!!! I will start spending time with everyone once I have quit one of my cafe jobs by the end of September, but it doesn't mean that I will go to all outing events because...

Lim peh got time, but lim peh got not enough money! ^______________________^''

Hungry Ghost Festival

2008-08-19T19:27:00.002+08:00

Two more weeks to go for the end of Chinese's Hungry Ghost Festival this year. I am always really scared of the Hungry Ghost Festival especially in Malaysia because there are a lot of people burning things at the roadside and also the temples busy celebrating the festival! At least over here in Australia is not that obvious and I tend to forget that it's Hungry Ghost Festival this month.

Anyway, I called back to Malaysia last night and my mum told me that she went to the fortune teller to ask about me last Friday. She asked me to be extremely careful this month because my luck is not that good and is extremely low this month. So, the fortune teller told my mum to remind me not to go out too late at night and especially at night if I heard someone calling for my name, don't ever turn back my head to respond.

Fuck!!! This is some scary shit and it's my first time experiencing this kind of thing. Then my mum said that I am not allowed to go to the beach this month as something might happen to me if I go. Call me superstitious or what, but I really believe in this kinda thing because the same thing happened to my aunt before and it was hell scary!!!!!!!

Start from today onwards, I am not gonna fucking go out late at night until the Hungry Ghost Festival finish!!!! I am not going to Kenneth's house late at night alone coz I don't think I am brave enough to get out from my house after hearing those things from my mum. Coz there are a few days that I have to wait till he finishes his work at 11pm, then I will go to his house at 12am sometimes. Shit!! I am not gonna do that anymore! He is gonna come to my house straight from work!

Because it's quite serious to me, my sister is gonna send me the 'hu' from Malaysia so that I can burn it and drink it at home! Urggghh.... Coz it happened to me last week that when I was taking a shower at home, I felt that 'someone' was looking at me in the toilet, the water sound seemed louder to me and I could feel something weird going on there. I was so scared I couldn't even think of what I should do. Luckily after awhile I heard Kenneth coughing non-stop in the room, then suddenly everything went back to normal. Thinking about all this just gave me goose bump around my whole body. Sianz...

I just can't wait for this two weeks to finish!

The GODLIKE chicky soup

2008-08-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

I have been having this weird kind of sickness for days now and it's killing me!!!! It's weird because I feel sick, but on the other hand I don't feel sick at all! Most of the time I feel sick until I feel like dying, but after awhile, I am back to normal again. Sianz! I went to the pharmacy and they refused to sell me the hay fever medicine coz they think that it's a bit too early to get hay fever. Wtf??!!!

Anyway, my babe and smeagol told me that by drinking chicken soup at night or in the morning will cure the cold and flu. I just had a bowl of chicken herbal soup that Kevin cooked just now, I hope that it works! I don't wanna be sick anymore, especially when I have to work most of the days!!!!! I feel like a walking zombie when I am working at the cafe, especially my Thursday and Friday shifts! If it's not because of the hours and the money are good, I won't even think about working there at all!!!

The BEST housemates ever!

2008-08-12T15:56:00.002+08:00

Two weeks ago, I manage to find another housemate and I am so happy that I don't have to pay so much for my weekly rent. Financially, I am a bit more stable now. But this month is my "broken" month as I have to pay for my bills and car insurance which total up to around $800. I haven't even add in the money that I need to renew my student visa! Sianz!!!!

As for now, I think I have the best housemates ever!!! Because I have one chef as a housemate and another housemate is taking a chef course. Once in awhile we will prepare and cook dinner together and most of the time they will leave a bit of dinner or soup for me. There was once J* made a soup for me which made me miss Malaysia so much! Coz it tasted just like the soup my aunt made for me in Malaysia. I feel soooooooooo at home, a home far away from home.

Although I have a tiny bit of conflit with my other housemate, B* last month, but now I guess he is back to his usual self. A very nice person who will always cook or make something at his work then bring back home for me. Hey, I don't mind being his guinea pig as long as I have something to eat! I am so impressed that these two people manage to cook something by randomly picking food from the fridge!!!! As for me, I think I might need a little more time to think of what I wanna cook just by looking what I have in the fridge.

Then this Singaporean-Burmese girl moved into our house and she seems nice and kinda friendly too. But most of the time she will be in her room doing her stuff and hardly join us for dinner or anything. As compared to my previous housemates, I think this time I really feel happy staying under one roof with other people. At least most of us are easy-going and honest to each other.

Last time those housemates never bothered to take out the trash, never bothered to clean up the house, never bothered about any fucking things lah. They just treat this house as in a place that they are gonna stay for a short while then they simply can't be fucked cleaning up the house! Fuck them!!!!! At least now I am satisfied with all my housemates and all of them love Lexx to the max!!!

Happie!!

2008-08-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

I know I haven't been updating my blog for ages, I am really sorry guys! I was working like 6 days a week during my holidays and I would spend the rest of my time with my bf. Stop leaving messages on MSN saying that "now bf is more important that friends lah...."

Well... first of all, my blog is not my friend. secondly, you guys know that I created this blog to kill time when I really have nothing better to do or when I am procrastinating on something! =) Aiyah, anything that you guys wanna know, just leave a message on my MSN or call me!!!! I promise I will try to update my blog as often as possible!

