Last time I always like trance music coz it's softer and very euphoric, especially when you are in your own world, you really wanna just be in there and enjoy the music. But now, I LOVE hardstyle and hard trance. They have more hard bass and the beat is stronger which make you feel like dancing the whole night, non-stop!
I don't mind if the club or rave starts to play trance at the beginning, because I need to warm up in a smooth music. Then when I get to the mood, this is the time when hardstyle and hard trance should be played! Coz I can dance all night or should I say 2 to 3 hours non-stop. Then I will be drinking my redbull and water, sucking my lollies, inhaling my inhaler, dancing with my glowsticks.... Aw~~~~ heaven!!!!! Cloud 9 effect! Shiok betul!!!!
There was once I went to an event called Godskitchen last year. I was dancing and walking around from 11.30pm till 6am non-stop. I didn't even sit down at all! Coz it was too good!!! But I hate it when I got smacked up really hard that I had to sit on a chair for the whole night. I remember I went to White Party and I got so smacked up that I sat on the chair the whole night, right in the middle of the bar overlooking the stage! The whole atmosphere is so good that I was in my own world that time.
Although I did force myself to stand up and dance but I just couldn't help it. Every time when I wanna stand up and dance, for less than 5 mins, I would automatically take a sit again. Then I would just look at the stage, when the DJ is spinning, the colorful lights flashing here and there, my eyes would just follow the lights making me wanna fly!! It's like a bug chasing after the light! Woo Hoo~~~~!!!!
I think I enjoy both speedy and smacky atmosphere, but would prefer to have a speedy one. Smacky mood will just make the time goes slower and the whole night you will just sit there doing nothing looking at people. I always feel regret if I have a smacky mood that night coz I feel like I have wasted my time and money to sit there there whole fucking night. Speedy mood makes the time passes by so fast and you dance all night and there's a satisfaction there that I have done something.
I am looking forward to Armin Van Buuren this June! Woo hoo!!!! yes!!! I am fucking going to AVB!!!!! Thanks to a few friends who owed me money, they decided to combine the money together to buy me that tickets! Hahaha.... fucking hell!!!! But I love them so much still!!! They helped me to celebrate my single-hood. Said dun worry, you always have us the bros in the ghetto for ya. *Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm......*
And my babe and boss who also helped me to celebrate my single-hood, brought me to have dinner at Ipoh even though my babe's kaki is a bit cacat. I really appreciate that! Muaks you and ah cheam long time! Hugs!!!!! Then they come to my house and we 'batu-ed' the whole night! I just couldn't stop laughing at my babe's 'batu-ed' face! Muahahahahahhaha......
Fuck! I think last time I should study something related to DJ-ing and music!!! Then I will get to travel around the world for any rave events! That's why last time I studied Public Relations because we get to travel around if we are in-charge of HUGE international events. How cool is that? I don't think my dreams will ever be fulfilled! Office life, working 9 to 5, sitting in front of the comp.... this kinda life sucks big time man!!!!!!!
So, the whole world knows that I have ended the relationship with my bf. Thanks to Facebook! I feel like there's no privacy on Facebook, at all! I have been receiving messages on MSN, on Facebook and mobile phones asking me whether I am fine. Well, I guess I will be fine after a few more days. Thanks heaps!
But I received a very sarcastic message on Facebook from this young guy who I used to go out with.
"After all this while u guys broke up or its just for show?"
Me is so fucking pissed off when I read this message! Fuck you, **!!!! I can't believe that there are people in this world who have nothing better to do. Boliaoz. Maybe I hurt him too much last time! Hahaha... Shame on you, asshole!
This is what I love, and can't stop lovin'. Get wasted at partys, from 9 till 7 in the morning. I live for the music, rollin' blunts, feelin' high, gettin' loaded - or take some pills and go to La La Land. Spendin' all my money on dope and extreme high price tickets. But in the end, it's all worth it. I like to live in my own world. Fuck regular life! Fuck the '9-to-5' job! I'm totally enjoyin' every moment, every hour, every minute. Thats what I do at fridays and saturdays. Why should I take life so seriously? I just want to do, what I like to do! Be far from reality, 'cause I can't stand society! It's my own world, I just want to hear the music.
I think the whole system fucking sucks. everybody's working their fucking ass up during the week, getting totally fucking stressed out - So what's wrong, and what's right? I live for the weekend, I live for hardstyles, I live for hardstyle baby!
