It is sad to know that you are being used by your friends, you treat them too good. A piece of advise, only treat your close or best friends good. The rest you can simply ignore them.
I understand how hurtful you are feeling now especially most of your friends only contact you when you have a car! You are not alone out there. It happens to a lot of people out there.
I still remember that you told me about friends who will only call you when they need you to fetch them for everything. The worst thing is they don't even willing to pay for the parking fees or never appreciate your help.
I reckon you should tell them that you need to pay for your petrol too. If they need your help to go to somewhere, you can definitely pick them up, but they have to contribute a bit like paying for the parking fees.
I am your friend for so many years, every time when we go out in KL... I am thankful and glad that you always come and pick me up. But I will always offer to pay for the parking, toll or sometimes your lunch or coffee for you.
Be smart and don't let your useless friends in Perth to take you for granted. It is very easy to see who your real friends are. Whenever a person who always call you or message you just because of your car, avoid them! As simple as that.
All the best in your studies and don't think too much. We miss you a lot in KL and hoping that you will be coming back here again end of the year.
to be frank with u, i honestly think it is fucking ridiculous that a friend msg's u on msn, frienster or hp only when there is something on their mind and need YOU to be the one who helps them. I mean as cookie monsta said, ignore those that msg u out of the blue. honestly...
We all fall victim to these typa dodgy people, and we often try to avoid it but sometimes our sensitivity get in the way. We just gotta try harder.
Believe your friends [ ur close ones ] when they say that ur sucha nice girl and to be taken advantage of is a big BAD thing. So once you realise that someones only calling you or contacting you for something, ignore it. don't be blind. open your eyes big big. ahahah.
most people are selfish, no brains.
just be selfish back ;) its ur life. ur car. ur time!
kenken.. yeah, i have a few friends here who like to take me for granted. and most of the time they are selfish lah... i know friends do need each other's help for a certain thing... but some of them are asking for too much... sometimes i really wanna just put a sign on my body saying "im not ur fucking chauffeur" hehehe
heard tat u bought a car in KL... next time it's ur turn to pick me up!!! muahaha... be very scared coz i will definitely take u for granted!! close friends nvm rite? hehehe
not sure whether im going back this end of the yr... see how it goes first! but would love to go clubbing in KL!!! more happening there than those clubs in perth!
jacque babe... i believe in u! hehehe... but even if u take me for granted, i will be fine.. coz u are my best buddy mah.. and i know u wont take me for granted one lah.
i will be more selfish to those friends next time. coz im give in to them tat i can pick them anytime they want. they have to learn how to be more compromise...
fuck spider.. dunno why a lot of singaporeans like to say tat! i think it's cute... muahaha... ima spider. kan cheong spider, fuck spider...
Yes, you have the rights to take me for granted. I don't mind actually. Oh yeah, I saw your best friend Shek Kim, is it Shek Kim or Cass? Saw her at Mid-Valley the other day with children. But I didn't say hi to her as I was rushing to somewhere. Please come back to KL, there are so many things to do here! I know you miss the food here, so fai fai come back. The clubs here need a clubbing queen. No wonder Zouk and Velvet Underground are not that happening anymore. :)
Good friends will never take you for granted and will always be understanding. On the other hand, bad friends will always take you for granted and they will never be understanding; and never will they put themselves in your shoes. Fuck all the friends who are taking me for granted, I have had enough of the shits that you guys are giving at me!!!
This morning I received a phone call from C* but I never answer her call coz I was still sleeping. Anyway, I heard the vibration of my mobile phone and after that I couldn't continue to sleep. So, when I checked on my MSN, she left a few messages for me like "Are u there? are u there? are u there?" I thought it was something urgent, so I decided to call her back as soon as possible.
She started telling me that she has booked a hotel room online but in the end the room is not available. She has paid around $300 for the rooms but the online agent refused to refund her the full payment. She tried calling them for a few times but they kept putting her on hold or didn't bother to answer her calls at all. In the end, she decided to go to their office to make a complaint... but she is sick.