Okie... just wanna let you guys know that all my uni problems are all settled! I am currently studying at two universities because the second uni allowed me to do the unit that I have failed for like a million times! Thank God!!! But I still have to wait for the approval from the immigration to renew my student visa. Sianz... I hope that they allow me to renew my student visa since this is my final semester.

As for my financial problem, still the same. Everyday struggling for money, especially when now my parents refuse to send me money to support me. I hope that my mum will send me my uni fees so that I don't have to worry too much. Or else, I think even if I sell my cb and my asshole also can't get the school fees in a short period of time.

Anyhooooooooooooo.... I just hope that everything will be fine soon!!! Coz I can't take this kinda pressure and torture anymore!!!! =)

I am a failure!

2008-07-02T17:42:00.002+08:00

After getting a few emails from the University regarding my poor performance at University, I decided to check my results today. Well, the results are not good, it's bad!!!! Like what I have predicted, I failed two units. I guess I am gonna be so busy next week running around at the uni meeting up with International student officers and also the Program Chair to discuss about my current situation.

My situation is very critical now, I really need to do something about it so that they won't suspend me and kick me out of Australia. Sigh~~~ Sianz to the max! The most fucked up thing is my parents already told me that they are not gonna fund for my fees if I fail my units again! Last semester was my last chance and fucking blew everything up!

How? How? How? I am fucking doomed this time!

Sophia loves Kenneth! =)

2008-06-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

Yes!!! We are together now! Woot! Woot! At first I thought that after my previous break up, I won't be falling in love with anyone for a certain period of time. Telling all my friends in Malaysia that I am gonna rest for a while and be single and be free!!!

Mana tau, now I am attached! Must slap my own mouth liao. =) Even though he is like.... 7 years younger than me, but I guess I can't be bothered much lah. We both did think a lot about our huge age gap and what may happen in the future. But I guess that just as long as I am happy together with him, then I don't have to care about how people will react to our age gap. We will just see how it goes for the time being! =)

He came. He conquered. He left.

2008-06-16T16:41:00.002+08:00

Last Friday I had so much fun at Armin Van Buuren! I was a bit disappointed with his set this year as it wasn't as hard as the set that he played at last year's white party. But I still had a lot of fun because the company of friends on that night was excellent! I ran all over the place at Metro, sometimes at the dance floor, sometimes at the top level. Both places gave me two different kinds of feelings though.

Basically I was off my head when I was at the dance floor especially the sound effects were so much louder there and the lights..... fucking awesome! Most of the time when I was at the dance floor, I couldn't remember a shit coz I was in my own world floating around! Hahahah... all my friends said that I looked blur every time when I was on the dance floor. Then when I went up stairs, I could dance react normally! To tell you the truth, most of the clips that I have taken that night, I couldn't even remember when I took it and all of them were so fucking shaky! Superbly high!

Then I slept at 10.30am the next day, woke up at 2.30pm feeling like shit. The whole Saturday I just felt like dying, no appetite, jaw aching, legs tired, the worst thing was I felt like puking the whole day! I didn't manage to go to my friend's farewell dinner and also karaoke night. Damn! But I needed my rest that night, so I slept the whole night! Muahahaha....

I miss going to AVB again!!!!!! The next few days after the event, I couldn't help but thinking about that night again and again! I hope he comes again next year!!!!

I need money!!!

2008-06-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

I am so emo today, I feel like crying so badly! A lot of things happened to me lately, I have been thinking a lot until I nearly collapsed. Knowing that my house mates are moving out soon, if I didn't manage to find other people to stay, then I am doomed! I have been struggling for a few months about my financial situation which is KILLING me! I have never felt so pathetic and pitiful in my entire life!!!!!

Fuck! I hate my life now. I don't even dare to ask money from my parents. In my head, I keep thinking that if I failed any units this semester, I seriously don't know how to repeat them next semester. Firstly, my visa is until this semester. Secondly, how am I gonna have the money to pay for my fees?!!! Urrggghhh... I just hated myself so much for not putting any efforts in my studies this semester.

Looking for housemates... again!

2008-06-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

Just when I thought my nightmare of paying expensive rent for the other rooms at my house has over, the same nightmare has started to come back and haunts me again. By end of this month, all three of my house mates are moving out! Fuck!

House mate #1: Moving out by tomorrow because he just sold his car and need to stay at his friend's house who is lending the car to him.

House mate #2: Moving out by end of the month so that he can stay with his gf.

House mate #3: Moving out by end of the month and will be staying outside with her friends.

Sians!!! I have to return the bond back to one of my house mates which I have spent all of it! The worst thing is I am not working at the cafe in the uni because it will be closed during the holidays. How am I gonna fucking survive??!!! I am so sick of my life now. Why??!!! Why???!!! Why do all these things have to happen to me again and again! I think must be something wrong with the feng shui in this house.

For the time being, I think I have to start looking for more part-time jobs now, or else, I won't be able to survive. Sob!!! I feel like I am so 'charm' this year, keep on struggling for money. I can't even fly to Brisbane for my friend's wedding. I haven't been buying clothes for a long time! I have been eating instant noodle for way too fucking long! Me is so kasihan!!!!

I'm freeeee!!!

2008-06-05T12:49:00.003+08:00

Finally, I am free from uni... for the time being! I felt so happy yesterday morning before the exams knowing that after a few more hours, I would be the happiest person in the world because it was my last paper for this semester! Hahaha... After that I came back home wanted to take a nap but ended up chatting online and was doing other things. Then as usual, I went to the community centre for my daily dose.

