Sianz... Haven't even book removal and storage. If I can't get the house, then I am doomed!!!! This is worse than failing a unit at Uni! At least when you have the money, you paid, you can repeat that uni. In this case, got a lot of fucking money also can't get the house you want. Life sucks big time!
I left one more day!!! One more day and I am out of this house. I don't know whether those workers will come on time to do up the house? Hmmm... Should I just continue to stay here until I get a house? Sigh~~~ So many things to worry about. Somehow I have a feeling that everything won't go on smoothly.
But of coz, I hope that I will be able to get the house on Saturday! That stupid agent said that she only needs one day to call me back! What a fucking liar! Called her again and she said the owner hasn't give her any answer yet! What is the fucking owner thinking about? Just let me rent the place!!! Heheheh... I hope no one sends in any applications. I hope no one calls up to view the house. I hope no one is interested in that house.
Sahaja ku berkata mungkin yang terakhir kalinya Sudahlah lepaskan semua kuyakin inilah waktunya Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali Rasa yang ku tinggal mati Seperti hari kemarin saat semua di sini
Dan bila hatimu termenung bangun dari mimpi-mimpimu [Mmm] Membuka hatimu yang dulu cerita saat bersamaku Mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi Mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali Rasa yang kutinggal mati Seperti hari kemarin saat semua di sini
Dan mungkin bila nanti kita kan bertemu lagi Satu pintaku jangan kau coba tanyakan kembali Rasa yang kutinggal mati Seperti hari kemarin saat semua di sini
Tak usah kau tanyakan lagi simpan untukmu sendiri Semua sesal yang kau cari semua rasa yang kau beri
sOphia.G
necessity
Thursday, February 21, 2008 12:46:00 AM
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microwaves are necessitys when u finally dont have one !
and i still hate the fact that i did not go to metros ! fuck.
Ever since Darrel brought back the microwave to Singapore, my life is doomed!!!!! I didn't know that microwave is so fucking important! Every time when I buy back my food, I don't know how to heat them up. Sianz. I have been eating cold food for days now. The worst thing is... I have kept all my pots.
I think the only way to heat up my food now is to put everything into the oven and heat them up, which will take around 15 to 30 minutes. No more 2 minutes then DING... food is ready. Sigh~~~~~
The house that I wanna apply.... is no longer available. Fuck! I am so regret and fucking blaming myself now. I wanted to hand in my application form last week but I took my own sweet time to see other houses and thinking that I might find a better one. Then yesterday when I finally decided to submit the application form, it's gone!
Sianz. I am so regret having a dog now. I'm serious! Sometimes, I just wanna just throw my dog at the roadside or just let him runs out then I just pretend that I have lost a dog and he will never come back again!
sOphia.G
part-time
Wednesday, February 20, 2008 1:21:00 AM
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Yatta!!! I have passed my Auditing!!!! Me is so happy! Didn't know that I will pass because I didn't really know how to do and I missed one question. Anyway, don't wanna think about it now! I am so glad that I am a part-time student now, so that I can work more since I have to pay rent soon! Sob!!!!
The best thing is... most of my classes are in the afternoon! My shifts at the cafe are late in the afternoon too! Muahaha... More time to sleep! Called my dad, asked for money, everything is going on smoothly. But I feel kinda bad for my dad as I am still asking money from him, I have to fucking graduate this semester!!!! Or else, bye bye Australia, will be deported back to Malaysia! Sigh...
I have also realised that there are more and more kinapa in Malaysia who like to camwhore and act cute.
How I hope I will be 21 forever.