Can you guys get the the hidden meaning there? C* hardly hang out with me, she hardly call me, we hardly chat on MSN, we hardly even do any fucking things together. I think she is trying to ask me to go to Murdoch to pick her up, send her to Subiaco to file a complaint, then she has a few things to buy there which I must accompany her to go shopping, then fetch her back to her house again!
So, I told her that I can't as I need to study at home. Then she said,"Huh? A few hours also cannot meh? It's not like I will take forever!!!" Oh well... If I have to go down and fetch her and to Subiaco and to Murdoch again, it will take around 1 hour, making a complaint 30 mins, shopping 1.5 hours. All together is 3 hours!! 3 hours is forever to me, I can study one chapter for my Corporate Finance!
She was a bit disappointed and mad in the end but I just can't be fucked with that. I mean, if it is that urgent, go there herself lah! When I was sick like hell, I still can work at the cafe, I still can drive everywhere myself!!! WTF is she thinking leh???
Sometimes friends can just pissed me off to the max!!! I mean... it's not like I never help her before. Every time when she needs my help to sell things, collect stuff, put ads at Murdoch Uni to sell her car... I have to go to her house to collect everything! I mean, if you need my help, you are the one who should pass the things to me, not asking me to go down to your house!!! But I am good enough to go to her house without saying anything!
She is the person who always wanna save her own money or do things that will benefit herself first. Just as long as she is not at the losing side, she just doesn't care. So, I have had enough of all this shit!!! She is not even being understanding at all!!! I am going to have my fucking final exams next week, stressed like hell everyday, don't have enough sleep everyday and now she is expecting me to sacrifice my time for her? Fuck you BITCH!!!
There is this Chinese proverb which says "If people are not selfish, heaven would bow in shame." I am so fucking agree with this proverbs now! C* is being selfish!! As for me, start from today I am going to be selfish with whoever I want to be selfish with! I am not going to fucking say YES YES YES YES and YES to all my friends anymore.
Jacque, Fiona, Diana and my best buddies in Malaysia who never take me for granted, they said that I have a serious problem! A problem like I hardly reject my friends and in the end I am the one who suffers. They think that I should start rejecting people more if I really can't help them. My exbf and my bf always tell me one thing "You can't always make everyone around you to be happy. What about yourself?"
Hell yeah! What about myself? I am not trying to be mean to my friends start from today... I mean, if you do appreciate me as a friend, I will always appreciate you as a friend. Just be more understanding and stop fucking taking me for granted!!!!!
You guys must always remember that "There's no such thing as a free lunch in this world." Before taking me for granted, please see what you can offer in return. If you have nothing to offer, then go fuck spider! Friends are there to help each other, I agree with that. But if most of the time I am helping you and you never even bother to give a helping hand to me, then you also can go and fuck spider!
So, I hope that you guys will be more understanding if I say No to you guys in the future. If I can help, I will definitely help you. But if I can't, what do you want me to do? It's like forcing me to go and eat shit! Please people, I do have feelings too, I am a human too, I do have things to do, I do have my own life too... Can't you be more understanding? What will you feel if someone always like to make use of you?
A question -- Do you guys think that it is a bad thing if a friend calls you only when he/she needs you help? I am so confused!!! Some of my friends said yes, some said no!
*I do apologize for the rough words and crazy things that I have typed in this entry. I am just feeling so mad the whole day today!!!*
Quote of the day: "If you think love is difficult, wait till you have a bunch of friends who take you for granted... Then you will really know how to spell the word -- D.I.F.F.I.C.U.L.T"
hahaha... true!!! to prevent him frm giving himself a BJ! but pity him lah... he cant scratch his body and head when he is itchy... sleep and eat also difficult.. LoL
Yay!!! I am a torchlight!! Oh well, maybe I am not. I have an alien suit! I am an alien! "I come in peace..." (Ooopsss.. I probably can't 'come' now after sterilization! Damn you, mummy!! You should at least let me fuck one time!)