Come on! Let's go!
I love hardstyle!!!! So much!!!! Can't wait for AVB in June! Woo Hoo!!!
sOphia.G
12 hours, 2 different parties, 3 rounds of boozing and highness
Last night was a crazy night... came back from work, prepared and then went to Gavin's house for his birthday party at around 7.30pm. Then everyone went crazy with all the alcohol that we had to go out and buy more boozes! 2 cartons of beer, 5 bottles of hard liquor... Gosh! That was crazy! So we went out and bought two more hard liquor and in the end, finished as well!
Gavin and Uzi's Birthday Party @ Garden Mews
They were all drunk and high until they became a bit mad that I wanted to leave earlier to another birthday party. Took my phone and called Jacque.... sigh~~~ Kenneth was holding my digital camera the whole night so that I couldn't leave the party. I decided to stay a little while and left at 11.15pm.
Then headed to Northbridge for William's birthday party and I had a lot of fun there as well. My babe kept saying that I didn't drink, but I remember I drank like 5 fucking shots and 2 beers there! That was drinking babe!!!!!!! You sudah blind! You were so drunk that you didn't even realized that Sam kept pouring drinks for me! Hahahah... But I could drink a few more lah, I was a bit floating when I was singing.
William's Birthday Party @ Hits Studio
After that, I think I left Northbridge at around 3.30am to 4am. Then I headed down to Gavin's house and there were only 6 of us left! Muahahaha... Then we continue to party again until 7.30am. Yawn~~~~~~~ Fun night!!! But I am feeling really tired! ^_^
look on the brighter side of things. i bet god sent u these problems as a reality check and to test whether u are capable of conquering all these unexpected and sudden events that drive u mad.
if u can, ur a hero. my hero for sure!
i feel pathetic that there is so much i can do, and that ur situation make me kepala pusing to the max, and its not even my fuggin problem! HAHAHAH.. i never ever experienced shit like this before, but i have with u. lol
get drunk tmr night with me babe. no excuses, if u cant drive, ill order u a taxi.. and make sure that the taxi man is a humsup one to ur delights!
I don't understand why everything is falling apart during my pokkai period...
My printer has gone crazy that sometimes it prints, sometimes it doesn't.
My computer's hard disk has gone crazy too!!! All the drives in the computer just disappeared!! What the fuck??!! Sometimes when I restart the computer, they were all there but after awhile they went missing! My friend said that my hard disk is 'spoiling', so I better get a new hard disk before I reformat my computer! (But I don't wanna reformat my comp!!!!!! Darrel installed so many goodie stuff for me!!!! Plus, I don't wanna buy a new hard disk... no $$)
My thyroid yearly checkup is due now, but I think I have to postpone it.
My car is due for service, I think I have to postpone it.
I need to check my teeth, I think I have to postpone it.
The cafe at uni is cutting everyone's shifts because they wanna cut cost! Fucking hell!!
I can only work for 20 hours a week! Sob! I wanna work for more hours!
Housemate is moving out. Have to start paying expensive rent again!
I wanna go to AVB event!!!! Tickets all sold out! Although there are tickets around but those MFCBCs are re-selling the tickets at a higher price! Fuck you all!
I failed my Finance mid-semester test!
Gosh!!! I am so pathetic! But I am happy that:
My furnitures will be delivered to me this morning! I don't have to sleep on the floor anymore! Yay!!!
Someone is moving to my house for a few days. At least, better than nothing!
Two birthday parties this Saturday!
Having one week break next week, I can work more hours! Woo Hoo!!!
This afternoon I accidentally gave Jacque the wrong bank account number, until now then I realize that! So, now we have to wait for 5 to 8 days to see whether the money is being transfered to another account. If yes, then my babe has to file a dispute. I am so sorry!!!!!!!!
Then my Japanese housemate is moving out next week because she wants to travel around Australia. Which means... I am doomed!!!! Coz I am paying two rooms now and once she moves out next week, I have to pay for three rooms! What the hell!!! This house is causing me a lot of money!!! I can't afford to pay for three rooms again! How? How? How?! I am in the panic stage now that I really wanna kill myself at this point of time!
