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FAITH + HOPE + MIRACLE |
Oh my GOD~~~! Finallay exams are over! OVER!!! I haven't been having much sleep lately. On Tuesday night, I have only slept for 5 hours. Then on Wednesday night, I have only slept for 2 hours!!! Although I am feeling tired, sleepy and keep yawning for the whole day today... But I was too busy with my ebay listing until I am too obssessed with it. Woo Hoo... I managed to sell two pairs of my favourite heels and one pair of Diana Ferrari boots on ebay. Overall, I will be getting $180 for selling that three pairs of shoes. Since I am not going to wear those shoes anymore, why not just sell them on ebay. Anyway, I still have 4 more pairs of heels that no one bids for them. Sob!!
Although exams are over now, and soon I will be going to Sydney and Melbourne for my winter break. But I am not happy and excited at all. I keep thinking about those silly mistakes that I have made during the exams. You guys will probably be seeing me frowning during the holidays. Even though I will be physically away from the uni during the holidays... but mentally I am not away from the uni, especially I will be thinking about my exams results. I know it's silly to keep thinking about all these as I can't change anything now. But I am worried!!! You guys will understand why when you continue to read this post...
My review on all my three stupid units:
- Finance Banking (need 35% out of 50% to pass the whole unit) -- 35%??!!! That is just insane!! How can I score a distinction for my final exams. Anyway, I spent two weeks studying for this paper and guess what? I screwed it! I don't know why every time when I have put in so much effort to study, then in the end when I went in to the exam hall... My head just went blank. Gone! Finito! When I was doing this paper, I knew that I am going to fail for this unit. Oh fuck, this is my second time doing this god damn paper... and it's such a boring unit!! NO!!!! I'm going to repeat again! Fuck!!!
- Company Law (need 35% out of 50% to pass the whole unit) -- again... how ironic is that?!! I am definately going to fail for this one. The MCQ was so tough and the problem questions were tough as hell!!! What the fuck??
- Accounting (need 23% out of 60% to pass the whole unit) -- sounds easy right? I thought so too!! I was so confident with my accounting, coz I have been doing this unit for the third time!!! I am not allowed to fail this unit or else, the uni is going to suspend me. If they suspend me, this means that I have to go back to Malaysia FOREVER!!! I am serious!!! I studied for everything!!! But the questions were so tough, don't know what the fuck is Jo thinking!!! All the tips that she gave... They were all wrong!!! fucking bitch!!!
If I fail this thee units this semester, I seriously don't know what to do. I think the uni might suspend me, and the immigration might deport me back to Malaysia. Then I can forever stay in Malaysia and measure the road. It is so serious that I nearly broke into tears after the exams, coz deep down inside, I am scared! I don't want to go back. I just need a chance, maybe let me pass my Accounting! Everyone has been asking me to be optimistic. I know, I want to be optimistic too. But... I am the one who sit for all those papers and I am the only who know that whether I can make it through or not. I am very confirmed that I will fail Finanace Banking and Company Law. As for accounting... I am not too sure.
I must have FAITH in myself now, I am trying my very best!! I keep telling myself that maybe I will pass accounting?? Who knows?!! I need a little bit of HOPE and lots and lots of MIRACLES!! I doubt all these are going to happen to me!! HOW???!! I am doomed!!! I am so scared!!! I don't want to fail!!! Damn it!!! My heart beats 1000 times faster every second ever since I finished my last paper. Am I really that fucked-up and stupid in commerce degree? (Well Sophia, maybe you are fucked-up and stupid, period.)
sOphia.G
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Friday, June 23, 2006 
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