I am still the almighty dog in the world -- Lexx! Do I look handsome to you?? *wink* *wink*
p.s: Me all time fave quote --> "Born as a virgin, die as a virgin."
I realized that I have been spending too much time sleeping at home lately due to the cold weather. I think I spent almost 10 hours sleeping during the weekend last week. I could be having 2 to 4 extra hours to study if I sleep less.
It's a miracle that I woke up 7.15am today! Muahaha... Not because I want to wake up early to study, it's because I have to bring my poor Lexx for sterilization to prevent prostate cancer in the future. Hopefully after the operation, he will be more tame and won't be dragging me when I bring him out for a walk.
So, today I am having a break from taking care of a dog and I can relax at home. Sometimes I do have an evil plan that I wanna throw my dog away, somewhere! (You guys know that I won't do that anyway... I love him so much. Hehehe..) It's just a thought of it when I was busy and he was whining there. Makes me feel like strangling him to death sometimes.
Having a dog is like having a baby who never grow up!! I have to fucking vacuum my house every week, he digs holes thousand of times in a day, he messes up the living room and carpet with his dirty paws, he bites his beddings without realizing that his mummy (ME!) has to work like hell at the cafe to buy that comfy bed for him. He makes the whole house stinks like a zoo, he shits and pees everywhere at the garden and it smells like a zoo too!! I have to pick up his poo poo every month, bathe him every two weeks no matter how busy I am.
Ok Ok... I admit!! I am feeling a bit regret now for having a dog! Although I do have that kind of feelings, but I am glad that he will always be the first 'person' to be beside me when I am down. Mummy heart you, Lexx! ^_^
aihhh.. too bad the lecturer isnt male lah. if male, then confirm can seduce lohh. too bad marion is straight. if bi.. can seduce her too. lol. why is this world so unfair!
try as hard as u can. even IF u fail corporate finance, u can always tell urself that u did try and hadnt given up.
im at uni by myself again leh. im feelin sleepy. havent started studying. been on computer for fuck ages. lol. the weather outside sioknyaaa. raining and cold.
9 more days to my first Corporate Finance final exams! Why does it has to be my first final paper??!!! Fuck man! So many readings and so little time for me to study for Corporate Finance. As the time slowly counting down to that day, my heart beats faster and faster each day!
I went to my Corporate Finance lecture on Thursday, some of my Finance major friends said,"How can you do a major in Accounting? It's so tough!!!" I told them,"No fucking way man! Finance is 100 times more difficult than accounting." At least accounting is easier to understand. For finance, I need to learn all those shits like variance, standard deviation, risks, rate of return, blah blah blah... WTF are those things?!!
Normally I would choose to give up on finance and tell myself that I will try harder next semester. But I am so scared of failing now and I really can't stay for another semester, I have to pass Corporate Finance this semester!!! GOD... HELP ME PLEASE!!!! SOB!!!I am so regret that I didn't study well throughout the semester and now I find it it hard to study from week 1 to week 12!
Yeap!! Finance units always make students lives harder! To study the readings from week 1 to week 12 is not easy for me!! Especially when I have Company Law paper the next freaking day!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!! FUCK Murdoch! I should have just transfered to Curtin since two years ago!
Anyway, got to get back to my Finance books.... Sianz~~ Life is a bitch! Can't wait to graduate!
procrastination is a normal kind of illness. lol. but, there is a limit to draw especially when the exams are drawing closer.. trust me, i think im suffering from the same disease as u. HAHAHA.. but, managed to do 1 chapter for my accountign la. hope to pass that.
anywayas.. with ur studying.. im sure u can de la.. ur so damn smart loh.. true kan.. and, if u fail corp finance, dun worry, it only means u have an advantage overs since u have prior knowledge. andddd, u can accompany me! YAY..
procrastination is a normal kind of illness. lol. but, there is a limit to draw especially when the exams are drawing closer.. trust me, i think im suffering from the same disease as u. HAHAHA.. but, managed to do 1 chapter for my accountign la. hope to pass that.