I just went to my friend's birthday last Saturday, had a blast and enjoyed myself to the max. This Saturday two more friends' birthday parties, I don't know which one to go to first! Sianz ah!!!!!!! Both also important, both also I want to go! Damn, I will just plan first! Money again... sianz!!!! I hate myself so much!
if i ever gave u to manage my funds, i think 1) ill become pokkai because u slowly transfer my money into ur own a/c or 2) u misplace my funds. lol
kidding lah beb.
i did a small calculation for u today in the car when i was talking to will abt ur situation. even i am not the one involved, but i fucking think so much for u ! this is the first time i stress myself out for somebody else.
WHAT THE FUCK! hahaha >_<
so anyway, i calculated, and you SHOULD actually have 3k left! inclusive of ur pay from the 2 sources.
easiest way to obtain quick cash? sell ur ass baby :)
i know where did my fund go to liao! fuck! i din plan ahead@ tats why!!! sianz to the max!!! i will tell u next time when i see u!!! thanks for caring!!! sob! im so touched!!!
Seriously, I have never been so pokkai in my life. I think these two months I have been spending money 'uncontrollably' without me knowing that I have less that $100 in my bank. Yeap! Fucking less that $100 in the bank. I was shocked when I checked my bank account last night. I didn't wanna call my dad to ask for more money because he just gave me 10k in February. After two months, I left $100.
Moreover, I am working part-time and there are money coming in every week. That means I spent all my working money too! Sianz! I didn't even buy any bags or anything! Fucking hell!!! But I think I spent too much on the rent especially when I had to pay $380 a week for the first 4 weeks.
Another bad news is... the new housemate is moving out soon because she wanna travel around Australia and she will be moving out in two weeks time. CB!!!!!! I am so fucking stressed now. I have to eat, Lexx has to eat, Hon Hon also needs to eat.... How leh?? Sianz. I have no mood to study at all, I have spent the whole day thinking and calculating the money. I wish that I can work more hours at the cafe but I can only work 20 hours a week! Sob to the max!!!
Maybe I am not qualified to become an accountant coz I can't even handle my own money!!! Damn you moolah! I hate you so much yet I'm loving you long time too! =) Arrgghh... fuck me!!!!
i think the biggest reason for u being all emo like is that ur hormones could be changing. i heard from my aunt that at certain ages in life, our hormones play up.
another reason could be that u dont rest enough and because of that u are not stable?
i think the biggest reason for u being all emo like is that ur hormones could be changing. i heard from my aunt that at certain ages in life, our hormones play up.
another reason could be that u dont rest enough and because of that u are not stable?
Last Saturday, I went to a really emo birthday party. I was feeling depressed for the past few days, by going to the birthday made me even more depressed and emo. Even though I had a few friends that I don't wanna see there and they kept asking me things that I don't feel like answering, but I must admit that I had fun lah! Hahahaha... Maybe because of the booze!
They have been my friends since the first year I came to Perth but I don't really mix with them too much because they are working full time now. All they wanna do during weekends are to rest at home and we only hang out when someone is having birthday.
Then one of them started to ask:
P: Eh Sophia, you never feel tired one hor? S: Tired of what? P: Clubbing and drinking lah. Every time also see you club and drink. All of us have retired and you are still the only one clubbing away like no tomorrow. S: Eh, I cut down a lot already k. At least I don't go clubbing every Saturday now, only once in awhile. P: I think none of us here can challenge you, no one can beat your stamina.
Hmmm... I do feel tired most of the times. I do need a lot of rest and sleep. But somehow I just don't feel like resting too much sometimes. I mean, I don't mind cutting down on drinking and clubbing when I start work. But just not now, my heart is still playful.
Then I don't know why... I am not the birthday girl that night and everyone started to be interested in my life stories. They started to bombard with questions like whether I am still together with my bf? How's the relationship? How's everything? Still keep in touch? How do I feel having a long distance relationship? blah blah blah.... Fuck! I hate people asking me about my relationship and I certainly do not want to answer all those questions!
So, I started to become more and more emo and drank a lot, drunk like hell. I wanted to join my other friends at Metro that night but I didn't go in the end coz I know that I would burst out crying at Metro if I drank a little bit more. So, I ended up crawling back home, called a friend and cried to him.
I wanted to call my babe, but I know that she would have slept like a pig and didn't wanna call her. I was soooooooooooo fucking desperate to talk to someone and realized that that someone is not asleep yet and will be willing to listen to my useless crap emo shits. Thanks heaps Jirou!
So......
No more fucking emo-ness now!!! I hate that feelings!
