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 In today's blog, I am going to talk about smoking... This month -- August will be the third year of Sophia Goh being a smoker. Yeah!! For the first two years, I smoked a lot. Really a lot! I can smoke one pack a day. Especially when I was playing game, I kept smoking non-stop. If there could be an alcoholic word for smoking then that would be me. I am a smoke-aholic!!! I love everything about smoking. I love the taste, I love it when there's something to do, I love it when there's something in between the fingers. I love the first one when I wake up, I love the last one before I go to bed, every one in between. Whether it's obssession or fixation, I just love it! I always think that I am going to be a smoke-aholic for the rest of my life. "Unless you look like me, you could stand to lose a few pounds. Let's face it: slightly chubby
but cute in the face is no way to go through life. Smoking can help with that. You smoke now?
Good! Then don't quit or the weights will pile on and you will be helpless to stop it. HELPLESS!!
Take care of yourself or you may find someone who does look like me taking care of your man!"
I found this ads somewhere by Angelina Jolie. I used to smoke Viginia Slim, I just love it a lot. Too bad I can't get it here, unless I go back to Malaysia or I have to buy it from the airport. I am not too sure whether stop smoking will make you put on weights, but I have a few friends who are trying to quit smoking and they DO put on weights. It makes me scared, but I am not going to give myself excuses not to quit smoking. Actually I have planned quitting smoking since last year, I hope that I can do it. As I have mentioned just now that the first two years I have been smoking nearly a pack for a day. But for this year, Darrel and I decided to cut down on smoking. So, we took 6 months to cut down from 10-15 sticks a day to 5 sticks a day. For 6 months.
 For now, I can live without have to smoke every 30 minutes. I used to bring cigarettes when I go to university, go out with friends and more. But this year, I didn't even bring my cigarettes to the uni or when I am going out with friends. So, I don't smoke that much anymore. I will only smoke when I am at home. I am so proud of myself!! I hope that I can quit smoking immediately!! The problem now is, even if I quit smoking. If I go clubbing with friends, I sure want to smoke in the club. Should I become a social smoker or non-smoker?? Hmm... Damn it!! There were a few times where I quit smoking for 1 week or 2, but after that, I want to smoke again coz I am so used to having something to do when the first thing I wake up in the morning and after all my meals. I often think that girls who smoke look really cool, just look at Karen Moss and Drew Berrymore!! Muahahaha... But this is not reason why I start smoking. I started smoking because of my useless exbf, so I think I have to tell myself that I have to quit now!!! Don't let him ruin your whole life!! I don't know whether it's because I am old or what, but I definately feel like suffocating every time when I smoke too much. I think it's a great time to quit as I have decided to settle down now. I have cut down on clubbing, I have thought of the future with Darrel. We agree that we shouldn't smoke for long term as his parents are going to stay here in Perth for longer period next year and we won't be able to smoke at home or outside. Moreover, Of coz we think of getting married and have children in the future. I reckon that if I want to quit smoking when I get pregnant, it will be too hard for me. I think the best solution is to quit for a few years before you get pregnant. I think need a few years to get rid of the toxic in my body.
I have one and a half packet of cigarettes with me now. I promised myself that I will quit after this 30 more sticks of cigarettes. I just hope that Darrel won't be buying any cigarettes back from Singapore. Or else, I will start smoking again. I always have the mentality that "ok, I will smoke this carton finish, after than then I will quit." Oh well, we will see how it goes. Will keep you guys updated!! Wish me luck!!!
sOphia.G
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Thursday, August 17, 2006 
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