anywayas.. with ur studying.. im sure u can de la.. ur so damn smart loh.. true kan.. and, if u fail corp finance, dun worry, it only means u have an advantage overs since u have prior knowledge. andddd, u can accompany me! YAY..
hello Sophia! yeah....cold days make people lazy ! me too! dont feel like doing homework but sleep!! watch video everyday !! haha.... 2 more weeks many things have to submit oledi... if your lecturer said u might not able to pass the unit...ask her to go to hell.... i know u can de ! if u think u can, then u can..! >_< nothing is impossible in this world !!! show it to her!! good luck !!
evon, thanks for ur support!!! i will try my very best to study hard for tat unit! hehehe..
jacque... im not smart loh. smart ppl dun have to study one ok? hehehe... smart ppl last min study also can get Distinction ok? =) anyway... all of us must gambatte!!!
OMG!!! I am a big time procrastinator!! I haven't been studying for the past few weeks and I have only left 3 more weeks till my first paper. I have been sitting at home everyday looking at the computer screen or my TV thinking that 'I have nothing to do'!!! urrgghh...
Last week I talked to one of my lecturer regarding my result, she advised me and said that it's better for me to fail one unit than failing two units. As I am an international student, I am not allow to fail more than one unit for a semester. She checked my mid-sem test and she thinks that I might not be able to pass the unit.
I need at least a Distinction in the final exams to pass my whole unit. Although it's impossible for me to get a D in the final exams, but I told her that I will give it a try and will try my very best to pass the unit. If not, I will just treat it like a revision for this semester. Sigh~~~ I hate Corporate Finance!!!
I need the determination to start studying!!! Been feeling lazy these days, plus the weather is so cold nowadays! It's making me lazy. Yeap!! I decided to blame the weather! Muahaha...
Ever since he came back to Perth, I have the urge of asking him a lot of questions. Especially today... I am feeling too emotional, too depressed, too sad... I fucking hate PMS!!! Jacque has been asking me to ask my bf those things that I always wanted to know. But I decided to take my own sweet time on this issue.
I will probably ask him before he goes back to Singapore. Or I might not ask him in the end. Sigh~~~ My mood changes from time to time, sometimes I do wanna ask him a lot of things, sometimes I decided just to keep my mouth shut and don't ask about anything. Just let it be. I keep telling a lot of people that, "I don't wanna ask coz I don't wanna know." But deep down inside, I do wanna know.
Maybe I am a coward. Maybe I am scared of the truth. Maybe I don't wanna hear something that might hurt me in the end. The reason I don't wanna ask him is because I don't want to spoilt the mood for both of us, since he is here to have his holidays, then just let him enjoy his days here. But I am living like hell!!
Nowadays, every time when I see him chatting with someone on MSN and keep smiling. I do wanna ask him who is that person? Why do you have time to chat with that person but you can't be bothered to chat with me when you are in Singapore? Who am i to you? GF? Best friend? Good friend? Friend? Every time when he told me that he has watched a few movies in Singapore, I really wanna ask him where, when and with who?
It's ironic that he never ask me about what I had been doing here for the past few months. Sometimes I do wonder what's my position in his heart!!! He told me that he loves me, but on the other hand, he is doing nothing at all!! I am living in confusion and misery!
I think he is selfish and he loves himself more than he loves me. No wonder he is doing just fine in his life. He never worry about anything, I assume that he never feel sad about his relationship coz he always think that his relationship is perfect! Isn't it a bit too easy for him to be in a relationship? He doesn't have to call, he doesn't have to care for his girl, he doesn't even have to worry about anything! Fuck man! This is so fucking unfair.
I realize one thing in the end, that I should learn from him long time ago. Love yourself and you will be loved. Yeah. I agree. I always love other people more than I love myself. That's why I have a shitty life! I need a holiday! I need a getaway. I am going insane!