Act cute is the new black! But if my bf ever dare to camwhore so cutely, I will slaughter him! Because it looks disgusting especially you are a guy or you need tongkat ali to stand! :)
since u said tat act cute is the new black then u let ur ah boy do it lah! i know u like it a lot one!!! yeah loh, u imagine us doing those cute cute thing... very scary rite? hahaha... but gals still acceptable loh.
for me, i wnana be young forever also!!! FOREVER YOUNG, I WAANNA BE FOREVER YOUNG!!! but hor... i wanna be 23 yrs old forever. coz not too old and not too young, just nice. and i look better that time! muahahahahhaha.... peak season betul!
eh pls lah, tongkat ali to stand up is ah pek liao. i seriously think ah pek also have the rights to act cute!!!! imagine ur grandpa trying to act cute with u when u wanna take his pics... aw~~~~~ isnt he cute??!!
actually guys not that bad lah. but when it comes to those girls who seriously take cam whoring like a sport, it shits me to death. esp those girls who are not even pretty and pose pose their mcm chicken. sien. lol
ill show you a few when i can overcome the fear of seeing those disgusting and irritating pics.
omg, speaking of which.. i have a mega hate for those chics who like to speak cute cute lingo. its so f'd loh. you and i always say loh, lah, meh, bah. etc. but we use this in the right manner for example: cannot like the one bah, yahh mehhh, fuck lohhh.
these chics differ, for example: ohh koko so cute cute nerhx!!! why like that gehx, so ker ai nerhx!
i cant exactly give a real example because i'm seriously affected by this annoying lingo. lol. but im sure u get the point. super sien when i see it.
and somehow, when i came to the last part of you saying that you just want to laugh hard and say --- what the fuck, i can really hear that tone of your voice .lol
yeah, i know wat u mean when u said those xiao mei mei likes to act cute all those by lingos/// maybe becoz they are still young and still can do all this bah! like now im so fucking old now, of coz cant do all this lah! hehehe...
(Eyes have been angrily 'scribbled' by me to protect their identities.) ^^
While I was procrastinating from studying, I went to my cousin's Friendster to read his blog then I accidentally came across a few of his friends leaving messages on his blog. So, I went on and clicked on some of their Friendster profile and I really don't know I should laugh at them or what...
I realized that nowadays a lot of young guys who are around 16 to 20 like to cam-whore and they like to take those cute-sy pics with pouty lips, stick the tongue out, make the eyes look bigger, lips look smaller, with the peace sign so close to their face so that the whole fucking picture looks cute! I don't really mind if a girl cam-whoring away with those pounty lips... But imagine guys who do that???!!! Ewwwwww.....
Actually I must clarify that I don't really care if the guy is cam-whoring away just as long as they don't act cute! It's like trying too hard loh!!!! A normal masculine or normal way of taking pictures of guys are more preferred please! Every time when I look at these cute-sy pictures of those xiao di di... I just wanna end up laughing so hard and say ---- what the fuck?
sOphia.G
retro siao
Saturday, February 09, 2008 10:49:00 PM
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Retro songs are for old people. You are old, admit it!
Don't know why suddenly I am into retro music again!!! I think every once in awhile I will listen to all the retro songs on my computer. I have burned two CDs to listen in my car! Hahahaha... Now it makes me feel like going to Mambo at Zouk! I don't understand why those Mambo events that they had in Perth had changed to playing RnB!!!! This is so fucked up!!!!
I went to a Mambo Jambo event that held by a few universities at Metro and was disappointed that they never play retro songs! Maybe only 3 to 4 songs throughout the whole night. The rest will be RnB! Then why wanna name the event Mambo Jambo? Damn kuku! If I have any friends who can spin retro music for me, then I might consider having a retro birthday party this year! Hahaha... then everyone must wear retro clothes! Muahahah...
Damn! My procrastination hits again! Me is so lazy to study!
It's always easy to treat people nice by saying those words like take care, eat more, this and that. But if you think it through, you don't need someone who is so unstable that he cares for you sometimes, then suddenly he doesn't care for you.
Personally, I think that if the guy loves you a lot, he will shower you with love without being scared of anything. Seriously Sophia, this guy doesn't suit you at all. You will definitely find someone better than him.
