Congratulation to Ef Fei!!
First of all, congratulation to one of my close friends since secondary school --- Ef Fei!!! She is happily married now and everyone is so happy for her!! Sek Khim decided to take a few pictures for me and sent them to me, the reason is to make me jealous coz I couldn't be there with them!
Yes!! I am extremely jealous!!! I was supposed to be there!!! Urggghh... It's my close friend's wedding!!! To be honest, I have been to a lot of weddings but I have never been to any of my friends' wedding before! Sob sob!! Two of my college friends got married last year and now my close friend. Sometimes I just hate the idea of me still studying in Australia! Damn!
The reason why everyone is happy for Ef Fei is because she used to have a fucked up bf who treats her really badly. He is fucking egoistic, chauvinistic and is a playboy. They broke up after 6 years of relationship and Ef Fei was sad about the break-up for two years. Luckily last two years she has found this guy (I can't remember his name... met him once last year. My bad!!). This guy really treat my friend really good and he is very caring and loving to my friend.
How come I never find someone who is good after so many times of fucked up relationship??? God... do you have something against me??!! Hmm... Oh well, maybe I have found one, but I gave it away. Silly me! I am still living in regret. Serve myself right!! Sigh!! If only I could turn back time, I would hold on to him tightly! Because of my bad decision, I am living like hell now! Having a bf who doesn't even care about me! CCB!!!
On the phone with Annie...
Annie: I am so happy to know that Ef Fei is married now.
Me: Yeah loh, it's her dream since young what. She always wanna become a housewife one.
Annie: I also wanna get married leh. After going out with Edwin for 8 years, I am getting more and more desperate. Especially seeing those friends around us got married one by one.
Me: Then next year you faster get married loh. I will fly to Malaysia just for you!! Hehehe...
Annie: You think I don't want meh? Must save money first mah. Moreover, Edwin also never propose to me. But money is the main issue lah. Huey, you never thought of getting married meh?
Me: Erm... Never leh. I hate kids!
Annie: -_-'' You are weird!
Well, I know that there are a lot of girls out there who always dream of getting married since young. But not me. I have never ever dreamt of getting married my whole life before. And I have never find it exciting, even though I am always feeling extremely happy for all my friends who are married!!
Marriage to me, is like a contract, a piece of paper. Like the warning sign blinking 24/7constantly reminding you are not to fuck up. No more freedom, lots of responsibilities. Or maybe because I haven't find the right guy who makes me think of marrying him in the future. My view might change if I am able to find my Mr. Right.
I am someone who once get married, I don't wanna think of getting divorce. That's why I am always worried that I might married to an asshole in the future. The next thing, there goes my life~~ I'd rather be single than married to someone who doesn't appreciate me. I reckon it's so fucking hard to find a nice guy nowadays and it's killing me, seriously!
**Pipu... if you are reading this. I fucking hate you for all the things that you have done to me! And also hate you for breaking all the promises you have made. Now only I understand that promises are meant to be broken! You have fucked up my entire life and for putting me in this kind of melancholy state! Shame on you!!**
Sunday, April 29, 2007 
8:58:00 PM 
sOphia.G