I don't understand why nowadays my hardcore group of friends are acting.... somehow weird and cheeky! Hahaha... Nowadays they like to put me and my sugar daddy #1 together and they will always say something related to both of us. Then the other day when I wanted to go out and buy my supper, they kept pushing him to go out with me. Then... the whole group keep teasing both me and my sugar daddy #1 for the whole time. Making both of us feel so paiseh!!! Sianz!

Now, I feel so paiseh whenever I talk to him and I don't really dare to be too close with him just to avoid them from giving us shits! Just because I 'slept' with him twice doesn't mean that there are something going on with us. We only slept on the same bed... sleeping kind of sleep, not having sex kind of sleep! LoL! Sianz. Now I have to be extra careful whenever I wanna do or say anything in front of them!

Oh man... I feel so bored now. What should I do? Internet so fucking slow because we have exceeded the quota of 40GB a month! Fucking hell! I have to wait for one more week to get back the broadband connection back. My friends asked me how is it possible that three of us could download 40GB of stuff in a month? Especially now one of my housemates never stay at home.

Well, very simple only! I didn't download or stream anything for close to three weeks now because I am always outside. Then, because I have two housemates who are not working and they are not studying as well. So, what can they do? They either go out or download lots of movies and drama series to watch at home. Next time I should ask them to stop downloading stuff until the last two weeks! I can't take this slow connection speed shit any longer!!! I can't even play my fucking games online!

New member in the group -- Zorro

2008-06-01T21:57:00.007+08:00

Welcome the new member to the hardcore group!!!! His name is Zorro and is a Siberian Husky. He is only 9 weeks old and looks sooooooooooooo cute!!!!! I hope that he is mine! LoL! Andrew, Kenneth, Vee and Jeremy bought him on Saturday for $750 which is quite a good price for a Husky. Too bad he doesn't have blue eyes, or else, he will look better! I was supposed to go with them, but I spent too much time talking to friends after the exams that I didn't hear their phone calls. Damn!

At the beginning, they named him Leroy which me and Joselyn think it's a bit weird and it doesn't suit him. So, the boys had to name him again. They decided to name him Zorro because of his mask at the eyes. Zorro has 4 dads (Drew, Kenon, Jeremy and Vee), I seriously don't know how are they gonna train him because he might get confused! Anyway, they have already planned to bring Zorro to my house for a hide out if their house has house inspection. I do hope that Lexx and Zorro can be best friends, then I can always bring Lexx over for fun! Hahahah... I just hope that Lexx won't be too aggressive and attacks him.

They came to my house on Saturday to bathe the puppy because they don't the shampoo and food. So, I bathed him in the toilet and also fed him milk! Seriously, the previous owner didn't care much about the dog and he was so fucking smelly and dirty when he first arrived! The water in my bath tub was so dirty and brownish and there were sand in the bath tub too! I fucking have to clean my whole toilet because of this cutie!

So, I spent most of my precious time at their house this two days playing with the puppy!!! Hahahaha... Zorro sleeps all the time, he is more like a cat than a dog! Maybe the 'compression' in the house is too serious. I guess he needs more time to adjust to the new environment.

Left 2 more days to study for my Corporate Finance, I haven't start studying for this unit and not sure how am I gonna pass it! Sigh... Procrastinator! My Sunday paper was a horrible one! I didn't do too well for that paper and I didn't complete most of the questions! I spent too much time flipping the papers and books than answering the questions. I don't think I will be able to pass for this unit. Panic!!!!

The worst thing is I had diarrhea 2 times during the exams!!! I wanted to fart so many fucking times during exams but I had to control it!!!! Fucking made me sweat when I was trying to hold my fart and also to tahan the stomachache. I am not gonna drink any coffee before my exams next time!

'Lari' out of time!!!!!

2008-05-29T17:57:00.003+08:00

I AM SO DOOMED! My first final paper this Saturday and I am still stuck at the same chapter that I was reading last Friday. Urrrghh... Sometimes, I hate myself so much for having too much fun, take my own sweet time, didn't set my priorities right, etc. But somehow, once in awhile I mean, I tend to blame it on my friends. Hahaha... This is what happened to me since last Friday.

Friday
After work, I wanted to study at home but my friends called me out and asked me to go to Rise with them. I didn't go in the end because I really wanna study at home. But I ended up chilling at their house! Fuck!

Saturday
Worked in the afternoon. Came back home and then went to Maccas with my babe, Jacque for a short catch-up session! Hehehe... Then I went to my sugar daddies' house for a short gathering because Joselyn's friends came from Singapore and they wanted me to go Metro with them. I didn't go because I had to go to another friend's birthday party. I just felt a bit wasted that I was batu-ed the whole night at Utopia. I shall not batu-ed before any birthday parties in the future. =)

Sunday
Worked in the afternoon. Then realized that someone has sabotaged me and intend to jeopardize my friendship with my babe. I am glad that it's all sorted out. Then went to sugar daddies' house to batu again. My daily routine at their house is getting worse and worse, sigh~~~~

Monday
Procrastinated at home the whole day watching two movies on my computer! Fuck me!

Tuesday
My sugar daddies told me that one of my friends was kinda pissed off at me and there was this huge misunderstanding going on between me and that girl. So, I went to their house wanted to find out what was going on because I remember I didn't do anything to that girl. In the end I found out that everything was a lie!!!!!! They purposely lied to me so that I will go over to their house and batu with them. Then, wasted my whole day.