Why want to put yourself through all this shit hole for so long because of someone who is not worth it at all? I know you need some time to adjust to everything. But it's not good to hold on to something that you know it won't last. Why want to waste each others time?
Take some time to be single and think about what you want in life, what kind of guys you like and more. If he doesn't want to make the first move, then why don't you make the first move?
Like I said before, don't think too much for the time being, just concentrate on your studies. I am worried about you because you think too much over there and it looks like you are not studying at all.
Bebz... cheer up a bit! Go study, finish your degree, get your fucking PR, find a nice guy, get married and fucking come back to Malaysia! kekekeke.......... I still want you to come back to Malaysia!
Good luck in your exams, your house hunting, your bf hunting, your studies, blah blah blah. Best of everything in 2008 lah.
i know lah, i also dun wanna give up on him. i know myself tat i will never give up on him... it's just tat every time when i think tat i am the one who has to make the first move for everything, i tend to get sianz of doing all tat. coz he is a guy mah, why cant he come and hold my hand, or hug me, or watever thing with me first leh?
i just feel sad thinking abt all this lajh. like after so long din see each other, still not passionate meh. dun u think it's a bit weird ah? if i din see my gf for a fucking long time... sure passionate kao kao with her liao lah!!!! then need to wait until when leh? die already then passionate meh! kaoz!
i know he is not a bad person lah maybe he doesnt know how to show and express himself properly withn me. i know lah, u guys sure give me shit abt me giving excuses to myself to make me feel good. i dun care liao lah. feel good then good loh. im always making myself feel good wat! sianz... im going insane. my head thinks too much abt useless thing!
i cant even study!!!!!!! yet im kan cheong abt my exams on monday!!!
ps: when i quit smoking l;iao, make sure u treat me one big meal when i go back msia! smoking is not to berlagak.... is to.... i also dunno for wat! hahahahahahaha
Like I said before, all the best in everything and hope that you will never feel regret of the decisions that you have made. Friends can only do this much. Other things are up to you to handle.
I hope that God will grant you the Serenity to accept the things you cannot change, the Courage to change the things you can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.
Once you quit smoking, let me know as soon as possible. If you mange to quit during chinese new year period, I will feel happier because I can set up fireworks for you. Oh, I am such a good friend for you!
well, i really need the wisdom to know the difference!!!! the fact is.. my name huey means wisdom in chinese, then sophia means wisdom also. i think i have too many wisdom names until become stupid liao!!! sianz! =)by the way, u are such a good friend! a good sarcastic cb poh! but u know i still love u rite? hehehhe
I haven't been smoking for more than 24 hours now. I remember that the last stick of ciggy that I smoked was at around 9.30pm yesterday! Now his parents are here, I can't smoke at home, I can't smoke when I go out with them, I can't smoke just as long as they are with me!!!! I can't wait!!! I really need to take a puff!!!! I have been thinking about having a puff the whole day and it's killing me!!!!
Maybe I will go to Curtin's library to study tomorrow in order for me to smoke! Muahahaha.... Since I can't study in peace at home, then might as well go somewhere to study. I woke up early today just because I wanna start studying for my Auditing. The busy day began with his father accidentally opened the front door and Lexx ran away. I spent around 30 minutes to bring Lexx back. Then I had to help his father to jump start the car just because he was still sleeping, I had to sweep the garage because there were poos all over the floor.
Then I had to send his mother to do grocery and to buy back our lunch because his car is not working. After lunch I had to send him to auto shop to buy a battery charger. When I reached home preparing to study, his mother came to my room and kept talking to me. Well, I am not a mean person, so I did entertain his mother for awhile.
I didn't get to celebrate Chinese New Year in Malaysia this and last year, no ang paos for last year. BUT.... I have two ang paos for this year! Me is so happy! Hahahhaa.... Of coz, his parents gave it to me. I am so happy really! So, I am not gonna treat them mean! ^^ Then tonight his father brought us out to Northbridge for dinner, we ordered a lot of nice food!