Bebz, please don't change! We love the way you are. There's no point changing for someone who doesn't love you for the way you are. You are an easy-going person with a open heart, I am sure a lot of people treasure you a lot. You are a gem!
On one rainy day, my hardcore friends told me that I don't behave like a girl. I am not feminine enough. My attitude and behaviour is like a guy. I watch soccer with them. I drink a lot with them. I swear like hell. They said that if I go on like that, no other guys will like me. Well, should I blame them or shouldn't I blame them?
First, I must explain that my hardcore group of friends consist of around 10 to 15 guys. If they bring their gfs out, it will be another 2 or 3 girls maybe? They are hardcore because they go to the clubs that I love, they drink a lot which I like, they smoke which I like, they are easy-going which I like, they go rave which I love the most, they listen to progressive and hardstyle trance which I like, they do evil things which I like, etc. So, they are my hardcore gang. No matter when, where, who and what happen, they will always be there!
Second, my 'softcore' group of friends are mostly female. They prefer to go RnB clubs which is not really my favourite. I don't mind going there once in awhile, but not all the time. These friends are more guai.... But I still love to mix with them because I do need some girlie talks sometimes. I like to go shopping with them, I like to gossip with them, I like talking about guys with them, I like having lunch and dinner with them, I like going to Uni with them, I like talking cock and shit with them, I like having a few drinks with them in a not-so-hardcore-way in the club, etc. Then again, no matter when, where, who and what happen, they will always be there!
I wanna have the best of both worlds! ^_^ So, let's go back to the topic of me being not so feminine. I think because I spend most of my time with my hardcore friends, I tend to talk like them and sometimes I do things like them. They hit me really hard when our favourite soccer team score a goal. They smack my arm really hard when they are too excited talking about stuff. They called me "bro" without them realizing it. They swear at me when I give them shit, I swear at them when they give me shit. I am their wing woman. I eat as much as them. I smoke as much as them. I look at girls together with them~~~~~~ Fuck!!!!!!!!! Now I feel like I am a guy!
Well, like they said before if there are guys who like me and in the end think that I am not feminine enough, the guys decided not to be with me. Then I don't see a point of getting together coz no one is perfect in this world. And I do not like people who are too judgmental. For me, if you are a nice person, helpful, easy-going and I can get along well, I don't give a fuck what you are doing and who you are, you will be my friend. =)
I told my friends that there are guys out there who will accept the way I am and they will love me for who I am. So, if I forced myself to change to a person they like, it would be a fake Sophia. We will be walking on our separate ways in the end. In conclusion, I love the way I am.
I have never felt so embarrassing in my life!!! This Korean guy, Galeb was interested in viewing the extra room I have, so Jacque and I went to Kardinya to pick him up. So, he came here and viewed the house, he looked positive and I hope that he wants that room!!! Then we had to send him back to Kardinya, while walking out of the house, I told Jacque in Mandarin that,
"Eh, this guy not bad mah."
So.... when we were in the car, suddenly he asked both of us whether we know how to speak Mandarin? Little did I know that I said the phrase before, I happily answered him that yes, we know how to speak Mandarin. Surprisingly he can speak Mandarin fluently for a Korean!!!! We were shocked!!! O_o''''' Then only he told us that his father is a Korean and his mother is a Chinese. No wonder lah.
So, next time do not anyhow use a common language to talk about people. Maybe I should speak in dialects next time!
Anyway, I hope that he didn't hear anything despite that he was standing quite close to me when I said that he is not bad." But "not bad" may means a lot of things like his personality is good, first impression is good... not necessary has to be his look mah! Right? My salted fish asked me to stop consoling myself. I happy leh. Cannot meh? =p
sOphia.G
About Me
Sophia Goh.
Malaysia + Singapore
Born in the 80's
Floats like a butterfly. Stings like a bee.
I'm a little neurotic. I believe balance is everything. Illusion is a better depiction of reality. I am a bit short-circuit and have 18++ literacy.
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Budget Trip with Best Buddies Dear's P.O.P Dear's 6th month in N.S Dear's 12th month in N.S Dear's 18th month in N.S Dear's O.R.D Finish University Get my PR Hardcore shopping Hong Kong IELTS Band 7
Japan Job in Singapore
Korea Macau
Maldives Malaysia for holidays New Canon Digital Camera
Own a house
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San Francisco
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Saturday, April 26, 2008 
3:58:00 PM 
sOphia.G