Wednesday
BC came to my house to view the rooms because he might wanna move into one of the rooms next month. He wanted to cook dinner for me and Vee they all at my house, but they realized that my housemate's gf was studying and they also paiseh to disturb. So, we changed the venue to KK's house! Then, I was stuck there until my best friend in Malaysia called me. She told me that her bf wanna break up with her, even though he has proposed to her last year. A lot of complicated things going on between both of them. So, I rushed home so that I could use my phone card to call her.

As for today, I hope that I can control myself and try my very best to stay at home and study!!! Because I left one more day to study the whole fucking book for Taxation! Sianz... why do I have to go through all this shit?

World Freeze

2008-05-23T20:59:00.002+08:00

Have you ever heard of human freeze? Freeze frame? The other day I was talking about this Wold Freeze Day with my friends and how we wish that Perth could have the same event that time!!!

The world will freeze for 5 minutes on April 1! Throughout the world people will gather on squares, in stations, in organizations or wherever they are and stop their motion for 5 minutes. Pause for thought. Pause for human kind. Pause for our planet. A prank for a laugh!

If I don't know anything and suddenly everyone around me freezes... I will be like...

W.T.F????????

Here are some of the clips from... everywhere!!!

Grand Central Station, New York

London

Sydney

San Francisco

Stockholm

Brisbane

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

relatives headache

2008-05-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

One bad news...

My cousin is coming to Perth to study!

Fuck me!!!

Last year I thought that my sis would come to Perth and study, I was worried because if she comes, I have to give up smoking and all my other shits! Then she decided to go to Adelaide to further her education.

Then this July, my cousin is coming to Perth to study at Curtin University!!! After my exams, I will have to find a house for him, or else, he will be staying at my house with me until he gets a house with his friends. Then, I am doomed!!! Fucking doomed big time! Now, I am trying to ask him to stay on campus because it will be easier for him to learn things through friends on campus.

If he decided to stay outside, I think I will have to show him how to walk to university, where to eat, then must always go up and down his house to bring him out for lunch and dinner and all other shits! Well, I don't mind doing those things for awhile, but not for 1 or 2 months. I will go insane! Especially his father and my father are really close cousins for years, my father will definitely asked me to bring him around and take care of him.

Urrggghhhh..... me is doomed!!!!

AAarrgghh... can't be fucked with this now. I think I better worry about my exams than this. As usual, I haven't study for the final exams. It's a miracle that I didn't go to my friend's house. I kept forcing myself to stay at home and study. But.... I slept for a few hours, I watched show online, I packed my room, I stared at my computer, and all the procrastinating things I can think of doing at this time.

I am scared and my heart keeps beating as the final exams date is approaching. But on the other hand, I am taking my own sweet time to study. Somebody kill me please!!!!! I hate myself so much!

ketchup

2008-05-10T03:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday after work, I brought Lexx out for walkies... (I know, you guys must be thinking, finally she brings her poor dog out!) I thought I have walked him for 30 mins because I was sweating and I felt tired but actually it was only a 15 mins walk. Damn! Why must I walk my dog? Can't they just be satisfied staying at home? Urrgghh...

Came back home sitting in front of the computer thinking whether I should go out at night. I wanna start studying for my final exams but somehow... my heart kept telling me that I should go out. So, I was telling myself that whoever call and jio me out at that time, I will definitely go out. After 30 mins, Colin called! Muahahah...

We went to Northbridge for dinner and he was blaming me for not asking him out. OKOK I promised him that I will go out with more often before he goes to up north. After dinner we went to karaoke with Serena and other friends. We had a lot of fun there and singing at Utopia Myaree is so cheap! At least cheaper than Hits Studio I think. Then we decided to go to Colin's new apartment for an unofficial house warming!

I am so in love with his apartment!!!! His company is paying for his stay at the apartment, it's so convenient to go to Northbridge and to the city. He has clean towels to use everyday, apartment will be cleaned everyday, etc. Everything is so prefect and I feel like staying at his apartment for a few days and pretend that I am having a short holidays. Wanted to stay overnight at his place but I know that we would ended up talking too much until the next morning... then both of us might not be able to have enough sleep... So, I came back home. If I am not working tomorrow, then I will stay overnight. Sigh~~~

Before I leave the house...

Jon: Aijor, study for your corporate finance lah. Still wanna go out.
Me: Huh? Dinner only mah. I still have to eat right?
Jon: I don't think so loh. I am sure you will be having plans after dinner.
Me: Hehehe... karaoke only lah. Come home then study. =)
Jon: Are you sure?
Me: Hmmm... see how!

Fuck! My procrastination mode is on again. I should start studying now. But I have a Birthday party to go to tonight. Then next Saturday the whole day I have to attend my friend's Hens Party. See... how to study?

stop and stare

2008-05-10T03:04:00.000+08:00

I am so in love with this song~~~~

rage

2008-05-07T20:33:00.003+08:00

This afternoon I have wasted my time going down to Bentley thinking that I would get back my necklace. But this stupid guy called me and asked me to go there and take from him, in the end he told me that he lost it! Fuck!!!!!!!!!!! My mum was shouting at me when I called her to let her know that news.