While we were eating, he treated me very good and caring. He kept filling my bowl with food and said, "eat more, you have worked hard and lost a lot of weights, must eat more k?" Me is so touched! I don't think I can do it! Damn!!!!!! How? I am so fucking confused now! Before that I thought that everything would be easy for me. But now.... Why???!!!! Why does he always wanna make me so confused and uncertain about so many things?
Fuck it! Don't wanna think too much. Tomorrow I am 100% going out to uni to smoke study!
sOphia.G
Happy Chinese New Year
Thursday, February 07, 2008 11:06:00 PM
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Happy Chinese New Year to all of you!!! Hope that it will be a good and prosperity year for everyone! I can't believe that I had instant noodle for lunch and maccas for dinner on the first day of chinese new year!!!! Sob~~~~ Me is so sad! Moreover, I didn't even wear new clothes today! Busy like hell cleaning up the house and went for house viewing!
KB and his parents are coming to Perth later tonight to pack all the things at this house. At first I thought he is not coming back to Perth but last minute he told me that he is coming back. Now I am a bit kan cheong.... sigh~~~~ I hate this kind of feelings. I dunno whether I should be happy or not.
I called back to Malaysia this afternoon, talked to my parents, sister and brothers, my aunts... suddenly felt so sad that I nearly cry. Whenever they asked me to take care, whenever they said that they miss me, whenever they asked me whether I am doing good here.... I just feel like telling them that "No, I don't think I am doing good here. I wanna go back." I just wanna cry and tell them that how much I miss Malaysia. But... it's not good to cry on cny!!! Me is pantang betul!
I think all of them must have known that I really miss home from my tone gua... Or else, why would they asked me again and again whether I am doing good here????????? Every time when I told them that I am doing good here, they will ask back, "You sure?" Sigh... Last year didn't spend my cny in Malaysia, this year also the same thing. Diu!
But luckily I went out for reunion dinner with Jindi that gang, then drop by Windi's house for drinking. Didn't drink much though... I think we don't have the mood to do anything here since there's no chinese atmosphere here. I wanna go back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!! Nowadays the weather is damn fucking hot! I am melting away!!! I miss Malaysia so much, at least it's not that hot and humid in Malaysia! I don't have to go to the beach for a sun tan now, I can just get my tan when I am driving, when I am working, when I am walking! Damn! I sweat from day to night! I miss winter so much........
Been having sleepless nights, thinking too much about everything. I think at this stage, my life is like... "Sophx's life experiences with the lot!" Everything comes at the same time and I am really going insane! For this week alone, I have to work, I have to study for my final exams, I have to pack my stuff, I have to look for new house listings, I have to go for house inspections, I have to make a few phone calls to those real estate agents, I have to think of a suitable time and excuse to ask my dad for more moolah, etc.
I know I am a bit kan cheong now, thinking that I am gonna be homeless soon, maybe in a few days' time. How???!!!!!!!! I just need one fucking house that allows me to keep my dog!!!!
sOphia.G
About Me
Sophia Goh.
Malaysia + Singapore
Born in the 80's
Floats like a butterfly. Stings like a bee.
I'm a little neurotic. I believe balance is everything. Illusion is a better depiction of reality. I am a bit short-circuit and have 18++ literacy.
Happy
Budget Trip with Best Buddies Dear's P.O.P Dear's 6th month in N.S Dear's 12th month in N.S Dear's 18th month in N.S Dear's O.R.D Finish University Get my PR Hardcore shopping Hong Kong IELTS Band 7
Japan Job in Singapore
Korea Macau
Maldives Malaysia for holidays New Canon Digital Camera
Own a house
Own a new car Popped My Tiesto Cherry Popped My ZoukOut Cherry
San Francisco
Scuba Diving License Singapore in June 2009 Singapore in December 2009
Sky Diving
Taiwan Vietnam
Friday, February 29, 2008 
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sOphia.G