I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need em again someday I've been setting aside time To clear a little space in the corners of my mind All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's got to be something for my soul somewhere I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not just somebody just to get me throught the night I could use some direction And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love I can't make it through without a way back into love And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
sOphia.G
I love being single. or should i said -- semi-single?
ehh.. u dont have to be a lamp post when ur around willy zhai and me. altho sometimes we are very lovey dovey, it doesnt have to make u feel so left out de mah. u can also wrap ur arms around us. hahaha. threesome style. turn on.
one day. its a matter of one day. ull find that prince charming all dressed in shiny armour. dun lose hope. never.
despite that ur bf is back and that u dun enjoy his company so much. make the use of it. act as bf and gf even if u feel silly. make an effort? dun forget, things like these arent worth the worry. because, as the typical saying goes; there are plenty of fish in the sea. its just a matter of timing.
babe u are the most fuckin brightest star ive met. u are hot. hot hot. u have brains, come on la, ur studying ur 2nd degree. guys find smart girls sexy and much of a turn on. so definately, u are not deprived of a man. just wait bahhhhhhhhhhh.
thanks babe... i have actually spent the whole day thinking abt it and i think i should make use of the time and spend the time together with my bf. i will probably ask him out for a movie next week. see how loh. =)
thanks for having faith in me! i love u! muaks muaks!!! hehehe
I met up with a few friends on Friday, one of them has been telling me that her bf is planning something for her on her coming birthday. She added that they are going to have a romantic dinner first, then maybe going to Metro to celebrate her birthday with friends and I am invited. Then she asked, "Your bf hasn't come back ah?" So, I decided not to go to Metro tonight coz I don't want everyone to ask me that same old pathetic question.
My mind just can't cope with all the stress that I am having now. I need some time to cool down my mind so that I will be able to study. Moreover, I have test next Tuesday that I need to study at home tonight, hopefully. Then I went over to Crystal's house after my work yesterday, she has helped me to buy a big box of Krispe Kreme donuts. Yum!!! Again, she asked me how's my life these days and... "Your bf hasn't come back ah?" and "Then how about you?" and "Are you sure you are ok?"
Of coz I am not ok, being someone who is so scared of loneliness. But I guess I have started to get used to it. I think I would have died a long time ago if it's not Fiona, Jacque and William who are always by my side. I would probably died of boredom and depression. I am glad that I manage to find some good friends in life who have helped me through my life and sometimes when I think about it, it just make me wanna cry so badly!
Diana calls me every month just to make sure that I am fine here. She is coming to Perth in June to meet up with her bf, she said, "I wanna go and see Martin and to keep you accompanied." There we go again, I am gonna become a super bright lamp pose when I am with Diana and Martin, plus Jacque and William. I hate this kind of feelings! I used to be a lamp pose when I was with Grace and Ben, Windi and Hsien Jun.
Maybe they never realized how 'bright' I am, but I do feel uncomfortable when I am around them. I just don't wanna ruin their couple moments. Especially when I have a bf but I am acting like I don't have a bf. Deja Vu!! I remember this kind of thing happened to me in 2004. Even my best friends in Malaysia are worried about me coz they know that I won't be able to survive that well! Muahaha..
But I have to lie to them that I am doing alright here, they don't have to worry much about me. I love my semi-single life. I can do whatever I want, I can eat out everyday, I don't have to cook, I don't have someone nagging me, I have plenty of time for myself and my dog... In the end, they said,"Yeah right! Stop lying! But if that makes you feel good, then keep going." Damn! Since when they started to become so sarcastic to me?!!! But, I love them still! ^_^
In conclusion, I DO love being single now! Or maybe being semi-single... But for long term, I don't think I would like it. Like Diana always said, if I don't have that person accompanying me all the time, she thinks that I would have collapsed since long time ago. Well, I guess what she said is so fucking true. In the end, I still LOVE and HATE my life anyway.
sOphia.G
About Me
Sophia Goh.
Malaysia + Singapore
Born in the 80's
Floats like a butterfly. Stings like a bee.
I'm a little neurotic. I believe balance is everything. Illusion is a better depiction of reality. I am a bit short-circuit and have 18++ literacy.
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Thursday, May 31, 2007 
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sOphia.G