Well, I don't know who should I blame for this incident. In March, my mum wanted to send the necklace to me by post but I told her not to because the necklace costs around RM5000. So, she asked her best friend's son to bring it over for me. I tried calling and looking for him for one whole fucking month and he didn't answer my call and didn't reply my messages as well. Finally, I saw him at Metro last Saturday and I started asking him about my necklace.

What the fuck man! I mean, he knew that the necklace is very expensive and he knew that I need the necklace urgently, yet he lost it. He kept asking me how and what should we do now? Well, how the fuck I know xia? I doubt that his mum will pay the money to my mum. Then my mum asked me to keep asking him to find. Sigh... I am so sick of all this shit.

For the past few weeks I had been asking people to pay me back my money lah, find my necklace lah, clean this and that thing up lah, etc. All of them are just spoiling my fucking mood now. Especially every time when I asked for something hoping that it will turn out good, then it never turn out good. Sometimes I feel like shouting to everyone when I get really pissed off about them. But... I must control myself!!!!

Then now, my mum doesn't wanna send me a new one. She thinks that it's my responsible to make sure that he finds the necklace. I think that he didn't even try his very best to find my necklace. I think next time I will trust the post office than asking other people.

As for now, I think that everyone is @#$%%^&*

hard is good!

2008-04-26T15:58:00.002+08:00

Last time I always like trance music coz it's softer and very euphoric, especially when you are in your own world, you really wanna just be in there and enjoy the music. But now, I LOVE hardstyle and hard trance. They have more hard bass and the beat is stronger which make you feel like dancing the whole night, non-stop!

I don't mind if the club or rave starts to play trance at the beginning, because I need to warm up in a smooth music. Then when I get to the mood, this is the time when hardstyle and hard trance should be played! Coz I can dance all night or should I say 2 to 3 hours non-stop. Then I will be drinking my redbull and water, sucking my lollies, inhaling my inhaler, dancing with my glowsticks.... Aw~~~~ heaven!!!!! Cloud 9 effect! Shiok betul!!!!

There was once I went to an event called Godskitchen last year. I was dancing and walking around from 11.30pm till 6am non-stop. I didn't even sit down at all! Coz it was too good!!! But I hate it when I got smacked up really hard that I had to sit on a chair for the whole night. I remember I went to White Party and I got so smacked up that I sat on the chair the whole night, right in the middle of the bar overlooking the stage! The whole atmosphere is so good that I was in my own world that time.

Although I did force myself to stand up and dance but I just couldn't help it. Every time when I wanna stand up and dance, for less than 5 mins, I would automatically take a sit again. Then I would just look at the stage, when the DJ is spinning, the colorful lights flashing here and there, my eyes would just follow the lights making me wanna fly!! It's like a bug chasing after the light! Woo Hoo~~~~!!!!

I think I enjoy both speedy and smacky atmosphere, but would prefer to have a speedy one. Smacky mood will just make the time goes slower and the whole night you will just sit there doing nothing looking at people. I always feel regret if I have a smacky mood that night coz I feel like I have wasted my time and money to sit there there whole fucking night. Speedy mood makes the time passes by so fast and you dance all night and there's a satisfaction there that I have done something.

I am looking forward to Armin Van Buuren this June! Woo hoo!!!! yes!!! I am fucking going to AVB!!!!! Thanks to a few friends who owed me money, they decided to combine the money together to buy me that tickets! Hahaha.... fucking hell!!!! But I love them so much still!!! They helped me to celebrate my single-hood. Said dun worry, you always have us the bros in the ghetto for ya. *Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......*

And my babe and boss who also helped me to celebrate my single-hood, brought me to have dinner at Ipoh even though my babe's kaki is a bit cacat. I really appreciate that! Muaks you and ah cheam long time! Hugs!!!!! Then they come to my house and we 'batu-ed' the whole night! I just couldn't stop laughing at my babe's 'batu-ed' face! Muahahahahahhaha......

Fuck! I think last time I should study something related to DJ-ing and music!!! Then I will get to travel around the world for any rave events! That's why last time I studied Public Relations because we get to travel around if we are in-charge of HUGE international events. How cool is that? I don't think my dreams will ever be fulfilled! Office life, working 9 to 5, sitting in front of the comp.... this kinda life sucks big time man!!!!!!!

asshole

2008-04-24T01:22:00.002+08:00

So, the whole world knows that I have ended the relationship with my bf. Thanks to Facebook! I feel like there's no privacy on Facebook, at all! I have been receiving messages on MSN, on Facebook and mobile phones asking me whether I am fine. Well, I guess I will be fine after a few more days. Thanks heaps!

But I received a very sarcastic message on Facebook from this young guy who I used to go out with.

"After all this while u guys broke up or its just for show?"

Me is so fucking pissed off when I read this message! Fuck you, **!!!! I can't believe that there are people in this world who have nothing better to do. Boliaoz. Maybe I hurt him too much last time! Hahaha... Shame on you, asshole!

looking for....

2008-04-22T19:06:00.001+08:00

My Love!

^_^

this should be the life...

2008-04-21T02:47:00.001+08:00

Fuck the system -- Showtek

This is what I love, and can't stop lovin'.
Get wasted at partys, from 9 till 7 in the morning.
I live for the music, rollin' blunts, feelin' high, gettin' loaded
- or take some pills and go to La La Land.
Spendin' all my money on dope and extreme high price tickets.
But in the end, it's all worth it.
I like to live in my own world. Fuck regular life! Fuck the '9-to-5' job!
I'm totally enjoyin' every moment, every hour, every minute.
Thats what I do at fridays and saturdays. Why should I take life so seriously?
I just want to do, what I like to do! Be far from reality, 'cause I can't stand society!
It's my own world, I just want to hear the music.

I think the whole system fucking sucks.
everybody's working their fucking ass up during the week,
getting totally fucking stressed out - So what's wrong, and what's right?
I live for the weekend, I live for hardstyles, I live for hardstyle baby!

Come on! Let's go!

I love hardstyle!!!! So much!!!! Can't wait for AVB in June! Woo Hoo!!!

12 hours, 2 different parties, 3 rounds of boozing and highness

2008-04-20T23:19:00.013+08:00

Last night was a crazy night... came back from work, prepared and then went to Gavin's house for his birthday party at around 7.30pm. Then everyone went crazy with all the alcohol that we had to go out and buy more boozes! 2 cartons of beer, 5 bottles of hard liquor... Gosh! That was crazy! So we went out and bought two more hard liquor and in the end, finished as well!

Gavin and Uzi's Birthday Party @ Garden Mews

They were all drunk and high until they became a bit mad that I wanted to leave earlier to another birthday party. Took my phone and called Jacque.... sigh~~~ Kenneth was holding my digital camera the whole night so that I couldn't leave the party. I decided to stay a little while and left at 11.15pm.

Then headed to Northbridge for William's birthday party and I had a lot of fun there as well. My babe kept saying that I didn't drink, but I remember I drank like 5 fucking shots and 2 beers there! That was drinking babe!!!!!!! You sudah blind! You were so drunk that you didn't even realized that Sam kept pouring drinks for me! Hahahah... But I could drink a few more lah, I was a bit floating when I was singing.

William's Birthday Party @ Hits Studio

After that, I think I left Northbridge at around 3.30am to 4am. Then I headed down to Gavin's house and there were only 6 of us left! Muahahaha... Then we continue to party again until 7.30am. Yawn~~~~~~~

Fun night!!! But I am feeling really tired! ^_^

everything is falling apart

2008-04-18T02:18:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why everything is falling apart during my pokkai period...

My printer has gone crazy that sometimes it prints, sometimes it doesn't.
My computer's hard disk has gone crazy too!!! All the drives in the computer just disappeared!! What the fuck??!! Sometimes when I restart the computer, they were all there but after awhile they went missing! My friend said that my hard disk is 'spoiling', so I better get a new hard disk before I reformat my computer! (But I don't wanna reformat my comp!!!!!! Darrel installed so many goodie stuff for me!!!! Plus, I don't wanna buy a new hard disk... no $$)
My thyroid yearly checkup is due now, but I think I have to postpone it.
My car is due for service, I think I have to postpone it.
I need to check my teeth, I think I have to postpone it.
The cafe at uni is cutting everyone's shifts because they wanna cut cost! Fucking hell!!
I can only work for 20 hours a week! Sob! I wanna work for more hours!
Housemate is moving out. Have to start paying expensive rent again!
I wanna go to AVB event!!!! Tickets all sold out! Although there are tickets around but those MFCBCs are re-selling the tickets at a higher price! Fuck you all!
I failed my Finance mid-semester test!

Gosh!!! I am so pathetic! But I am happy that:

My furnitures will be delivered to me this morning! I don't have to sleep on the floor anymore! Yay!!!
Someone is moving to my house for a few days. At least, better than nothing!
Two birthday parties this Saturday!
Having one week break next week, I can work more hours! Woo Hoo!!!
I am still alive!!!!!

bad luck

2008-04-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

This afternoon I accidentally gave Jacque the wrong bank account number, until now then I realize that! So, now we have to wait for 5 to 8 days to see whether the money is being transfered to another account. If yes, then my babe has to file a dispute. I am so sorry!!!!!!!!

Then my Japanese housemate is moving out next week because she wants to travel around Australia. Which means... I am doomed!!!! Coz I am paying two rooms now and once she moves out next week, I have to pay for three rooms! What the hell!!! This house is causing me a lot of money!!! I can't afford to pay for three rooms again! How? How? How?! I am in the panic stage now that I really wanna kill myself at this point of time!

I just went to my friend's birthday last Saturday, had a blast and enjoyed myself to the max. This Saturday two more friends' birthday parties, I don't know which one to go to first! Sianz ah!!!!!!! Both also important, both also I want to go! Damn, I will just plan first! Money again... sianz!!!! I hate myself so much!

pokkai to the max!!!

2008-04-11T22:29:00.003+08:00

I wish that...

money falls from the sky!

Seriously, I have never been so pokkai in my life. I think these two months I have been spending money 'uncontrollably' without me knowing that I have less that $100 in my bank. Yeap! Fucking less that $100 in the bank. I was shocked when I checked my bank account last night. I didn't wanna call my dad to ask for more money because he just gave me 10k in February. After two months, I left $100.

Moreover, I am working part-time and there are money coming in every week. That means I spent all my working money too! Sianz! I didn't even buy any bags or anything! Fucking hell!!! But I think I spent too much on the rent especially when I had to pay $380 a week for the first 4 weeks.

Another bad news is... the new housemate is moving out soon because she wanna travel around Australia and she will be moving out in two weeks time. CB!!!!!! I am so fucking stressed now. I have to eat, Lexx has to eat, Hon Hon also needs to eat.... How leh?? Sianz. I have no mood to study at all, I have spent the whole day thinking and calculating the money. I wish that I can work more hours at the cafe but I can only work 20 hours a week! Sob to the max!!!

Maybe I am not qualified to become an accountant coz I can't even handle my own money!!! Damn you moolah! I hate you so much yet I'm loving you long time too! =) Arrgghh... fuck me!!!!

emo party

2008-04-08T18:27:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, I went to a really emo birthday party. I was feeling depressed for the past few days, by going to the birthday made me even more depressed and emo. Even though I had a few friends that I don't wanna see there and they kept asking me things that I don't feel like answering, but I must admit that I had fun lah! Hahahaha... Maybe because of the booze!

They have been my friends since the first year I came to Perth but I don't really mix with them too much because they are working full time now. All they wanna do during weekends are to rest at home and we only hang out when someone is having birthday.

Then one of them started to ask:

P: Eh Sophia, you never feel tired one hor?
S: Tired of what?
P: Clubbing and drinking lah. Every time also see you club and drink. All of us have retired and you are still the only one clubbing away like no tomorrow.
S: Eh, I cut down a lot already k. At least I don't go clubbing every Saturday now, only once in awhile.
P: I think none of us here can challenge you, no one can beat your stamina.

Hmmm... I do feel tired most of the times. I do need a lot of rest and sleep. But somehow I just don't feel like resting too much sometimes. I mean, I don't mind cutting down on drinking and clubbing when I start work. But just not now, my heart is still playful.

Then I don't know why... I am not the birthday girl that night and everyone started to be interested in my life stories. They started to bombard with questions like whether I am still together with my bf? How's the relationship? How's everything? Still keep in touch? How do I feel having a long distance relationship? blah blah blah.... Fuck! I hate people asking me about my relationship and I certainly do not want to answer all those questions!

So, I started to become more and more emo and drank a lot, drunk like hell. I wanted to join my other friends at Metro that night but I didn't go in the end coz I know that I would burst out crying at Metro if I drank a little bit more. So, I ended up crawling back home, called a friend and cried to him.

I wanted to call my babe, but I know that she would have slept like a pig and didn't wanna call her. I was soooooooooooo fucking desperate to talk to someone and realized that that someone is not asleep yet and will be willing to listen to my useless crap emo shits. Thanks heaps Jirou!

So......

No more fucking emo-ness now!!! I hate that feelings!

the way i am

2008-04-03T15:26:00.003+08:00

On one rainy day, my hardcore friends told me that I don't behave like a girl. I am not feminine enough. My attitude and behaviour is like a guy. I watch soccer with them. I drink a lot with them. I swear like hell. They said that if I go on like that, no other guys will like me. Well, should I blame them or shouldn't I blame them?

First, I must explain that my hardcore group of friends consist of around 10 to 15 guys. If they bring their gfs out, it will be another 2 or 3 girls maybe? They are hardcore because they go to the clubs that I love, they drink a lot which I like, they smoke which I like, they are easy-going which I like, they go rave which I love the most, they listen to progressive and hardstyle trance which I like, they do evil things which I like, etc. So, they are my hardcore gang. No matter when, where, who and what happen, they will always be there!

Second, my 'softcore' group of friends are mostly female. They prefer to go RnB clubs which is not really my favourite. I don't mind going there once in awhile, but not all the time. These friends are more guai.... But I still love to mix with them because I do need some girlie talks sometimes. I like to go shopping with them, I like to gossip with them, I like talking about guys with them, I like having lunch and dinner with them, I like going to Uni with them, I like talking cock and shit with them, I like having a few drinks with them in a not-so-hardcore-way in the club, etc. Then again, no matter when, where, who and what happen, they will always be there!

I wanna have the best of both worlds! ^_^ So, let's go back to the topic of me being not so feminine. I think because I spend most of my time with my hardcore friends, I tend to talk like them and sometimes I do things like them. They hit me really hard when our favourite soccer team score a goal. They smack my arm really hard when they are too excited talking about stuff. They called me "bro" without them realizing it. They swear at me when I give them shit, I swear at them when they give me shit. I am their wing woman. I eat as much as them. I smoke as much as them. I look at girls together with them~~~~~~ Fuck!!!!!!!!! Now I feel like I am a guy!

Well, like they said before if there are guys who like me and in the end think that I am not feminine enough, the guys decided not to be with me. Then I don't see a point of getting together coz no one is perfect in this world. And I do not like people who are too judgmental. For me, if you are a nice person, helpful, easy-going and I can get along well, I don't give a fuck what you are doing and who you are, you will be my friend. =)

I told my friends that there are guys out there who will accept the way I am and they will love me for who I am. So, if I forced myself to change to a person they like, it would be a fake Sophia. We will be walking on our separate ways in the end. In conclusion, I love the way I am.

memper-siasui-kan sendiri

2008-04-02T23:40:00.004+08:00

I have never felt so embarrassing in my life!!! This Korean guy, Galeb was interested in viewing the extra room I have, so Jacque and I went to Kardinya to pick him up. So, he came here and viewed the house, he looked positive and I hope that he wants that room!!! Then we had to send him back to Kardinya, while walking out of the house, I told Jacque in Mandarin that,

"Eh, this guy not bad mah."

So.... when we were in the car, suddenly he asked both of us whether we know how to speak Mandarin? Little did I know that I said the phrase before, I happily answered him that yes, we know how to speak Mandarin. Surprisingly he can speak Mandarin fluently for a Korean!!!! We were shocked!!! O_o''''' Then only he told us that his father is a Korean and his mother is a Chinese. No wonder lah.

After dropping him off, Jacque asked me,

"Eh, did you speak Mandarin to me just now?"

"No. Why?"

"I think you did leh!"

"Hmm... Oh yeah hor... Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

So, next time do not anyhow use a common language to talk about people. Maybe I should speak in dialects next time!

Anyway, I hope that he didn't hear anything despite that he was standing quite close to me when I said that he is not bad." But "not bad" may means a lot of things like his personality is good, first impression is good... not necessary has to be his look mah! Right? My salted fish asked me to stop consoling myself. I happy leh. Cannot meh? =p

house warming... a really warm one indeed!!!

2008-03-31T23:50:00.007+08:00

I had a hardcore weekends last week and was busy since Friday until today!!! Damn! I haven't even study for Corporate Finance! I'm dead! But.... no regrets coz I had a lot of fun for the past few days!

So, everyone cam-whoring and babe and I spent around 2 hours getting ready while all the guys dozing off at the living room. Babe was so man-chang that night, she kept swearing like no tomorrow. When she was dressing up, putting on make-up, looking at the mirror... the "fuck" word just kept coming out! LoL! Salted fish... u looked great that night!!! I see liao also wanna fuck you big time! Hahaha...

I had a lot of fun at Metros. Although I didn't manage to walk around and drink with some other friends, but I was killed by other friend the minute I saw him! Scary~~~~ Moreover, I was busy with something else the whole night... Hohoho....

Why do I have to look so ugly when I am drunk??!!!! Damn! It's an Asian curse man!!! I really envy those people who's faces don't turn red when they consume alcohol! For me, half a bottle of beer, I am like a tomato! People called me red wine, people called me tomato... WTH!

Mambo for this semester is fun!!!! Then Saturday I was rushing here and there with friends to buy food and bbq stove for my house warming for that night. Spent so much money again!!! I think almost everyone turned up for my house warming. You guys should look at those cars that parked outside my house... it was crazy!!!! I tried to take the pics but it was sooooooo dark!

What a waste that I didn't manage to take a few pics for the house warming. Especially videos of people taking beer funnel would be a good one! Arrrgghhh... I am so fucking regret now. I was holding my digicam the whole night then half way through I couldn't remember where I put it. I was too drunk to take any pictures.

I was too drunk to play my fave mahjung. I was too drunk to continue partying. I was too drunk to keep my friends companied. Sianz!!! I wanted to play games and drink hard liquor after the beer funnel shit. I think lah... actually I wasn't that drunk that night coz I didn't even feel like puking. I think that few cones of shit killed me deeply! I shouldn't have huff puff too much! ^^

Oh well... everyone had a lot of fun that night! I should do the same thing for my birthday! Hehehehe... Since I have a new bbq set, then must fully make used of it! Muahahaha...

big time pokkai-ness

2008-03-26T02:04:00.002+09:00

Moolah that my dad sent to me a month ago, dropped down from 10k to 4k. You guys must be thinking that I spent too much money on shopping huh? The answer is a fucking NO!!! I spent all the money on this new rental house. Sob! I have never been so sad in my life, this is worse than buying a pair of shoes or clothes that you feel regret after buying them.

Ever since I have moved into this new house, money keeps going out due to buying new stuff to fill up the space. It's been close to a month and I haven't even find the other two housemates for the house. I have been paying $380 a week for 4 weeks now, nearly can buy my dream bag liao! Sianz!!!! I have to ask my cafe manager to give me more shifts in order for me to cover my rent, although I can't really cover the rent from my pay as I am only allowed to work for 20 hours a week! Damn! But better than nothing!

$700 went to removal fees, $2500 went to the house bond... The worst thing is not many people who are willing to rent an empty room, I ended up paying three rooms myself. Finally I have decided to make all the rooms fully furnished with computer desks and beds. Fucking hell!!! My heart.... has been aching since this afternoon after spending close to $600 on those furnitures. Especially this is not my fucking house, the idea of me buying furnitures so that I am able to rent out the rooms is kinda stupid after all. Well, at least I get to have the master bedroom and a new queen size bed! Hahaha...

My workmate made me feel so guilty by saying that "Ohhhh, your father works so hard in Malaysia everyday, then the daughter is happily sleeping on a comfy queen size bed every night!" That put me down again. My head is constantly thinking about the rent, the housemates, the furnitures, and other stuff. My head is gonna explode! Especially now I have been working 6 days a week and have to attend classes one day which means that I don't really have time for myself. Me is tired! Me is dying!

Then another friend said "You should quit clubbing and smoking. So that you don't have to waste so much money on alcohol and ciggies. Imagine every time when you go clubbing, you spend around $100. One month is $400. You could have covered part of your rent!!!" Hmmmm... I know, socializing and outside entertainments kill the dompet. My dad is gonna fucking kill me big time if he knows that I spent so much money here.

Sometimes I feel like just go back to Malaysia for good so that I don't have to worry about food, transportation, accommodation, money, etc. Everything is prepared nicely there, just need to get a stable job and be a princess over there! Hmmm... is that the life I am looking for?